"Father, why do you yell at me?"
"Because sometimes you're too much"

"Father,why do you hurt me?"
"So what you understand pain"

"Father, why won't you hug me?"
"Because I won't always be here"

"Father, when will you find help and get better?"
"When the time comes"

"Maria, why do you yell at yourself?"
"Because my own mind is too much"

"Maria, why do you hurt yourself?"
"So that I understand pain"

"Maria, why do you avoid me?"
"Because it'll hurt less when I'm gone"

"Maria, why won't you find help and get better?"
"Because you made me this way, father"

You push me
Day in
And day out

You expect me to never fall
But
I don't work that way

I can't stand on the edge of a cliff
And feel safe

Your words
Stand me on an edge
That I don't know
How to get away from

Stop pushing me
For if you don't
I'm gonna fall

It won't be
Too far a fall
But it will be
Far enough for me
That I won't be able
To get back up

Currently
I am
In love

Not with just anybody
No

I am
In love
With someone amazing

But who also
Doesn't seem to see me
In the same way

They say to me
I need to figure things out

But what does that really mean?

Sometimes I overthink
And I ask myself
What if that really means I don't feel the same
Yet I don't want to hurt you?
What if that's what that means?

What would I do then?
Because I'm so completely committed
That if they turned me down
I wouldn't know where to run

What would I do then?
Because when I realized my love
My feeling for every other person
I used to like
Disappeared  

I can't explain why
But I fell for you

I fell for a person who I get reminded of
Every turn I take
Yet I doubt it's the same for him

There's a forest in my soul
The leads to my heart

There is many things in the forest
Most
If not all
Are hidden

To reach my heart you must make it through

You must make it past
The forgetting paths
They often forget where they are supposed to go

You must make it past
The clingy wolfs
Sometimes they forget how far
Is too far

You must make it past
The overthinking bears
For they'll pin you down in a death like grip
But then stay there
For they start to overthink

Last
But not least

You must make it across
Lust lake
For sometimes
Depending on the way I act
It can drown you
In temptation

I have an obsession with
Black
White
Fuzzy
And playful
I have an obsession
With pandas

I have an obsession with
Melodies
Words
Lyrics
And flow
I have an obsession
With music

I have an obsession with
Paper
Pens
Meaning
And rhyme
I have an obsession
With poetry

I have an obsession with
Quirky
Wierd
Gay
And heart-felt
I have an obsession
With anime

I have an obsession with
Orange
Cuddly
Funny
And caring
I have an obsession
With auguste
And
His love

My heart is yours
But yours is distant

Every day I fall for you a little more
And my heart flies a little further
Towards you

Yet every day you restrain your heart
Instead of letting it fly free

So your heart is as distant
As
The distance
Between us

So
I'll start building a bridge
That will one day reach you
And hopefully
You don't knock that bridge down

Fly with wings of flame
Then maybe
You can withstand hr fiery eyes

Fly with wings of water
Then maybe
You won't drown in the depths of her soul

Fly with wings of earth
Then maybe
You won't be buried by her words

Fly with wings of air
Then maybe
You can glide the distance
To
Her heart