I remember the bliss I once felt

Whenever I see you in perfect light

I remember how my heart melt

When I saw you smile at first sight

I remember the poems I used to make

When you're slowly trying a fresh start

I remember doing my best for your sake

When your world is slowly falling apart

I remember the subtle affection

When we held each other's hand

I remember the perfect connection

When we decided we'd make a stand

I remember the sweet kisses and laughter

When we'd go on our lowkey date

I remember accompanying you after

When we'd both go home late

I remember excitement all over the place

When we talk about our dreams

I remember the goals we planned to chase

When doing it together is the way, it seems

I remember the consequences I had to stake

When I thought our love will stay beautiful

And I remember the unbearable heartache

When the good memories became painful

After all the promised words in the spur of the moment
The lies laid bare in my eyes, I knew you lack commitment
The sincere efforts to make you feel you're all I wanted
All in vain, gone with the wind, and regretfully wasted
The peace of my life slowly left me chasing after you
Heart shattered, broken to pieces, can never be made new

Like the wind you blew past me
Leaving a trail of your luscious scent
Entiscing me to come after you
Convincing me that you are godsent

Like the wind you brought a breeze
That took me to a breathtaking view
Gently caressing me with your touches
Now I can't imagine a world without you

Like the wind, you kept me chasing
Promising a future with you and me
Hoping that we'll make it happen
I tried so hard to always keep you happy

But like the wind you brewed up a storm
That left me crippled, unable to stand
But everything must come to and end
And I had to let go of your hand



And just like the wind, you were gone
Because just like the wind, I'm bound to set you free

I asked her,  "why do you love God?"
I received a predictably vague answer

"Because he loved me when I couldn't love myself,
He was there for me when nobody else was,
He stayed in my worst and he never left,
And he gave me the strength when my life was falling apart."

Tears rolled down my eyes
And with a painful smile I silently thought

"I did love you when you couldn't love yourself,
I was there for you when nobody else was,
I stayed at your worst and I never left,
And I was there to help you up when you were falling apart.
But...
But I'm not God.
And that's why you fell out of love. And you chose to leave."

As I sat in the corner crying
Remembering all the moments we've been through
Lost in madness thinking
You gave up on us when I did not give you reasons to

Because
I
Am
Not
God

I woke up from a nightmare
It kept me awake the rest of the night
I remember flashes of you
Hurting so bad as I continued to fight
Are all my efforts in vain?
In trying to fix us hoping for a chance
It broke my heart to pieces
To see you crying when I stole a glance
All the chaos in my head bursted
I told you the things I never had the courage to tell you
And yet the worst part is
I realized I have to give you up even though I don't want to