Baby , love me long
I’m weak , be strong for me.
Don’t leave me ...
Hate me , Blame me, guilt me
Please just sit quiet
Bring me Close
Hold me tight
Squeeze me long
Kiss me love .
Be here , Stay here .
Don’t leave now
Don’t go away
Don’t feed on to the negativity I create . Stay away from my anger.
Please stay , at least for now

It’s coming from me.
The tears are falling to be freed
My frown is dropping tragically.
I’m reaching out for safety .
This can not continue .
I’m searching for comfort.
I’m hoping I’m rescued .
I’m digging deeper
To hide , from his creepers
Who keep coming to Drag me
Back into there dark Allies.
I’m hiding . I’m ducking
I’ve sunken before
I no longer want that road
It’s a fairy tale
All appears Greater
Without it , it’s truly a night mare
I’m sprinting , I’m jumping
All sorts of barriers
To not fall & trip
I’m helpless but now hopeful
Il surrender,
I don’t want this dope Nomore

I’m scared
To Relapse & Stay Stuck
To give up recovery
I’m scared to
Look at you and walk away forever.
To just not care wether you believed I truly loved you.
I’m scared
For my love to be trapped
For all My strength to be gone
Lose it all ,
I’m crying.
Addiction will forever live in me
Wether Active or Overcomed
This drug will Always come
Aslong as I’m Happy , Positive
I won’t want to take a hit
But Even if nothing’s going on
My body & mind will randomly itch.
Ive been walking with this for too long to just erase it .
To forget I had a habit .

It’s taking way to long
To find my ground .
I’m leaving right now.
You’ll never see me round .
You know where I’m coming from
Where I’m going , you know I’m
Going down .
The people around me are going down too.
We on a dark road.
She gave it up , she d

I’m not
I am NOT
Depressed, bi polar, Miserable
I’m not
I am NOT
An addict, impaired, hopeless
I’m normal
I don’t have issues
What I go through I can solve .
It’s not an issue , no problem.
I got this , talked about it for long
I know how to fix me.
I’m ok, like everyone.
I’m positive, I’m happy .
I don’t stuggle from nothing .
Life’s great , all good .
Please get out my way
I’m ok

To be sincere,
I messed up.
More than once
& more than multiple times.
I played you dumb .
As I lied , betrayed you sufficiently.  
My bad that I never apologized.
To be honest
I never felt bad .
To go out & Have fun.
To be sincere,
I wasn’t ever sorry .
I didn’t feel no shame or guilt .
I continued to the function.
Long nights & heavy drinking .
I wanted you , & others too.
Didn’t want to be fair .
I enjoy the Games
Looking , talking
Being attracted to other girls.
To be sincere,
Your Alright but not all that ..
My type is far beyond.
You are far below
Dont understand why I settled
To what I wasn’t so sure..
friendly & kind.
Not Curvy & Fine ...
Still don’t understand
How I let this pass my hands ..
With all truth .
I’m sorry , I didn’t truly want you .
Just wanted to pipe you.
Have someone to **** with
Play when I wanted .
Never to marry ..