Rainingstuff

Rainingstuff Jul 2019

You told me to cover up
But when she’s open up you like her more
You told me to cover up
But when i do I’m oppressed and when she didn’t she’s a ****

You told me to be careful
But the only danger i see is you
You told me to stay pure
But you still try to sleep with every girl you met

You told me to innocent girl is the best
But you’re the one that ruined me
You told me to be safe
But i feel safer without you in the room

You told me that I’m the one in the wrong
Every time something happened to us
But you’re the root of the problem
Your kind is just a bunch of hypocrite

Few weeks ago I experienced a verbal harassment from my colleague in uni. And it makes me really think about how difficult it is for woman if man can’t keep their mouth shut about things woman should do or don’t.

Rainingstuff Sep 2018

Video game character

I'm in love with a video game character
He's strong, smart and nice
He's good looking, funny, and optimist
Like a basic hero in any game

His movement fast and precise like a fighting game
His personality is gentle and fun like sim dating game
I feel like god maxed out all of his stat in the beginning
Or maybe he uses cheat code so in this game he's winning

I'm in love with a human in reality
A human that so perfect he looked like came out from the screen
A human that is so real yet seems unreal to me
A human that just like in video game, can never be mine for real

#unrequited #love

Rainingstuff Sep 2018

A little hope

When the notification light blinks
There's a little hope that it's you missing me
When I'm down with cold
There's a little hope you'd wonder what happen to me
When you smile so brightly
There's a little hope it's for me
When you stop and stare
There's a little hope that I'm in your frame
When we practice together
I either do bad on purpose with a little hope i can held your hand longer
or really good with hope that you'll praise me
When we talk just a random things
There's a tiny hope that you'll know what i feel
But what can a little hope do
When i know I'm not the one for you

#unrequitedlove

Rainingstuff Jul 2018

Don't Rain on My Laundry Day

stop the rain before it's too late
stop it! i said, my clothes will get wet
pause the rain! my clothes is still hanging
pause it! i said, before i'm catching feeling

All this sunny that that i took for granted
keep thinking about you like i'm enchanted
trying my best to erase this thinking
that you and me, we could be something

cause i know that you're just being polite
but when i see you smile that bright
the cover i put on are washed away
please don't rain on my laundry day

this is a random poem that i wrote when i can't do laundry for a whole week because of heavy rain in my town. i correlate it with the feeling i felt when i see my crush.

#rain

Rainingstuff Jul 2018

Makeup

I woke up with bare face
So fragile so pure
I notice some cracking
I choose to embrace it

I go out with a little lip balm
Just to show that i care
Notice a darkness lurking
I choose to let it slide

I spent my day with a little concealer
Just to show that I'm fine
Seeing everyone smile brightly
Why it makes me feel kinda empty

I came home with a some blush
Just to show that I'm happy
Seeing their eyes sparkle
Just make me kinda lonely

I went to sleep with some mascara
Just to make myself feel better
Guess i have to buy a new one
Cuz my feeling wash this one away

I woke up with full face makeup
Just to show that I'm strong
Guess i should start wearing it everytime
So nobody will know I'm dying inside

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