When I saw you for the first time, you were sitting in the grass at a school game. Your head was thrown back in laughter and you were with my friends. I joined you. You made obscene commentary and threw your hair out of your eyes, crawling like a sensual tiger towards your boyfriend, jumping into his arms, eyes on fire. It was the only moment I looked away from you all night. I thought you were the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen. You thought I was too beautiful and you hated me. You didn't want him to look at me. You wanted to crush my skull and hide him under your bed. It made me love you ten times more. He was a fleeting moment in your life. I watched your heart die again and again. One day you latched onto me and kissed me like I was the only thing keeping you breathing. You were the only thing keeping me breathing. You kept saying "mine" and I knew I was never getting my heart back, even after you crushed it again and again. Never died. I dragged my way from the heavenly hell that was your arms and took the remains of my heart with me. I have found someone else. Please stop acting like I broke your heart.

I wish the only person to comfort me
wasn't hurting by doing it

I wish i wasnt a bother to you

I wish my hurting
wouldnt make you forget everything you thougth you knew

but whats the point of wishing
if it will never come true

Leave me in the dust
and I will build a sandcastle

Leave me in the river
and i will learn how to breathe under water

Leave me alone
and i will make new friends

But if you never leave me again
I will make sure our relationship ends
because i can't stay with you
consume you with worry
and make you stop feeling things
about your own families life

your brother died
and your thinking about me?

If you stay with me

I will **** you inediably

Take my hand

and you will see the scars

That i left

waiting for you

to help me

My ****** knife

is dripping more than my hand

then the drips
drips
drips

drips



drips


d r i ps

d
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start to come slow

so i take the knife

and make more blood flow

They say i am depressed

but im not

my life

just lacks motive

I want you here

so i can make crystal clear

that i love you

and that its not your fault i will no longer be here

that its not your fault I started to disapear

and please know
the person you fell in love with

is no longer near

I wear a mask so that one day

I can convince myself i am happy

When I fall
I pull people down with me

When I break
The shards cut the people around me

When I get lost
I bring people into my labyrinth of life with me

I'm not stuck up
because im no longer speaking

I just dont want to make you feel that hurt I am feeling
because that is what happens
when people become friends with me