It isn't easy for me to just let it go
Because I swallowed every single word

Stop having more children when you can't take care of the ones you already **have.

I was only 10 years old
You were 23
I lived with my great grandmother
Oh how she loved me

You were my big cousin
I was your little cousin
I laughed and played
You called me in your room and touched me

I promised not to speak
I promised to keep it a secret
but some promises should break

I only told my best friend
We grew up together and
any secret of mine was a secret of hers
She promised not to tell
but she did anyways

She tried to keep it for a while
I swear
but then my school friends found out
They promised to keep it a secret too
but then they told the principle at school

She called for me
and I approached
"Cheyenne is what the girls told me true?"
I looked down
and cried
nodding my head
She hugged me
and told me to go to her office
I did

I sat there for a while
Eventually the police came
Then i talked
hours later the nurse was kind enough to give me a ride home

I know you are angry at me
but some secrets should break
You don't know what pain I've been through over this

One of my friends went against me
and told the whole class
and thought it was funny

I was taken away from my great grandmother
Oh how she cried when I left
and now i'm forced to live with my abusive father

Yet I have no petty for me
Your the one I feel sorry for
and this is my apology

I apologize that I put you in jail
I apologize that every night in your cell that man touches you
The same way you touched me

This is my fault
I should of kept my mouth shut
If I would of I'd still live with my great grandmother
Your mom wouldn't tell the family I lied about what you did to me
Then my family wouldn't hate and criticize me
I'd still be loved by the people I grew up around

Some may say you should apologize
Because your the one who touched me
Your the reason my family hates me
Your the reason I have no one

But I can't blame you
I'm too soft hearted
I can't hold grudges
Forgive me please
This is my apology

I watched the night go by
Under a trillion stars
The sun comes creeping in
It makes me think of you

These walls stand between us
I stood so tall
As did you
It was not enough

I remember your laugh
I remember your gentle touch
I remember how divine the taste of your lips were
I remember under those trillion of stars we would dance
Dance to the song that explained what we had most

Now alone
I watch the night go by
Under a trillion stars
The sun comes creeping in
It makes me think of you

She is cold, pale, wet and tired.
She is the same on the inside as she is the outside,
and she will forever stay that way.

Maybe she could be something more.
Except something stands in her way.
You and everyone else that surrounds her.

She is popular.
She has friends.
She makes mistakes.
She is not forgiven.

Maybe if she didn't make mistakes then they would see.
They would see how true and pure she really is.
That is only a dream of hers.
A dream that shall not come true.

She then stares at a sink of blood and crushed veneers.
What has she become?  
She used to be filled with love.
It must of been skinny love.
Love that was fragile, love that did not last.

She looks at her reflection in the mirror and sees nothing.
Then she soon realizes that it’s always been nothing.
She’s been stuck between four walls with no doors, and no windows.
In those walls there is nothing and she is nothing.