They say we all have one,
It’s all one and done.
Don’t be silly it just hasn’t shown up yet.
No need to fret.

But I need it here now;
I look like a class clown.
I’m still waiting for it to come,
It’s making me feel so glum.

I really don’t get it…
Did mine get stuck in a pit?
Don’t they supposedly have wings?
Can’t it fly out of it and help me with things?

They say we all have one,
It’s all one and done.
Don’t be silly it just hasn’t shown up yet.
No need to fret.

But when all is said and done,
And I supposedly have one,
I can’t help but wonder if my guardian angel
Is actually the opposite of an archangel…

I’m trying my best to be okay
Okay
So stop yelling
Put down the sharp words
Quit making me cry
I’m tired
Please let me try
To be okay
Okay?

****, fine I’ll confess
I may have caused just a little bit of extra distress
I may have gone a bit overboard
But god forbid a guy is bored

Nobody’s perfect
Can I just get a little bit of respect?
I mean at least I’m good at something
At least this can keep my mind running

Sorry I zoned out I was trying to think of how to cause drama
Should I bring up some of their trauma?
God forbid a guy wants some free entertainment
It makes me feel like their ants trying to escape their containment

I’ll hit them with all I’ve got
Let’s shoot my shot
Should I guilt trip?
Oops I didn’t mean to let your secret slip

Did you like my confession?
Did it grasp that short span of attention?
It’s not my fault I’m the way I am
If I were to think of you in one way I’d definitely say spam.

Oops crap did that hurt you’re feelings?
I definitely won’t push you off ceilings
Who said that?
Must’ve been a rat

I know I'm not pretty,
I don't want your pity.
I know I'm not hot,
I know I don't mean a lot.

I know I'm not masculine,
Do I need discipline?
I know people say they care but do they?
I don't believe a word they say.

I know I should be happy,
I should be grateful for what I have.
I shouldn't feel sappy,
I should act brave.

Would the world care if I died?
Or would they think I went to hide?
Would they care if I wasn't here tomorrow?
Would they feel even an ounce of sorrow?

None of my friends get it;
They all think I'm throwing a fit.
They don't know what its like to feel replaceable,
I don't feel embraceable.

I wish they understood.
I wish I could talk about it with the people I care about,
But they make me feel more misunderstood.
They ignore how my mind constantly fills with doubt.

What do I do?
I don't have a single clue,
A single match in this never ending darkness,
Please give me a harness.

My life, once so dull,
Now feels immensely full.
My worries are all gone,
We have so much fun at dawn.

My life, once so boring,
Is now soaring.
When I see her, my heart skips a beat,
I feel my body feel with heat.

She fills my life with joy,
And she never treats me like a toy.
I thought I'd never find love,
But she flew into my life like a dove.

She fills my life with peace.
My stress has found its release.
My life has been forever changed by a love so true,
All thanks to you.

It started as a joke,
Some harmless fun.
Then the air cleared from its smoke,
I no longer wanted to run.

What’s this new desire called?
I’ve never felt this way before.
My heart now feels loud and stalled;
This is something I can’t ignore.

This must be love,
I see her as a dove.
She lights up my world,
Where shadows curled.

Do you remember
The last time you ate ice cream without feeling the need to surrender?
The last time you stepped on a scale
Without the number determining whether you pass or fail?

Do you remember
The last time you truly smiled without it feeling dismembered?
The last time you felt true joy and delight
Without you and your face having a fight?

Do you remember
The last time you got mad and didn’t get yelled at for your “temper?”
When were were young and naive
Without the fear of how you’re perceived?

I doubt it.
But now you find any excuse to jump into the pit.
You constantly spiral,
Not thinking about you’re survival.