Shivvy

Shivvy 18h

Child

Laying in bed tonight
I have this crave or want
To somehow go in the past
And protect the child I was

#childhood #unexpressed #love #cherish

Shivvy 2d

So darling
In the moments that exist
With you on the pavement
When night
I want to look in your eyes
And say the words
I love you
With a voice that holds the softest might

#love #night #confessions #declarations

Shivvy 4d

You wont; unless i let you

Try and pull me down
Chop my wings
To hear me agonizing
And then watch me walk on ground
Reminiscing the sky
But not being affected much around
Hear me say
You didn't pull me down

#resilience #strong

Shivvy 6d

Forest

In a forest
Of twists and turns and nothing honest
Everything is deceiving
The deep trees
Hide chaos unravelling
the leaves are dry as they rustle in the breezes
The footsteps are unnoticed
Nor a care is given to those wheezes
The lakes overflow
As it rains with such a might
Still no flood in fear that its not a strong sight
In plain view it's a secluded space
A good distant scenery that hides ugly grace
Plenty a tree and many a river
So much everywhere
Yet it feels hollow
There is always a hue of unknown sorrow
A dark ground that's sees seldom light
You will hear faint voices
In the vicinity when night
You can't escape this
You never will
And can't change it
But can pretend you did
Yet you'll not be freed
From this forest
One of a kind
The mind
Whose demons won't be tamed
As eventually even your soul is claimed

#forest #lies #insecurities #mind #dark

Shivvy Sep 5

Mine

Did you ever pray to call me mine?
Because, cara, I?
I don't recall how many times I have tried
To push us away
As if my mind ever decided how my love swayed
To save myself
Even if my trials failed
To lock my soul
Though still indulge in your tainted fouls
To pretend emotionless
When I was bleeding with silenced howls
I have attempted everything
I could
And after all
I have prayed for us to be one
Like icarus craving to be near the sun
I have prayed to be held in your arms, when worn
Protected by you from dusk till dawn
I have prayed for my hopes to come real
To engulf me in a warm blanket for many years
And so
I wonder
If your efforts were just as painfully hopeful in time
And
Did you ever pray to call me mine?

#love #longing #hope

Shivvy Sep 3

Us?

I'd still smile fondly, looking at you;
Knowing the future having us will never be true.

#love #future #always

Shivvy Sep 1

Crave

I crave to be so much
It haunts me in dreams I don't wish to indulge
A perfectionist, my heart wishes
But such a thought and my soul clenches

I crave to be the only choice
Not a second voice
To shine alone like the moon
But be a star soon

I crave to rule hearts
Have power to be unbroken in my palms
To heal scars
Loving the most darkest path tragedies cast

I crave to be at the top of every crest
Never fail a single test
To answer every question right
Be ideal to anyone in sight

I crave to be so much
Selfish and guilty desires proved such
When all my wants are pacified
Will i finally be gratified?

#wants #crave #wishes