“You told me you didn’t love him, just the other day”
You said, reiterating the words you’d heard me say
“I told you the truth of how I felt at that time.
In that moment, I thought that everything was fine”

“But now you say you love him, how can that be so?”
Your eyes are accusing and I hear it in your tone.
I reply “one day you feel angry and another you’re fine,
I don’t expect you to feel the same way all the time”

“My feelings I’d buried, pushed them down deep inside,
It wasn’t a choice that I’d made, not to confide.”
You look at me with eyes full of disappointment,
At my feelings of someone that you to resent.

I’ll try not to get swept up in this emotional sea,
For the man who in many ways, is so wrong for me.
I’ll bury my truth deep down inside my heart,
And won’t let it split me and my best friend apart.

What good would it do my heart
To let my sweet kiss meet your lips
To savour the touch, the warmth
To feel you press against my hips

What good would it do to my mind
To keep in contact, day after day
To think of you whilst I try to sleep
To allow myself to dream away

What good would it do to my soul
To let you make me laugh so deeply
To feel the warmth when you’re there
To let you take care of me so sweetly

What good would it really do
To let these walls crumble away
To allow myself to fall so deep
To let my heart get led astray
As in truth, as much as it hurts
It’s not me that you love anyway

If you want to hold me
Hold me
I won't push you away
Wrap your arms around me
There I will let you stay
Squeeze me a little more
Before you walk away

If you want to lie with me
Lie with me
I won't tell you to go
Let me be your comfort
If you feel a little low
It would mean a lot
But I'd never let it show

If you want to love me
Love me
I won't stop you there
Run your hands up my back
Lace your fingers in my hair
When you wake in the morning
I will still be there

A secret touch…your fingers trailing
Down my cheek…tilt my chin
And my eyes meet yours…

Green to hazel…spellbound
Caught in your gaze…and I can't move
Can't do anything but look…

Then I'm lost…deeper, deeper
Than ever before…there are no words
And I see everything…

Just one touch…just one look
And I understand…everything

This is my freedom
Where I write what I choose
Without worrying about you
Or what I may lose

I write from my heart
And secrets escape
I tell what I feel
My thoughts take shape

So here I can purge
With no worry of you
Reading my heart
And my love for you

Lips meeting for the first kiss
Sparks flying, sensual bliss
Fingers tracing, electrical touch
Hunger growing, wanting so much

Tongues tasting, new paths sought
Too long denied, too long fought
Bodies touching, skin upon skin
Heat building, sizzling within

Kisses desperate, evoking fire
Fingers playing, pooling desire
Move inside, blissful delight
Skin upon skin, each others light

We come together, come as one
Loving you, I become undone

I used to write you poetry
Then one day I could no more
There were too many words there
That could leave my heart raw
So I threw away the pen I used
Desperately tried to close the door
Yet the feelings built up and up
Until finally I could take no more

The words spilled with a vengeance
Upon page after page of white
They talked highly of love and lust
They mentioned things, both wrong and right
They cursed and expressed and cried bitterly
Until the tears blurred my sight
Then finally the love bled through
And gave me the strength to fight

The room is dark, just the blue stars above
Cuddled up in my arms, a little sleepy head
My beautiful daughter, all warm and snug
Falling asleep, as we're tucked up in bed

Then selfishly I think 'I wish it was enough'
And at that a tear escapes, runs down my cheek
I'm glad for the darkness, covering my face
And that my little one is so close to sleep

My heart belongs to someone who's taken
But although I want more, it could never be
I don't want things to change from how they are
Yet the only man who'll ever complete me is he

My first thought in the morning, my last at night
A hundred times throughout each day
He is the one who helped me to my feet
And without him, I think I'd lose my way

How can we stay friends when I cry for him
Yet the thought of losing him is so much worse
The pain it would cause to walk away is immense
I guess for loving him that will be my curse

The stars align and there you are
So near, yet frightfully out of touch
Your hand, ready, made for mine
Your lips a balm to my wounds
Needed and wanted so much

Your soul, a glove to handle me
An understanding, so fresh, so desired
And I sink, willingly, into your eyes
Next to your heart, within your soul
I lose myself within you so deeply
That I finally find who I am

This heart and mind rage wildly in war
A battlefield causing carnage deep inside
Imperfect, taken, not even mine to choose
Yet somehow my heart chose you anyway

Impulsive, annoying, aggressive at times
The thought hadn’t even crossed my mind
Yet somehow you climbed my tall walls
Found the depths of my heart and crept inside

Need a hiding place, a refuge from all this
A place to erase you, yet all I do is think
Remember your kiss, lips hot against mine
But you were gone before I could even dream

Not strong or good enough to win your heart
Yet sentenced to spend each day by your side
Struggling hard to build these broken walls
My mind and heart raging on with the war inside

I want to lie under the sky with you
Count the stars when they turn blue
Breathe the heat day left behind
Cleanse my heart and clear my mind

Feel the breeze touch my face
Find your hand, let fingers lace
Nothing more and nothing less
Let my mind forget the rest

Watch the moon, phasing through
Feel the closeness here with you
Side by side, always there
A heart of gold to always care