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Sep 2019 · 329
i’m just a kid
Rori Helsley Sep 2019
the world might end in 70 years i’m 12 i will watch every single living organism i love for and then when will i i’m leaving all my friends i’ve known for 5 years of my life behind and i have no word in this cuz i’m a kid i don’t know what’s right or wrong or what i what to say or if i made a mistake or what my sexuality is i’m 12” your  just a kid you don’t know what you saying” i do tho i know what is wrong in this world “your a kid your depressed your sad” i do know depression is i don’t lie about this **** yes i used to lie about stupid stuff but i don’t lie anymore people say “you’ve never changed” because they don’t know me i don’t open up to people but when i do they stab me in the back and i say in that my family wants me to cut off someone i truly trust and i’m not going to cuz i have a day in this i have have a say in what i want
Feb 2019 · 267
its not your fault
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
This poem is about old friends

I get mad easily because of you
I get sad easily because of you
I get made fun of almost every day because of you

I’m am dead inside because of you
It’s not your fault I say to myself and to them

But I have issues because of you
Because I trusted you, because I loved you
I told you everything it’s not your fault
But it’s is my fault because of you

I’ve cut because of you I’ve wanted to die because of you

It’s not your fault.
I couldn’t decide which title to go with so here we are lol
Feb 2019 · 219
Bestie
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
She drew happy faces all over my arms.
She drew smiley faces over my scars.
She showed me with ink and blue marks,
the answer is a pen, not a blade to make art.
Feb 2019 · 186
Momma
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
Momma I’m scared it’s here again it’s at the end of my bed it scary oh wait you don’t care about me maybe i should go with it
This post is about nightmares and terrors
Feb 2019 · 3.1k
Just a cut, just a scratch
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
Just a cut
just a scratch
what’s that mark
it was just the cat
just an excuse
just another lie
what’s with the bracelets
just fashion why?
just a tear
just a scream
why were you crying
just a bad dream
But it’s not just a cut
or a tear
or a scream
it’s just one more
until it’s not
until you die
Feb 2019 · 215
Makayla
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
Like many others I have a best friend she goes by many names makayla,tiger,my ******* she may be my best friend to others but to me she is my sister,my rock,my love,my reason to live,my everything she is the reason im living i wanted to **** myself until i meet her she stayed on the phone with me all night telling me how much she love me,how much her family loved me,how much everyone would miss me if I  died and I almost did die I tried to **** myself I was sad all the time crying, sleeping, or cutting that's the only thing I ever did never left my room scared about what might happen if I did but Makayla helped me through that too and I still have days where I feel I have nothing to live for and then I remember I have makayla to live for thank you and I love you makayla
Feb 2019 · 298
Love
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
I
It
It’s
It’s a
It's al
It’s all
It's all a
It’s all a l
It’s all a li
It’s all a lie, l
It’s all a lie, lo
It’s all a lie, lov
It’s all a lie, love
It’s all a lie, love I
It’s all a lie, love is
It’s all a lie, love is a
It’s all a lie, love is a l
It’s all a lie, love is a li
It’s all a lie, love is a lie
It’s all a lie, love is a li
It’s all a lie, love is a l
It’s all a lie, love is a
It’s all a lie, love is
It’s all a lie, love I
It’s all a lie, love
It’s all a lie, lov
It’s all a lie, lo
It’s all a lie, l
It’s all a lie,
It’s all a li
It’s all a l
It’s all a
It’s all
It’s al
It’s a
It’s
It’
I
Feb 2019 · 167
Listen
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
Hey mom-dad, listen.
Hit me, hate me, throw me out,
But don't shut me up.
My dear mom, my dear dad,
Please listen to me talk.
You're the place where I can unveil myself and be true to who I am.
You're the place where I can pour my heart out and expect to be heard.
You're the place I want to spend my life talking and being heard.
Please don't tell me to shut up
Because I talk too much,
Because no one likes what I speak,
Because I talk *******,
Because no one would listen to me,
Because I need to stay silent sometimes,
Because nobody likes the stories I have to tell,
Please don't tell me to shut up,
Just because that's what I need to do.
Listen to me.
Please.
Feb 2019 · 182
Habit
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
I have found it to be a habit of my to talk to my self it’s weird i just start talking and sometimes I don’t stop
It’s weird I don’t know what’s happening
Feb 2019 · 153
Society
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
Me at 5 years old-

I know that
We are all treated equal.
I don’t believe that
There is hate.
My mind knows that
Everyone loves one another.
Sometimes people lie to themselves and say
People hate each other for their differences.
I remind myself:
I am happy here.
And you can’t tell me
We live in a cruel world.

Me at 15 years old-

We live in a cruel world.
And you can’t tell me
I am happy here.
I remind myself:
People hate each other for their differences.
Sometimes people lie to themselves and say
Everyone loves one another.
My mind knows that
There is hate.
I don’t believe that
We are all treated equal.
I know that
Feb 2019 · 183
Misery
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
Life is made of it misery, it’s pain it’s love it’s life misery is everything and everywhere you can’t hide from misery
Feb 2019 · 147
The day she walked away
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
My pain was shame,
My truth made the last of her love
Evaporate.

As a child I no longer remain,
No longer to be controlled.

Living in a world of realities,
Not limited by one.

In this choice,
I lost my mum.

For expressing my voice,
When the built up turmoil,
Abuse blew up.

A narc who'd offered the highest
Highs,
With continious drama and viper
Ties.

Never to take responsibility or
Apologise for sinister actions.

More concerned,
For how she appears and how
She is yearned.

Never wanting to learn
Or
To devastion of how she's burnt
Feb 2019 · 375
The favorite child
Rori Helsley Feb 2019
The favorite child

The favorite child a family of four two kids and two parents a boy and a girl find love and have two kids a boy and a girl the girl has done all she can to be loved and the boy has done nothing but is loved by all and the girl is forgotten but the girl met that person who she loved like a sister and told everything to and her “friend” lied to her about everything
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This is my first poem so I know it bad but I tried so I guess that’s good

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