I felt my emotions piling over me Like blankets of water Where the cold held close With an illusion of warmth So linear that the vibrations stopped, The dreariness felt like home.
She was a solstice Something to be waited upon Change in such a way That made the day seem night And when she spoke Only the Angels Could hear her voice.
Perfectly painted into my sight She stood still And asked me to join her I had the time of my life And she vanished Only remnants of good morning kisses I wish I could have held her longer.
Pieces of love found throughout The ones I've held dear Memories meshed together As if It was all meant to be And thoughts come and go As if they were dreams, I can barely remember, But the feeling lasts forever And has sat with me today The longing for what cannot be told Doesn't seem to go away.
How do I learn from the darkness That never unvailes How do I raise my head When Im already a shadow How do I pick up the pieces Hanging from the gallows The mind stands still And the water is Forever too shallow To dive.
I want you to stay But I also want you to leave You said it was better for you It was better for me But how can I see When love is blind I can only walk through walls When you're by my side.
Do you ever really let go Of someone you once held As if when they left You felt a part Of yourself Close Building up walls So you won't feel exposed And ignoring how tall they've grown, A happy smile But beyond that Yields so much pain I collapse on the thought That this may never go away.
In full view I see a stranger In my own eyes I've lived and I've tried I've loved and I've lost And the frost covered pictures Still make me smile Just enough To forget who I am Inside.
Treading this lifeless body Through earthly endeavours Dreading what I'll learn next, Burning the pages of yesterday And spawning new ideals Instilled in me by my failures, I am what I am And I'm not what I thought And what I was? I wish I forgot.
Why do I feel When I'm so lost My thoughts Are what makes me want To give up If I only held my tongue Maybe all my wrongs Would be right But the serpent inside me Doesn't trust Anyone.
What does it mean If I still worry, We've separated so much It's impossible to be us I fall apart just remembering The reasons I wonder where you are And I hope you Still smile.
I'm always reminded Like you're here beside me The songs I used to play And how it all felt It's too quiet I'm here, come find me The love we gave And how I wish it was now.
When my heart beats different Is when I fear the world never listened Sometimes it's not enough to accept That there will always be something missing Sometimes I wonder If I loved you for a reason And if you ever feel the same.
Hibernate till my soul awakes And wait for the wake That crawls under my skin Today and other days Fade away into a later date Always remaining here In this melancholic state, For eyes do not see mine When I hide in the shade I'll smirk when I see the subtle pain That surrounds me But my heart is shuddering And pounding.
Sitting slouched and waiting to be questioned Dying drenched and anxious Constantly hesitant and vanquished Trying so hard not to be abandoned As I've seen before.
I think of her dying I don't see myself surviving The strongest soul is not of a lion's It's the one that is tired From loving others It's not fair but it's what's on our horizon Have you seen the sun? I haven't opened my eyes in a while...
When you **** everything you touch Death doesn't seem too much Blind for life and in a rush Crushing my heart And others Don't get me started I'm smothered Who plays the part of my mother I chose to live for the numbers
I remember The little things the most How it felt When you were close And how it was when you were far I always wanted to be there I never wanted to be apart.
I wish it all could have been easy But there's no such thing You were my world My love and my pain, Just know that we tried, And tried Over and over again And if I could go back I promise I wouldn't change a thing. You will be my something special Forever In memories.
Sometimes I think Could the sun be too bright Or could this all be a fault in my mind Just gravitating towards the light That I've designed To heal But maybe it's not real Could my mind tell such lies? Or have I just disguised My sadness.
The day finished as it begun A somber feeling, no sun, just grey clouds Remaining so calm but hesitant With thoughts that weigh me down The ground doesn't seem low enough So I fall upward, finding solace in the opposites.
If you can't love yourself How am I supposed to love your doubt, You have so many beautiful qualities And it's madness that you push aside All of these Lovely things That you have.
If i could find my soul I'd ask if it would grow And free me of this body That always finds misfortune Sometimes I wish I was alone More alone than you can imagine Sometimes I feel so much sadness That not even tears could ration Sometimes my thoughts are not passion But bleak ideals That take hold without asking Sometimes I wish it was only Sometimes But sometimes is forever passing.
Is life just on pause Or has it all stopped Am I just a ghost Searching for us Or am I still here Just forever lost My heart still beats But that's not enough.
Salvaging the remnants Like I have nothing left to give A world worth noticing But at times It feels too hard to live A soft laugh Where eyes connect A bit If only there was enough For me to find In this.