Here we go again.

inside, it hurts
it screams
it pains
it aches
it wishes and hopes
but never arrives

my heart

i’m afraid of you not thinking of me anymore.

feels so good to be far away from you again

regret the day I ever went back to you

love you more this way

without all the suffering and pain

I don't cry anymore

I'm so free

you will never let me go

I'll let you go

no more forgetting

I remember what you did

no more forgiveness

I'll never accept an apology

you thought you hid the key

silly

I locked myself within you

I easily let myself out

my feet are killing me
we don't talk anymore

someone entertains you
you leave me all alone

ignoring me for someone else

must be nice to have someone to hug at the end of the day

no one ever makes me food anymore these days

and when she leaves
I'll be waiting for you

the door is unlocked
you're my sweet poison

must be nice to have someone who cares
I don't think I've felt loved in years

dying to have someone touch me
even if I flinch and scream

we always come apart
this distance I recognize

must be nice to have someone by your side

I think you died
you forgot to tell me

no invitation to the burial or the funeral
why didn't you tell me

was it an accident
tell me

why did you leave me so easily
for a boy who will only give you heartbreak

my friend died
she said I can't talk to you anymore
haven't heard from her in months

happy new year
you threw away our good friendship like a piece of paper

I'll visit your grave one day
press all your flowers and crush the ashes into the wind

you're dead to me
I know you're in trouble
only you can save yourself now

I'm an *******

I'm only nice
to make you weak

my mother didn't teach me how to love
I was taught well how to be manipulative

I'm the *****
my opinions are never wrong

facts

I don't care if they don't like me
I'm not going anywhere

I'm smiling behind their backs
I never hold the knife

sometimes you need to take advantage of the pity

so small
I can crawl out of sight

so blind
I listen to the whispers

stay on my good side
promise it's better this way

how are you
how are you

are you okay
are you okay

i miss you right now

repeating things in my head
where did it all go wrong

i'm so forgettable
everyone throws me away

i wish we never met
but im happy we did

im a bad friend
i only know
once they hate me