I was six

And silly

And loved my Honey Nut Cheerios in the morning.

I was a dreamer

And curious

And watched my Cheerios float to each other.

As if embracing the strong pull

As if round magnets

Or planets

Seemingly happy with their finding in one another at last

Then I would scoop and swallow them.



"Leave no one on their own!",

I'd panic to my bowl.

Guiding one seemingly lost with my spoon to the other,

"You wouldn't want to be alone..."

Who would want to be alone

At the end of their soggy, saggy lives?


Then I would scoop and swallow them.

Cu-ri-os-i-ty

Must

Never

End.

You're going to choke on your own poison.
And don't look to me to save you
when you've poisoned my mind of myself.

I'm your rude awakening.

Hush,*


That says more about you

than you want people

to hear.


Wouldn't want them finding out

who you really are.

Sometimes

The bad things happen for the right reasons

And sometimes

You're better off without certain people.

Sometimes,

You're wishing this wasn't true.

I want to travel

and fall in love

with a man who insists

He couldn't handle the distance

And he would

to hold me long in his arms

As if that alone

would keep me from going home

I desire a completely new love

who proves his desire to be with me

~~~

I've always imagined

since I was a child

saying I Do

on the sandy beach

and beautiful sunset

Walking barefoot

then being picked up and carried

smiling at each other

and kissing handsome lips

~~

Living happy

Loving life

and all the little joys that come

Learning and teaching by day

Coming home to share our separate exciting lives

Cuddling close for warmth by night

Every day Every night

~

I've always imagined

since I was a dreamer

hearing my one whisper

I Love You

and knowing they'd meant it

I've always waited

to say it back

with a giggly smile

as this dream kept coming true


I want to travel

and fall in love

with a man who insists

These are the best days of our lives

Let's make 2

cups of tea

and

Let's sit anew

Let's laugh wishfully

of our old selves

of our old dreams

of our old love

Next Time*

I won't say anything at all.

Why are

You

still living

in my heart?

Move out,

So I can move

On.

I come here
to work
to relax
A little space to hear my thoughts

But then I hear voices.
Horrible
Loud
Destructive Voices
Ripping up the silence in the room.

I hate when I can't hear myself think.

You've awoken my appetite
It's the middle of the night
So what am I suppose to do
You shouldn't feed me past midnight

Why did you choose to reignite this spark
Why did I choose to let you
I've been doing so well toughening my heart
Just to prove it weak, against you

Don't expect me to come back so easily

Please, don't expect me to at all

I'll forever hold you in my heart
But for now, we must remain apart

In the morning I'll wake
To the sunshine, rain, smell of new lawn
Jump up and for us, morning tea I'll make!
Walk around with next to nothing on

Take my time in the shower
But keep it under half an hour
Dress in the comfiest thing
Turn up the radio and sing

Flop down on the couch beside you
Wearing a little girl's smile on my face
Your shining eyes turn my heart to fondue
Holding me in this warm, ***** embrace

Going to their late at night hang out
At their friend's house they left a note
She sat down on the tire swing
And you swung her underneath your wing
No one was there, it was just you and her
You put your hands on her shoulder
She found herself looking in your eyes
Never got to say goodbye

[Chorus]
We're the new faces of the broken hearted
As our spirits suddenly parted
There's a white light pulling her through the door
But before she goes she wants you to know;
She'll send you x's and o's

Sitting alone on the bench over there
With the sun setting just right here
Setting on her, she's so pretty
But no one sees her in this city
Right over there she sees a payphone
She tries to reach him; no answer
Can she make it on her own
It seems like this life haunts her

[Chorus]

She finds him at their late at night hang out
Holding flowers and a small note
She watches as tears fill his eyes
He never got to say goodbye

[Chorus]

She wants you to know [x 7]
She'll send you ex's and oh's

I lift it

lick a clearing

then driven from hunger and aroma

I bite in

*******

then take it all in.

After it is finished
and the delicious chunky liquid runs down my throat

I sigh,

"What a great bowl of Chunky Four-Cheese Ravioli!"

Ahem*…
This isn’t to give you attention, it’s to give you awareness that the
harder you try to get to me, the easier it will be, to waste your breath trying.
You have been made aware.

Now, I don’t have enemies, I have people who hate me
for standing true and strong, who I choose to ignore.
I’ve been dumb, I’ve been foolish, Ya I’ve been immature before.
But I can proudly say with self respect, that I have never been the disrespect
that they are.
Threaten me, call me things, glare at me all you want, be a hater!
You won’t wear me down. You can’t tear me down.
So try all you want! You’ll look like a clown…

[Bridge & Chorus]
Because…
It’s time to grow up now, it’s time to forget how.
Do it the best way you think you can.
You’re unclear of what this song’s about, but I know I’m no longer in doubt.
Make sense of it the best way you can.

I’m a WHAT? Well… I’m glad you think so.
I do a pretty good job standing strong for the things I believe in.
So thanks for the reminder! Rewind your winder
But realize you’ll never win, you are never getting in.
Rewind your thoughts, consider my foughts
and the abuse I let myself take from your words
but you haters are the ones who’ll rot.
… do you really wanna rot?

[Bridge & Chorus]

I do what I can to make sure you’re outta sight, you’re outta mind.
Anything to make sure you don’t drag me behind
to be hit by your talk, I’m gonna stand up and walk!
Right past the ones we all try to ignore…

[Bridge & Chorus]

[Chorus]




((I apologize for the slightly darker message.  But I hope some of you find it inspirational.))

This feeling.

This feeling I try to avoid.

Sometimes gets the best of me,
I'll admit.

But once I've come back
From the place that calms me,

Everything is fine.

At least til next time.

You move me

Touch me

With your thoughtful words,
Your heart pounding notes.

I look into your eyes

Stare into your soul

You tell me I'll see myself,
That it's only the truth.

I smile bright

And hold myself tight

I'm so lucky to have you,
I can't wait to see you.

How long have I been laying here?
And...
Since when did my left arm fall asleep?

I look up to the darkened clouds
I can see both the sun and moon
My body now lays in the shade

I look to my sleeping limb
down to my chilled fingers
And I notice
A thin green vine
curled around my pinky finger

How long has it taken you to grow on me,
Little vine?

I smile, as I naturally love nature's ways

Carefully, I uncurl the vine and stand
It hasn't taken me long at all to grow on you,
Little vine.

The soft strand of your hair gets moved behind your ear
as you feel a gentle kiss on your cheek.
Been laying here for hours, side by side, field of flowers
Curious, I tap my watch to sneak a peek.

We both lay under the stars but the stars gaze down on us
for we're shining so bright always wishing that this night
will come again. Oh will this night please come again.

If I can come home after a rough day and smile from your love,
then I dare all my days be rough,
because I know your love will guide me through.

If I can come home after a hot summer day and get cooled from your touch,
then I dare the sun blaze down on me,
all day long,
because I know your touch will soothe me after.

If I can come home after the pouring freezing rain and feel the warmth in your kiss,
then I dare the rain to never cease above my head,
because I know your kiss will warm me after.

It’s eleven-eleven
and I wish that we
were alone together
just you and me
With your body by mine,
you’d make everything feel fine
With our fingers intertwined  

And your voice would be my lullaby

The hand moves to a new number
as I’m lying here wishing only for you

So I might be down
for a little while
But I bet you I’d smile
if you made fun of my frown
Hold me tightly until
My smile reaches a mile
From the best thing I’ve ever known

I wish I’d held his hand a little tighter.
I wish I’d kissed his lips a little slower.
It’s getting harder to remember his smell…

All my days he made them brighter.
Wrote happy endings like a writer.
Daily stories that I loved to tell…

[Chorus]
Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on looking high, to the moon-lit sky.
Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on holding tight, wishing on starry nights.

I wish I could make things seem a little lighter.
I go back as the sun sets lower.
And the stars cover me, prepare me for the all-nighter.

All of his words he spoke them stronger,
told me he wished he’d held me longer.
Separation, isn’t easy on the heart…

Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on looking high, to the moon-lit sky…

Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on looking up high, to the moon-lit sky.
Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on holding tight, wishing on starry nights.

Wishing on starry nights (x4)

Wherever we are, tonight.



( My friend played her guitar and sung these lyrics, a better idea for you of how this may sound )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z58HjB0N0Yo

One day my family and I got a letter
I’ve been in here since that gloomy afternoon
Day after day I’ll tell myself I’ll get better
I tell everyone I’m coming home soon

I look at the pictures beside me
And the cards and the flowers people gave me
I’ll make it out for them; they’ll see
Just promise me you’ll be brave for me

It might look like I’m fading away, but I’m just taking a breath
Before I blow this thing away
I’ll give it as much as it takes
I’ll get out of here some day
Soon I will be on my way
I’ll be home by May
I’m coming home today

Left here unspoken
I don’t know whether to get over you
Or stay heart broken

Cause every time I see you
In our chests we feel that deep beating feeling
Then I open my eyes and stare at the ceiling
Wondering what contract the Sandman is dealing
And then I see…

You’re not really there
And I guess you never really were

You left me
Here unspoken
I don’t know whether to get over you
Or stay heart broken

You were never really here
But what’s that noise I hear
Over there… ?