I’ve waited all night
clock struck twelve you didn’t come
being in love hurts



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silent pain in dreams
sleeping consciousness awakes
I remember you.


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Weather is mild, last earth colors
are closing the eyes
returning back to dirt of Earth
From afar comes the sound of a lovely hymn
It comes on the wings of a white snowbird
Freezing cold wind is howling
embracing the skin
It’s time to prepare the logs for an open fire.
We hear the silence of the first snowflakes falling softly.
Orange to yellow lights stay on the whole day
Pine trees are wearing their white coats changing the view in a special warm way
creating this precious Christmas card.

It’s here
Winter time, silent and peaceful.
Let’s stay inside, on the couch under a warm blanket.
Let’s have hot chocolate milk
and roast some chestnuts.


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Oh my beautiful dog, are you lost?
Do you feel my desperation
Yes I am sad and lonely, lost the old lady
after 50 years of togetherness.
Surrounded by stillness and blurred view.
Everything seems to happen in slow motion these days.
Don’t you have a home my friend
Do you want to go home with me?
Don’t look at me with  such
a questionable look.
I could use the company you know
Not a bad idea.
Let’s share the pain, let’s share the love.
So much love left inside of me.
It’s been long that I felt someone else’s consciousness.
We connect.
What should I call you.
I know you are “Precious “
Yes.
Come on Precious let’s go home.



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Thank you for the rose my love
I fly high and still look at you from above, every day.
I know you have many silent tears and so much pain in your heart.
Yes today was the day and that was the place.
I fell from that wooden bridge and drowned .
You must know I fell because of my seizure.
Your little man I was.
Always together, always taking care of me.
Being sick wasn’t easy on you as a single parent.
But what a love you gave me my love.
What a lovely mom you were.
Know that I’m not far away.
I am free as a bird in the sky
I often come and sing a song in the tree next to your window.
Tell you what I see up there.
It’s all good and I’m not sick here.
My one wish is for you to smile.
Maybe when my little brother arrives.
I will be still here, watching.
Thank you for the rose my love.



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He who gave you life
will certainly give you water
when thirsty
Just have faith.




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Don’t let the day of today be ruined by yesterday or tomorrow.
What happened yesterday is already in the past
What you think will happen tomorrow may never be.
Just be thankful for the given day.



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Giving Thanks
For the harvest
Fruit and spices
Different pies
roasted turkey
Togetherness
with family, with friends
A Celebration
of God’s blessings.




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The clock is ticking towards midnight hour
Towards end of just another year.
Soon last season will take over, time to
leave behind all that isn’t good for you
Just like fall’s fallen leaves will leave
Time for  reflection can begin.
Keys are there for doors to open
To unlock life’s hidden mysteries
and to close doors to all
that’s over,
time for forgiveness sets in.
Another chance is given to make wrongs right .
Yes,
It’s time for a new begin.

Every season has its own charm.
Every year new mysteries.

Every day in life you have the chance for new beginnings.
Every day can bring you light .





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I recognized you
the moment I saw you
You’ve been on my mind,
in my thoughts forever .
It’s the feeling I get
when looking in your eyes.



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Sitting alone in the dark
In this time of light and care
Only thing that sparkles here
are those silent falling tears
For whatever reason
So much sadness deep inside
While we celebrate
Think of them when you pray.



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Today in early morning
Smokey blue sky
Only one bright star to see
Searching for my moon
Where is she, unexpectedly
right above me
Gave me a smile
I stand still
Almost half moon I greet
Watching me and the star afar.




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Hold close to you
what’s dear to you
while roses still bloom.



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While the last yellow leaves are leaving
Yellow lights stay on all day
To bring warmth and coziness
in long gray evenings with short darker days
Warming naked trees and inner selves.
Valuable togetherness


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A thousand different sunsets
Not two of them the same.
Lamp of Aladdin like sun this time ,
like a miracle you appear on lavender canvas
fuming all kinds of pomegranate like colors,
to color the sky in a warm way .
Changing to orange to yellow
when reaching top of the sky,
painting this incredible sunset
caressing the eyes .
You can see the fume coming out
mixing fuchsia nuances as sun sets
lower to rest.
Lavender colored breeze
finding its way over the ocean
creating fine ripple wave kisses
for shore to embrace .



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reaching out to you
I am your brother brother
take my hand and trust

I will pull you up
Into the dark we both are
let’s go to the light

In peace together
the only way to mend the wrong
brotherhood follows




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Pink peony, ticking clock , unread book
hourglass

My love
Time doesn’t wait
Never has since the beginning of time.
Doesn’t wait for flowers to last
Happiness, beauty, wealth and romance
All can fade away with time
Like reading a book, hoping that it will never end but it does.
My love,
Let our love be pure and honest, never ending.
Like a lovely fragrance in a bottle.
Always there.
Soft pink peony, for all the above you stand
For honor and love you stand too
Let my love be forever, moments of love,
time after time.
Strung together.
As was meant to be.




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And when all the golden leaves
of fall have fallen
You see the beauty of silhouettes.




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And while the world is changing around us
Orange clouds are taking over the sky
Souls of people are rising up to the heavens while yet another sunset is painting the sky.
Every day loved ones die
Meeting of spirits will soon happen while Earthlings cry.
Story of all our lives.


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Busses, trains, subways
Loaded with people
No eye contact whatsoever
You feel yourself drowning
Drowning in the crowd
Drowning in isolation .
God for everyone
Everyone for themselves.
Give me back simple life.
Let me return to nature.



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love in nature’s frame
sun sets in different ways
binds us together



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God is in all the unexpected places
In mountain highs
In valley lows
Everywhere He leaves you signs.
In every moment of the day
In every moment of your life.



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He is broken
In need of love
Every little gesture
Is never to much
Come along stranger
Look around
Be kind to him
Leave all the virtual behind
Start the healing.


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Low hanging
Full crystal moon
Almost wet kiss on moving waters
Make stars close their eyes
Glow of blushing tide.


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It all starts with the beauty
of one Christmas bell,
family. and friends together
That special feeling, like a spell
Beginning of this wonderful symphony.
For others a special time in other ways
Missing of that special someone
Gone unexpectedly, left without a say
but a melody in the heart and tears in the eyes.
Many in solitude, no one left to share.
Sitting, waiting
Praying to let this season pass.
Let us be there for those who need us
To let the meaning of this symphony
be one of harmony  between us all.


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She looked up
Wishing for a falling star
To make a wish, a dream come true
The stars stared back
Taken by the sparkles that out shined them
One by one they started falling.



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Sometimes hidden in the dark
Grow to the light and bloom
Flower in God’s garden.
We all are.


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Breathing white canvas
picturesque flowing colors
many sunflowers



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Translucent rain can’t hide behind it.
A necessity for the world.
Brings freshness to this Earth.
Translucent tears can’t hide the pain.
They fall like shimmering rain
Life itself is to blame.
Translucent waters, clean to drink from,
a must for all living things.
Translucent oceans, a necessity for sealife
to live healthy to have longevity
So humankind can survive
Translucent air to see blue sky clear
No misty fog to choke the throat and burn the eyes.
Translucent heart, like a crystal jewel
Filled with light, filled with love
For all our people
Just share love by being kind
Afterall we’re all humans, different, still so much alike.
We are all one of one kind.



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Autumn bud
Start blooming
Let your golden colors
soften my restless mind
Prelude to inner peace
Preparing me for reflection time
I am in twilight zone
Soon togethernesses
Coziness with
friends and family.



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Almost disappearing in the unseen
You try your best but no one cares, it seems.
Then you walk in a field of violet violets
Lay me down on a purple dream
Let me dream the dreams of royals
where angels do appear near,
where wisdom prevails,
gone are all the fears.

Humility takes you all the way
Brings love and peace to you
All the blues will disappear.
A happy place is where you end
Everyone feels you’re there.
I bring violet violets for you
because you’re such a kind being.
I see you.



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And when you leave this world behind,
let me be the last thought on your mind.
Know that I love you even after.



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Woman,
You can’t be somebody’s option
Show your worth only  to those who see you as a priority.
Only they are worthy of you.



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pink song heart filled LOVE
life’s melody to dance on
only way to PEACE.



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I was standing proud
Holding my newborn in my arms
Looking around if someone was noticing me.
Look at me with this blanket wrapped wonder.
A bud to bloom in life.
I was, in away, a newborn too
No one had prepared me for this.
This feeling…..

When growing up nothing was to much for me.
That proud feeling never left.
I could sit and watch you from afar, thinking God has given me this wonderful human being, happy child.

Then gradually I saw a teenager developing. That came with up and downs.
Not mama’s little child anymore.
I saw you search your way through life
Thinking you knew it all.
Not listening anymore.
Saying,
how could I know better when it was a different time with things I myself didn’t grow up with.

Then bad news knocked on the  door. The unexpected.
The worst.

Mother, father in pain
While writing this I cry.
The proud of your life did something you can’t comprehend.
Very hard to accept. You still can’t understand how this was even possible.
In shock.

Know that this
doesn’t make you a bad parent. Did you fail your child?
Maybe, maybe not.
What happened can be the result of so many things.
When children become adults and doing their own thing,
are in bad company
you have no control over that.
Of course it is wrong and you’re disappointed and sad,
there could have been other solutions. But most things happen in the moment.
Your child failed you.
All your expectations were swept away in one slap.
Like a hurricane destroying everything you build.
It hurts so much….

You want to run away and towards at the same time
You want to yell and scream
and give comfort at the same time
Tell yourself everything is going to be alright.

What happened was wrong.
The parents are the first to acknowledge  that.
The first to feel the guilt.
And for what?
God forbid it doesn’t happen to you
So don’t judge.


Your child will always be your child. No matter what .
There can be a wall between you .
There can be bars separating you,
but the love
will always be there as will be the tears in the eyes and the pain inside.

Child,
Fruit of my womb.
The flower in my life.
No matter what.



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Blooming together,
Intertwined we must stay.
In the mist of life
Mystery of the morning
reflecting in nature.
Beautiful peonies
showing us how to be.



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Purple shades of sky
blinding eyes of starlike sunrise
Over mountain highs
and valley lows you shine.
Giving hope to every corner of the day.



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Color me orange fire moon
When you’re near and full
Watching my beauty
That’s when I’ll bloom
in the light of night
Sun of dark
I’m so in love with you.


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Bird,
you don’t have wings
to sit in a cage all day.
Fly high, explore
As you were meant to do.


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Every minute of the day miracles do happen.
Many aren’t even aware of this.
You yourself can be a miracle to someone else every given day in life.
Just by being there.
listening or helping.
Or just encouraging that it will be alright.
Life is more then just existing for your own.
Miracles come from our own minds
God is inside each of us
When praying we call upon God
When praying with all the faith that’s inside us
we put our minds behind it.
By doing so the healing of ourselves starts and we can help others.
Miracles are in the little things. You have to be open for it to see it.
If someone is down and hurt you have the power to change that.
Just by being there you can make a difference and change someone’s view. Seems nothing but it’s huge.
Miracles don’t have to be big to be a miracle.
Holding someone’s hand and a smile seems nothing, but
a miracle it is
because it’s a connection from deep inside to reach someone deep inside.




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Silhouettes to see
yellow, orange to golden touch
Fall leaves fall



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Six o’clock morning
Half ripen peaches sky
Sign to expect a hot day
ahead.
Hope there will be a cool breeze.
No movement.
Ominous silence.
Restless birds
Will there be storm?


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I have missed you all my life
can’t wait to meet you.


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She felt lost
Sadness and despair
In the dark she saw
light spots she never noticed before
Showing her the way
At the bottom she saw handles she didn’t know were  there
To pull herself up
She was surrounded by love.

In your darkest hour
Faith will see you through.


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Take me dream to pleasant dreams
In silence
On  night’s island
where different colored flowers are awake under dark velvet blanket sky
In the presence of white admirals.
Black feline on the hunt
watching carefully this strange behavior.

Listening to silent night
of peaceful midnight longings.
Where in my dream I’ll pick for you beautiful wildflowers
Smell the sweet scent of nights air
while waiting for you
in my dream’s dream garden.



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When our time is near
we leave behind
all the burdens on our backs
but the ones within.
Hold close what’s dear.
Watch the immaculate white rose.



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