I've been sitting here
Writing and deleting
For hours now
And this
Is what
You get.

This sad excuse for an
Expression.
This
Unsatisfying
Pointless
Slapping together of words
That only exist now
For your amusement.
So laugh.

Life is short,

And judgement
Is godly.

Whenever I make bad decisions,
I make sure to take off any gifts from the family.
That way,
If I do die, they can think I just forgot their love was there.

I take it personally.
It bites me to the bone.
You take what I have grown,
Then call it my folly.

I won't be sorry,
When you are without home,
No need to have a phone
Because nobody's calling.

I hope your eyes open wide,
To be pecked out of your head,
So you can see the red issuing
From your innocent white lies.

I watched you
From my bedroom window.
Through the pines
I followed your steps
Going down the hill.
I saw you wait
At the foot of my drive
For life to come and
Sweep you off your feet.

A handful of moons
Cracked the pipe dream,
And I was there
To lick the wounds.

I watched as the fire
Gave a few heartfelt pops,
Then sunk into a bed of embers.
I don't think either of us
Expected to share that bed.

When I lose count
Of our satellite's transit,
When I lose it all
In the turning,

I'll be here;
A willing host for
The parasite of love.

A soft caress of a palm glide,
A kiss for each temple,
A wispy sigh.

The bugs drink my blood like wine
As I bathe in that moment,
Crystallized in time.

When the counter's wet
When the sink's a mess
When the floor is sticky
With every step
When the crust is set
When the bugs ain't coy
When molds collect
When disease employs
I won't  clean it.


When the milk spoils
When the cereal is grey
When the veggies are old
When the fruits decay
When the cookies are clay
When the jelly is white
When the bread can't break
When the nuts have mites
I won't throw any of it away.

Pull the foliage;
Let the inner nodes get light.
Watch the plant prosper.

Damage the main line.
Like a twisted deity
Inspire instinct.

Care. Do not smother.
Give time and space to expand
The seed you planted.