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1.2k · Oct 9
Can and Cannot
Onyx Oct 9
I have things I absolutely cannot do.
I swear it is not a lie but 100% true.

I cannot message strangers online.
Have caused trouble time after time.

I cannot be alone near fire.
Please don't ask why.

I can only watch certain shows.
Everything below TV14.

I can not walk around alone.
Need someone with me.
505 · Oct 15
I don't understand
Onyx Oct 15
Why do you like me?

I am broken

Unfixable

My blood is cold

My tears have dried

Every ounce of my soul is gone

My heart has nearly died

I am tired of failing

Of being left behind

I wish to disappear

My mind is broken

Half the time

I am scared

To be free

I want to move out

But I don't want to be me

I'm terrified of living

A fake me is who they see

I write of darkness

Speak of trauma

So then

Why on earth are you following me?
492 · Oct 8
Sometimes and Others
Onyx Oct 8
Sometimes I find myself ahead
Others I fall behind

Sometimes I love to read
Others I rest my eyes

Sometimes I watch anime
Others I'm on Disney+

Sometimes I watch old movies
Others I watch Owl House

Sometimes I want to be an adult
Others I find I'm still a kid

Sometimes I rush to grow up
Others I want to be Peter Pan

Sometimes the world spins too fast
Others it feels too slow

Sometimes I keep a schedule
Others I go with the flow
466 · Oct 18
Fears
Onyx Oct 18
Why do I always feel

There are eyes on me

Ones I cant see

There are voices I hear

I'm so afraid

Of what they say

My subconscious conjures

The most grotesque pictures

It happens every single day

I can't calm down

I can't sit down

It's way too loud

Make it stop

Make them stop

Send me away

Put me away

A padded room

Where I should stay

I'm so afraid

Day to day

The voices I hear

Wish you knew what they say

I can't sleep

My soul, they want to reap

Get me out of this place

Away from my haunted brain
382 · Oct 28
Happiness
Onyx Oct 28
Why am I happiest when it is loud?

Surrounded by fake friends that wont stick around

As opposed to in silence all by myself

Reflecting upon small moments in my day

Could it be because my happiness depends on others?

Or am I simply afraid that my mind will destroy that feeling?

Whatever the reason may be.....

I find that I am happy that you listen to me
372 · Oct 9
Thank you!!!
Onyx Oct 9
Thank you for support!

Thank you for reading!

Thank you for the suns!

Thank you for listening to my feelings!

Thank you for the views!

Thanks to you I'm on the front page!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! <3
366 · Oct 1
What is love?
Onyx Oct 1
Today, I ask you a question that may seem simple to some.
A question that others find impossible to answer..
Tell me, darling, what is love?

Is love the unbearable pain that you feel when you lose someone?
No, I believe that that feeling is just grief..
Tell me, sweetheart, how does it feel?

Is it a warm, excitable feeling that lights up your soul?
No, I believe that is simply happiness..
Tell me, love, what does it mean?

Is it the meaning of your life that is your purpose?
No, I believe that the meaning varies..
Tell me, friends, do you love me?
344 · Sep 27
The bird
Onyx Sep 27
A bird kissed the glass,  
Wings fluttered, claws grazed the pane—  
Sings, then soars away.
Onyx Oct 24
All too soon

Your time is up

If he sees you

Play a merry tune

The piper

Standing there

Around the corner

Take a look

Are you looking?

There's a mystery

Trouble's cooking

Hold your breath

Can you hear that?

It's on it's way

Here come's death.
Onyx Oct 23
I am
A person
I am
Not a doll
I am
Afraid to fall
I am
Not a bird
I am
Only so strong
I am
Kind of smart
I am
A beating heart
I am
Living here
I am
Used to fear
I am
Not weak
I am
Read top to bottom then bottom to top
305 · Nov 5
Target
Onyx Nov 5
My mom told me to have a voice

To stand up for myself when

People choose to push me around

Unfortunately when I find myself

In such a situation as that

I simply freeze

There is not much a statue

Can really do when people

Decide to use it for their

Target practice

Ready?

Aim

Fire!


I get an apple core

Straight to the head
234 · Nov 6
Peace
Onyx Nov 6
Hold my hand gently,  
Let me take your pain away,  
Rest in peace with me.
A haiku for all my friends who've been hurting or crying lately. I love y'all
231 · 4d
Christian pizza?
Onyx 4d
I was invited

To a Christian club meeting

Taking place on Thursday and Friday

A few years ago I would have been excited

But that excitement was quite fleeting

I stopped being Christian years ago

So I wonder if perhaps it would be bad

To go just for the pizza
193 · Sep 25
Beginning
Onyx Sep 25
The sun rises
every morning

The flowers bloom
til noon

The wilting petals
float midair

The birds sing
melodic tunes

Children all play
many games

School takes up
8-hour days

All stories have
their ends

But first they
must begin
Onyx Sep 26
"Hey, girl what's your name?" someone asked me.
I couldn't reply I just said um.
He thought it was funny and "Um"ed me all day.
I'm sitting here wondering why he called me this way.
Does my body decide my gender?
Or perhaps does he?
I'm called a girl for I was born one.
But that is not me.
I sit with my they/thems and my he/theys
Hoping no one will call me a girl today
148 · 1d
Fruity fruit loop
Onyx 1d
An acquaintance

Stopped to ask me

If perhaps someone

Such as I would be

Called a cannibal

For eating fruit loops

However dear reader

As fruity as I am I

Highly doubt I'm edible
I thought it was funny so I figured I'd tell you lol
Onyx Oct 29
My voice never seems to be loud enough

To break through storm in your mind

I can never seem to get through to you

No matter how hard I try

Your breathing is sometimes so shaky

Like you're trying not to cry

Why don't you give me your burdens?

I'm here til the day you die
114 · Oct 18
Promises
Onyx Oct 18
My friends told me

They didn't want me anymore

I scare them you see

They never understood me

I tried to send them away

They promised to stay

What happened to promises?

Now they've all gone away..

I can sit alone at school

Every day
113 · Sep 30
I'm still standing
Onyx Sep 30
I’m weary, tired, shadows near,  
But like the song, I’ll persevere.  
Sick of the struggle, longing for peace,  
Yet I’m still standing, my heart won’t cease.  

Though feeling done, there’s still a spark,  
You know I’ll rise, igniting the dark.  
With every challenge, I’ll find my way,  
Just like the lyrics, I’ll seize the day.
made to read while listening to I'm Still Standing lol
108 · Sep 27
Monsters
Onyx Sep 27
Parfois, j'ai tellement peur.
J'essaie de me cacher dans ma chambre.
Recroquevillée sur moi-même, les yeux fermés.
J'essaie de me cacher de mes peurs et de ma douleur.
Le monstre ne se cache pas dans mon placard.
Il n'est pas sous mon lit.
Il est à l'intérieur de mon cerveau, caché au plus profond.
Il est le fruit de mon imagination.
Il me laisse terrifié.
La cause de tous mes cauchemars.
Un monstre qui semble bien réel.
Je perds peu à peu le fil de ma réalité.
J'ai du mal à réfléchir.
Je vais me débarrasser de mes peurs.
Avec l'eau de l'évier.

(Sometimes I get so scared.
I try to hide in my room.
Curled up, eyes closed.
I try to hide from my fears and my pain.
The monster isn't hiding in my closet.
It's not under my bed.
It's inside my brain, hidden deep inside.
He's a figment of my imagination.
It leaves me terrified.
The cause of all my nightmares.
A monster that seems very real.
I'm gradually losing touch with reality.
It's hard to think.
I'm going to get rid of my fears.
With water from the sink.)
hello poetry meet my fav languages today lol
104 · 23h
Teacher
Onyx 23h
I saw a teacher cry today

And I'm not quite sure how to feel

I sort of always viewed teachers as stone

Always there but never truly real
95 · Oct 8
Pretty Kitty
Onyx Oct 8
Pat the head a few times

Get a happy purr

Trail your hand down the back

Tussle the fur

Give lots of yummy treats

Fill up a hungry belly

Call a name that he will remember

Your sweet little one

He is such a pretty little kitty
i love cats
84 · Nov 5
Three
Onyx Nov 5
They finally told me why

I had been told to leave

Lost all of my friends in one day

Or so it seems

I had been seeking closure

For they didn't give a reason

But since I have it now

My heart is truly aching

For the truth of the matter

Simply turned out  to be

I was sent away

Due to the preferences

Of three
84 · Oct 25
My music
Onyx Oct 25
Plug in my headphones

Put my volume on max

Drown all the voices out

I did what I needed to

So now I might as well

Listen to my rock

Up until the bell

People call me old-fashioned

Just because my music isn't new

But 90's and 2000's punk rock

Treats me just fine

So their opinions can wait

Until next time
79 · Nov 6
:)
Onyx Nov 6
:)
I offer you a smile

For you make my life

Feel worthwhile

Thank you for your care

Live on with flare
77 · Oct 31
My Halloween Costume
Onyx Oct 31
For those who wonder

What my costume may be

On this lovely Halloween day

It has changed many times

Until I finally came to decide

I am the most realistic thing

That someone of my standing

And my personality may be

So for today, I have dressed as

What I see myself to be

Today I am a dead poet

Do you not see how well it fits

For someone as strange as me

So happy Halloween, my dear

Have all happiness and no fear

Everything is just pretend

Built for your enjoyment
77 · Oct 25
My only friend
Onyx Oct 25
You grab my hands in yours

Reminding me I'm special

You slip bracelets on my wrists

Reminding me you're here

You paint my nails black

Reminding me that you care

You spray me with your cologne

A good luck charm for my test

I pass with flying colors

And love you more than the rest

My friend, you are so special

I want to keep you close

If I lost you as well

It would hurt more than most

Please stay my friend forever
75 · Oct 1
Strawberry Licorice
Onyx Oct 1
Today I sat simply
Quiet as a mouse in the back of the room
No one seemed to care

Had anyone looked they might have noticed
The clear discomfort on my face

The way I attempted to swallow repeatedly
As I choked quietly

I eventually managed to swallow down the obstruction
Though even if I hadn't who would know

In the back of the room in my silence no one ever notices me
So I sit and sit til the end
74 · Oct 31
Fools
Onyx Oct 31
I listen to thoughtless plans

Falling from the mouths of

People with no personality

They want to marry at twenty

Have kids at twenty-one

With no understanding

Of the work to be done

Infants are not rocks

They need to be fed regularly

Some every two hours

Others less frequently

They may be fitful dreamers

And interrupt your sleep

Diapers can be expensive

Many need to be changed

Their cries can have different meanings

They need your attention most of the time

Marriages do not always work

Many lead to divorce which is difficult for children

Plans change and life cannot ever be controlled

So dear little girls, please..

Do not be fools
73 · Nov 5
Used to it
Onyx Nov 5
I am tired of being asked if I'm doing ok

Without any friends to call my own

Of course, I would lie and say yes

In the car or in our home

Lonely is a constant state for me

A social butterfly whose wings

Were harshly clipped

Though I suppose after years

Of being alone I should

Eventually grow to be

Used to it
71 · Sep 27
Memories
Onyx Sep 27
Your face haunts my dreams
I hear your voice saying my name
I used to love hearing it but it's twisted now
You are gone but in my mind
Memories fade and change with time
I remember you cared
I have forgotten why because I know
I know the truth that you left me alone to cry
I'm done fighting the past
Finished reliving all of my mistakes
I don't even miss you anymore it's been too long
I see you every day walking in the halls
Heard you had a girlfriend now but I really don't care
It's been a year since we ended
You still give me your hat and play cards with me
The only fight I can beat you at
Poker and Blackjack
67 · Nov 6
Behind my back
Onyx Nov 6
Sitting with my eyes closed

Trying to block out everyone

All of these people around me

Pressing my hands down

Shielding my ears from it all

Trying but to no avail

The sound still breaks through

And I hear what they say

Behind my back
Onyx 1d
I'm lonely

Because your gone

My June is far away

I gave you your name

But you don't stand by me

   -Nyx
66 · Sep 25
Disclaimer
Onyx Sep 25
I should come with a warning label
One to protect from certain doom
To keep things happy and clear
Putting all cards on the table
Warning: I'm scared of people
I rethink every message I send
Cant look at comments at poems
I stare at notifications for an hour
Constantly second guess myself
I'm scared to mess up so I hide
Feelings are better bottled inside.
64 · Oct 25
"Friends"
Onyx Oct 25
I try to be perfect

Wish to be praised

I offer friendship

Cry when we part ways

I do everything

Strive for attention

Want acceptance

From everyone

So why do I

Sit alone

I offer all my help

So why when I need you

Are you gone

I thought that we

Were

Friends
Onyx 2d
Make your face blank and stare out into space

2. Wear very little makeup upon your boring face

3. Put on baggy clothes without looking like a disgrace

4. Stay quiet and only speak when others speak to you

5. Listen to other's insults until you believe them to be true

6. Pack your bag and head on home to do your chores

7. Grab the switch if you can even though it isn't yours

8. Play til someone else wants to and then disappear

9. Make yourself appear as insignificant as possible

10. Go to sleep and repeat it all tomorrow

10b. If you fail hide from everyone who hates you
60 · Oct 8
Identity
Onyx Oct 8
People ask me my type to decide who I am
They say sexuality determines identity

However, I believe that who I like isn't what I am
I am pan but that isn't my entire life

That would be like saying I'm a girl because of what I wear
Though I wear a lot of strange things

People tend to make assumptions based on who a person is
I believe you should get to know them

Start by saying hi and go from there
Maybe make a friend

It really is simply that simple
So do not assume
59 · Oct 10
Oops lol
Onyx Oct 10
Just realized something

I write poems about Identity

As well as poems about gender

BUT

I forgot to update my gender

Time to add the right gender

Ooh and pronouns too!

Showing who I am

So have a smile

From me to you! :)
58 · Nov 7
Schematics of love
Onyx Nov 7
I am a fighter, not a lover.

For I refuse to fall

I will take the first punch.

And be the first person you call.

I used to be different; A hopeless romantic

But then I  quickly learned that.

Only certain people deserve to be loved.

And people like me are simply curses.

I remember the time my heart yearned

But in the end, I didn't fit in.

My brain was not made.

According to the ideal

Schematics.
57 · Sep 27
Simply me
Onyx Sep 27
People can not understand what I am
They seem to believe there is only woman and man
I wear clothing based upon my mood
Jeans and a muscle tank or skirts and formfitting shirts
Changing constantly never fitting in
Being myself in whatever brings me comfort in my skin
My pronouns they may vary
From neutral to more feminine or masculine
Purely nonbinary and simply me
just being myself
Onyx 1d
Onyx is not here right now

He chose to hide inside

The mind is full of life right now

No need for fear to rise

So hear our words that come from

Everyone remaining alive

   - Null
56 · Oct 9
Way back when
Onyx Oct 9
I found my letter to my future self
Written out in middle school

Back to the days I was very young
When I was still lesbian

I wanted three kids two boys and a girl
One year apart

Thinking back I cant help but wonder
Did I know I wasn't a girl?

Who knows? Who cares?
I am who I am

Since that is the case though
I will continue on from there

Wish me luck
Onyx 1d
I'm tired of staying silent

For I have a voice inside

I refuse to be speechless

Until the day I die

   - Ren
52 · Sep 24
Endless Moments
Onyx Sep 24
In the quiet of the night,
I feel the warmth of your light,
A love that fills my heart and soul,
With every breath, we become whole.

Time moves slow, like a gentle breeze,
Moments wrapped in memories,
We stand beneath the stars so bright,
Your laughter dances, a sweet delight.

In this beautiful place, I see your eyes,
Reflecting the truth, where the universe lies.
Together we face the shadows and fears,
Holding on tight through laughter and tears.

The world may turn, the seasons change,
But in this dance, nothing feels strange.
With every step, we embrace the unknown,
Two souls intertwined, never alone.

As we walk the path, both rough and fine,
I know in my heart, you’re truly mine.
We’ll face the storms, the cold and the heat,
In the chaos of life, you make me complete.

So here’s to the years, both good and bad,
For every tear and every laugh we’ve had.
In the depths of our journey, I promise to stay,
Together, forever, come what may.

And when the night falls, as it sometimes will,
With you by my side, my heart will be still.
For in this life, with its highs and lows,
I find my peace in the love that grows.
51 · Sep 23
Just a thought
Onyx Sep 23
A thoughtfulness may come from simply sitting still
Silence, noise, darkness, light… Endless changes
Endless thrill… Sitting still… Being real…
Real.. Standing in remembrance that you are real
Grab a book and flip through the pages… Learn.
Actually absorb the information placed in your hands.
Expand your vocabulary and further your beliefs.
Be able to truely, thoroughly overpower others by actually knowing.
Know the cause of true evil and the names and dates of the people.
Turn back through time and live through history.
The real history and not the one taught to us in school.
Read the books banned by the school board.
Learn the things that no one has ever bothered to teach.
Become successful and thrive. Thrive! Thrive!
Prove everyone who has always told you off wrong.
The world may be cruel but you can live.
Living is one of the bravest things that someone who is afraid could truely do.
Live, sit, breathe, think, remember, learn, thrive, develop, teach, and be real.
51 · Oct 29
Lost to my mind
Onyx Oct 29
I can't remember your name anymore.

Your face has been lost in my mind.

I think we were friends once.

You've been gone for a long time.

Were you real or imaginary?

A voice inside my head?

I can't seem to find your face.

Deep inside my mind.

I have a feeling you were important.

Whether you were real or not.

Where did you go?

How far away?

I suppose those are things.

I will never know.
Onyx Sep 25
If I told you I’d seen the world fall apart
Or that I still had broken heart
Would you stay?
If I said the sky fell
And the oceans boiled away
Would you tell me everything's ok?
If I said that the earth split
And the mountains crumbled
Would you hold my hand?
If I said I’d be yours forever
Would you smile?
If I said I loved you
Would all the bad feelings go away?
Even if I’m scared of getting hurt
All I ever wanted was for you to be happy
I try to make you smile every day
Because as long as you want me I’ll stay
51 · Sep 25
Reboot
Onyx Sep 25
My brain just broke
I read one word and I died
Not in a bad way don't worry
I just dont know how to reply
I believe its been 20 minutes
I read it over and over
I cant think of what to say
It made me happy?
I feel special?
No that's pathetic
Thank you?
I dont know
I dont understand my mind
I need some time to reboot then I'll reply
you know who you are lol
Onyx Sep 27
Someone said I talk too much.
Maybe they are right.

I speak about all of my thoughts.
And my feelings I write.

I write countless poems in simply a matter of days.
Endless thoughts and feelings surface.

My mind is truly nothing but a winding overgrown maze.
Every word I type is just a flower.

A simple flower growing upon the vine.
Neverending tendrils of words.

Straight from this chaotic mind of mine.
I hope it brings happiness.

If not happiness I hope that my words can bring something else.
Something that can be much harder to feel.

I hope my poems bring it to you.
May they bring you peace.
50 · Oct 15
Fading Echoes
Onyx Oct 15
In shadows deep where silence weeps,
Lost laughter lingers, and memory sleeps.
The moon, a ghost, casts pale, soft light,
Reminding us gently of a vanished night.

Each sigh a story, each tear a trace,
Whispers of joy in a haunted space.
Yet in the stillness, a flicker remains—
Sorrow and beauty entwined in chains.

Every voice in a unique timber,
None are quite the same.
Echoes filling the world—
Born simply to fade.
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