I am not here. I am somewhere else.
I am in a place unhinged, altered from reality.
I place myself in tangerine,
like the golden glow of your eyes,
hopeful in holding onto you.
It is, although, no longer tangible,
it is still here.
Dusted across every inch of our home,
Pieces of your remain to remember you by.
And I will love you always.
xoxo

And I will take myself to paradise,
step into the salty sea and melt away the tears.
I will raise my eyes to the tangerine horizon,
and climb my way into the Universe, where you now live.
To dissipate the pain and surround myself in you.  

Because I have become unhinged,
from myself, from life, from love.
And I need to know you were real,
that you're still real!
That the Universe is kind to your soul
while on it's journey into the
Tangerine Dream.  

I love you. I miss you. Forever.
xoxo