Pieces of me rest with places, people and  moments in time
I've spent years unraveling, leaving a string of memories, a lifeline of who i once was

Hours spent,
Wasted,
Glued to my bed, staring at the wall, running through scenes from my life that have never happened.
Family and friends who'd love for me to divulge what's going on in my mind,
But The wall can't be hurt by what I have to say, it has no plans to fix me and often our conversations are one sided,
I don't have to tip toe around words,
Not that it would care if I did or did not.

**** me up like the cards
                       I was dealt,               
  Show me why they say hot as hell
So let's drink to sinning,
Sad eyes grinning
I'll eat my words, tongue and teeth.
But please, I saved my heart for you.

Unfazed,
Problems glisten but outta my gaze,
Straight faced,
Never fit into their lives so I made my own space,
Nonsense,
these are ramblings baby so
I digress,
I'm picture perfect if your perfect is a work in progress

Issues stick to my side like fat ***'s and cellulite,
Sorry I'm slow , I miss signs, maybe we need a lite Brite
I don't like being pushed over, Imma argue even if I'm not right
Asking if I still want you over,
"Doesn't matter to me"
Even tho I'm dying to have you here tonight

Slipped up but it's not what you think,
Feels like a life time since I've touched drugs or drink,
Years prior have me feeling empty from all that was given,
Routine played out, last year drunk this year driven

I don't regret ****,
But id take a couple words back
I try to be clever,
But youre to sharp like a thumb tack

I can be dramatic,
Acting like I lost hope,

We can do bad things,
with my hands around your throat,

Dripping gold with style,
Like we're ******* Baroque