Why is my body the only thing
That I care about when I'm
SAD

The only thing I wish to
Desecrate
When everything is
BAD

When all I can think about
Is the blood
Covering my hands
I see it on my body
Dripping down
Then hiding it behind
This hoodie
Or those pants

When all I can think about
Is white flesh
Burning
Peeling off
My body is whats underneath it all

But my body is also what takes the fall
When my brain flips
That switch
And wants to be desecrated
By anothers lips

I curl up under this desire
To be underneath you
Consumed by your lust

My body takes the fall
When my brain flips that switch
Turn the pain
The misery
To longing
And wanting

Longing
For your gentle kisses all over
Soothing the fire
And desire

Longing
For your hands grazing me
Soothing the crying
And dying

Longing for your soul merging and mingling
Soothing the rotting
And decaying

Longing for your body inside of mine
Soothing the bleeding
And breaking

Wanting
And clawing
And begging
For your hands around my throat
Obeying your every command

Wanting
And clawing
And begging
To be under your control
Hands tied
Cuffed
Secured

Wanting
And clawing
And begging
To be desecrated
By your desires
And your words

Drag the blade over my body
As I bleed for you
And not for me

Burn the candle brighter and hotter
As my skin warms and burns
For you
Not for me

Say degrading words
That you don't mean
Not from my head
But from your voice
Sinking deep within

When the desire flips
From desecrating myself
To you turning mine into yours
Body no longer belonging to me

Tonight I breath with you
Same air
Different area
Tonight I breath with you
And feel the love
I once knew

However I know
That tomorrow
That air will once again become seperate
Like we're strangers
That never breathed in each other's
Secret whispers

Tonight I breath with you
And remember
When my heart beat
And my body
And my breaths
All aligned with you

Until tomorrow
When its like
I never molded into your arms
And folded into your heart
Wriggled and writhed
Until I fit

Tonight I breath with you
And I take every breath
Carefully
Engraving every bit of oxygen
That carries a piece of you

Until tomorrow
A day anew
No scent of you

You're inside of me
You hide in me
Drain the feelings from my body

So let me drain you
From within me
Stain the room
And my body red
With all
And any
Remnants of you

You're inside of me
You hide in me
Corrode everything inside of me
As you burn away
Any semblance of whats
Left over of me

So let me drain you
Out of my body
Cover myself in something
Other than your touch

GET OUT OF ME
I want to scream
But all I can do
Is lay here lifeless
As you consume
Every
Last
Little
Bit
Of me

Throwing stars
Marking up my hands
My arms

I lay on the ground
Staring at the stars
In the dark
Looking at where they should be
Instead of
Inside me

Throwing stars
Aimed at my body
Marking up
The will left inside of me

I lay on the floor
Staring at the stars
In the dark
Looking at where they've traveled to
Instead of
Where they do

Throwing stars
Leaving scars
Leaving me
Bleeding and marked
For if you miss
Your hands are the target
But you only did this to me
Only subjected me
To your torturous whims

Atleast now I know
How to throw a star
With unweilding accuracy
But what use does that do
When the only stars I wish to touch
Are of those up above
Unreachable
Far above me

All this rage inside of me
Slowly
NO!
Not slowly anymore

All this rage inside of me
Corroding my insides
Burning away everything in it's way
Trying to escape

All this rage inside of me
Begging to be let out
Until it scares everyone around

All this rage inside of me
Begging to escape
Until it burns everything down
Until its all burnt to the ground

Leaving nothing behind
But my body
Curled up on the floor
Surrounded by ash
And destruction
While it corrodes
And eats away the rest of me
Until all that lays
Curled up
Are my bones

Everything in me is screaming
BEG
SCREAM
CLAW
DON'T LET GO

But this silence isn't just effecting my voice
Its effecting my soul

Everything in me is screaming
CRY
SCREAM
HIT
KICK
BREAK EVERYTHING
or god forbid just yourself

But this inability to move isn't just effecting my limbs
Its sunk deep into my bones

Everything in me is screaming
SURVIVE
FIGHT
LIVE

But nowhere to go isn't just words
Its the reality of my world

Everything in me whispering
Give me relief
Give me release
Set my mind free
From this body

Everything in me begging
Cut me
Burn me
Hurt me
Desolate me
Desicrate me
Break my bones
And leave me out in the cold

This life isn't mine
It never was
It doesn't belong to me
So set it free
And let it drift to someone else
In need
Who actually has a place to go
A future with a home

Let me erase every semblance
Of what could ever be regraded
As a face

Let me remove my *******
Leave nothing in the way
But a bare chest

Let me seal my hole shut
Sew it closed until nothing
But a flat surface
Is all that you can see

Take a blade
A flame
And mutilate any semblance
Of me

For if I no longer look
Appealing
No longer look
Human
Maybe they won't mutilate
My soul
Or the inside of me