All I did was being nice,
But my surrounding wasn't so nice,
I keep asking myself,
What should I do?
Should I act as a mirror play like them?,
Else ,
Should I ignore the pests and be myself?

Enough with the scrolling,
I'll go with the papers for now....

Painful are not those people,
Painful are those words,
And it's not like I can't use those words,
It's just that I have a  bruised heart.

If you see gloomy weather,
You have a gloomy heart,
And if it's Wonderful weather,
You have cheered heart,
Dears
It's not the weather,
It's your heart,
It's not the view of your eyes,
It's the feel of your heart.

Someday it's heavy,
Someday it's light,
Like the sunshine and,
Gloomy clouds.

Tharas kya hai,
Inn aankhose poochiye,
Aap ki ek nazar ke liye,
Aap ki ek jawab ke liye,
Aap ki ek muskurahat ke liye,
Har ek pal main barason bithadiye,
Neendh na chaha, na chaha koi aaram,
Bechare to besabar hogaye,
Lethe hi aapka naam,
Sabar se besabar hona,
Kushi mai bechain hona,
Aadat hai innhe,
Taras kya hotha hai,
Zara poochiyega inse.

How fast has the time passed,
Left my teens and
Entered into the defining decade,
I'm just taking my good memories and experiences further,
All the embarrassing and painful moments I left them with my teens,
This year is special,
As I figured out,
So am I.

Aaj ka din iss thassalli se guzara hai,
Koi toh kaam sambaala hai,
Chahe kal jaise bhi **,
kuch toh banega zindagi humara ye!

Sitting on couch,
Clicking selfie with a pout ,
Tomorrow I am boarding to my,
Boarding school.
My heart aches ouch.
I know its difficult
But for a short time dude.
I'll be back soon.

After death,
In this world
A landlord will leave his property,
A thief will leave his stress,
A sinner leaves his sins,
A loved one would leave his wonderful memories,
A pure one leaves his respect,
And an artist leaves his art

Bachpan se tha laad  pyaar,
Sab mein achhe, imaandaar,
Hum bhi banenge khuddaar,
Sabne kaha bahu samachaar,
Par bahar jaane ka naakar tu vichaar,
Duniya mein bari hai andkaar.


Bachpan se tha laad pyaar,
Clg hogaya ab job ka tha khayaal
Ek dum se nikle the bahar,
Hairaan hogaye dekhkar,
Aise hotha hai dhuniya dhaar,
Na khoi address ka tha patha,
Na koi routes ka idea tha,
Poore shareer ke andhar chah gaya tha dar.

Bachpan se tha laad pyaar,
Junoon tha man mei,
Dhikana tha duniya ko kuch bankar,
Par jab aayi naukri ki baari,
Paani paani hogayi confidence saari,
Zor zor se padgaye thaane,
Aakhir kyu aati ** tum kamane.
Jo bachpan se thi perfect,
Uspe padgayi daant ka effect,
Mote mote nikalgaye aasu,
Rou bhi na toh kya karu khasu.
Rone ki humpe lag *** tag,
Sabko jaise bangayi mazak.

Kehne ko aazad hai hum,
Abhi bi hai laachari ki gum,
Aasan nahi hotha yeh sehna,
Mazak banake na rakdo,
Mere bhai aur behna.

One bright day,
I heard her say,
That paved road is not your way.
Those conjuring delights just split away
The moment you realise,
That's not your way.
Though obsessions fade, Desires stay,
Which will eventually clear your way.
Intoxicated comfort is no longer hay,
Sweat, intuition and passion,
Will find my way.

Dark blue sky,
Not the swallowing dark,
Beautiful bright yet deep kinda blue,
The one I always used to paint as a kid,
Comforting silence with Chirping birds,
Stars were still there,
Shiny and sparkling,
Cool breezes, empty roads,
Alone and enjoyable,
That is I realised what "Solitude" is.

Day after day,
I struggle for recognition,
In and out of my profession,
But whenever I go through my poems,
I feel glad though I don't get many likes,
Because I have this ultimate pleasure of satisfaction.
I write it for  my production,
And I live in my world of citations

You know there were whiles when
I chose to save you,
Though I can tell the truth,
I chose you above me,
I don't know whether you'll ever know,
But I've loved you more,
I want to stop the time and keep you forever,
Irritate you, binge with you,
A year from now
you're gonna leave me,
It'll be painful, lonely,
But I can feel you,
In all those memories,
You're gonna have a new life,
Without me,
But remember,
Everything will be changed,
Not me,
No one can ever love you like me.

I define
Boredom as a fantasy,
Boring as an adjective.
I don't understand,
Why it isn't a compliment?

I'm half Rosa,
Half Jake,
And a little bit of Terry here and there.

When my crumbling
Emotions are rapidly colliding,
But words won't come out.

My mind doesn't think straight,
And
nor does the stream
Or the wind blow,
I can't even go with the flow

Although I remembered my path will lead to you,
And yet
That day I was focused and also lost,
Abruptly  my mind was blank,
That moment's conjuring blocked my way,
Those bright colours and fragrances,
Made me  fall,
Were there any thoughts or memories --no not at all,
And I left you in that city mall,
Forever

I like you in the morning,
I like you in the evening,
I like you when you're the brightest,
I like you in your darkness,
I like you in the rain,
I like you in the bloom,
I like you in the moonlight,
I like how you never end,
Because I know you'll stay.
I like it when you thunder as if you are gonna swear,
I like it when you show off all the colours you wear,
Strangely enough, my favourites are all your blues,
No matter what you show me,
I like you anyway.

Isn't it foolish,
How we strive for a safe and secure future,
When life itself is so unsafe and uncertain,
To be followed by death,
Every day, every moment,
A dream job or an ideal job,
What would a wise man choose?
Whatever it is let's just sing a song,
Our decisions may go wrong,
But the end is not an end,
Unless it's our life which ends,
Societal ideals don't seem to be aware of death,
That's why maybe we don't value life,
You and I don't have forever to live,
Maybe that's why I want to decide how will I live,
I don't want to figure out how,
What if I die by then, I just want to live,
With the flow of life.

Back then...
I used to sleep to dream more,

Now a days,
The more I sleep,
The more I see them going farther....

We feel alive
When we have fear of death,
We live,
When we remember death.
We forget the past, pain,
Strive to live in every moment.
The existence of death,
Makes us alive,
The fear of death,
Bestows the life we wished.

My feelings aren't secular,
In together,
They are mixed colours,
Now me the leader,
Want to separate them,
Before they become weird.

Yahan mujhe koi kaam nahi,
Subha na utne par koi daat bi nahi,
Phone dekh ne par koi rukaawat nahi,
Khana khane mein koi sharing nahi,
Par phir bhi ghar ki bohot yaad aati hai,
Kyuki yaha koi pyaar karne waala hi nahi,
Daat kar phir pyar se gale lagane wala hi nahi,
Hak jataane wala nahi, ladai karne waala nahi,
Ye toh mera ghar hi nahi......

What makes you love me so much,
Said the boy to the girl in the painting.
"I meet people every day,
Where I see a part of me in everyone,
I nourish and cherish it every time,
So that I'm loved as a whole,
As I feel my parts in everyone,
But you only see me,
I see my desperate, damaged self in others,
But I  never saw myself as you do,
I shine out wonderfully through your eyes,
There's some magic within you,
Though I see myself in everyone,
You give me the faith to love that me,
And now you ask me why I love you"
Said the girl to the boy in the painting.

Don't always think about receiving,
Appreciate people when you like something about them...
You cannot expect the world to change,
Before you change within.

Easier to say that I'm the same,
But how could someone be...
Everyone wants my better version,
But I shouldn't change me..
It sounds so impossible,
I'm changing every moment,
Every moment drives me to change,
Once I was waiting for my birthday,
Now I'd never like to grow up,
How could I cope with this speedy world,
Without being changed...

How would it be,
If  I had a robot like doremon,
Which would give me happiness of the world.
How would it be,
If I had a lamp as Aladdin,
Which would grant me three wishes oh!
Enough to conquer this world though.
How would it be,
If I find a bag full of gold coins,
In the broken door of my balcony.
How would it be,
If I become famous in just one night and become rich.
But   I just realized,
That life isn't a thing which is
Virtualized.
we have to just follow till
Where it would lead,
Without having daydreams
Indeed.

I'm thankful to be what I am,
I'm fat and I'm thankful for that
I can have that immense satisfaction,
Whenever I workout and try to change,
I'm thankful for the extra happiness
I get, whenever I lose a pound.
I'm thankful for not making up to my dream college,
I've found real friends here,
I'm thankful for the chance of getting better every day,
I'm thankful for the change,
And being ordinary is okay

The enchanting view of those gorgeous trees,
Showered in rain;
damped with twinkling drops on greeny leaves,
The glittering river turning in fancy ways,
As if it's blushing when tingled by golden sun rays,
I could sense the warmth of these cool breezes,
Which are soothing me and blowing off my unspecified tears....
This wonderful view enlightened my heart ,
they have set me calm and now
I'm alright......

Happiness in the heart,
Brighter the mood,
Those types of people,
Feel the beauty of rain,

The other person,
In the same rain,
Can feel the gloominess of the clouds,
As their heart is as heavy as those dark clouds.

Is it the emotion or the rain,
Which is connected?

Maybe it's the beauty of nature,
Which never lets us feel alone,
Always soothing and promising.

I know all they say
Is for my good,
All that they do,
It's just for my sake
But deep down in my heart,
It hurts so much that my heart is dying out of pain,
But I'm smiling out like a fake rain.
No one knows the value of the words,
Which are being hit like arrows of pain,
I could never hurt someone, even if I want to,
Now that I've been travelling with pain.

Your new version is pretty and tough,
Your changes make me proud enough,
But something inside me tried to peep,
That old little innocent silly blooming you, which is already buried so deep.

I was in a rush this morning,
Trying to catch up with someone,
In the middle of my hurry,
A little girl grabbed my hand
Putting me to a halt,
She asked me to take a picture
Of her happy family and hers,
I denied it with a smile and told her was in a hurry,
The way the Little girl looked at me,
Is all over my mind and place now,
I wish I took a minute and saved my life.

Looking back then,
There wasn't any success,
May not be there in future,
But still I'm sticking,
I lament that I may not taste the endeavor ,
At the end I can rest with the scent of my stubbornness...
And eventually till here I can say in me there's happiness,
It could be more or less...

I'll eat what I like,
I'll do what I want,
I don't give a ****,
I'll let me snore,
I'll let me roar,
If you don't like it,
Just. ...ignore

Chote chote baatein  bhi bade acche lag rahe hain,
Kudse guzarta har pal sundar lag raha hain,
Hum badal rahe hai ,
Ya shaayad
Humara nazariya badal raha hai.......

I know I'm not as good as you,
I know I already lack,
What's so good in pushing me back,
I'm a mess already,
Does it entertain you so much,
Moving on was already a hell,
Now your words are like banging on the bell.

A solo pillow fight,
Waiting for you all night,
Finally, exposing your signs,
skimming through curtain blinds,
Greetings dear golden light.
I dance from the bedroom,
To the faucet  countenance the mirror,
Not a blink of sleep, pondering all night,
Yet I wonder why someone is looking so bright,
I smile at myself, am I being foolish or is it a happy delight,
Trying the same outfit, for nth in the daytime,
I'm yet not sure if I seem all right,
I'm at early the station, unusual
Yet I don't mind,
You have the mightiest effect,
I'm just dying for your sight.
There you are seemingly like a day star,
Donning into freshness, hair so perfect,
Definitely a work of art.
Tapping his feet, a nervous Confident man,
Here I get my Peer,
I'm not the only one miserable here.
Words flowed like fluid, I never had to think twice,
I just keep grinning obviously to let you feel your significance.
And the sky was turning peach,
When we arrived at the beach,
You held my hand and I had to on my life,
My whole body went so numb,
And my hand never felt so alive.
We both were running,
In my mind, I'm already flying,
The beach, the sand, the sky, the sun,
Various views,
Yet I'm bewildered between your charming smile and those ocean eyes.
Blow of cool winds,
Flaming intense gazes,
Giggles, amusement, nervousness and sparkling eyes,
The beautiful curvature of your lips above that little chin,
Above all,
I let the intimacy of our interwind hands win,
Now shall pass another night,
I'll recite our souvenirs, to witnessing Twilight,
Now shall pass another night,
With hearts of contented delight,
While I await another sunlight.

Maybe just maybe,
I'm exaggerating things,
Maybe it's not that bad,
Maybe there's still a chance that I keep showing up,
And everything will be fine.
Maybe it's already all fine,
Maybe it's just my head,
Maybe just maybe,
I still can do anything,
Like I dreamed 8 years ago,
Maybe just maybe,
I still have a chance to be great,
Maybe just maybe.