at times I feel very convinced
by my convictions
other times I just feel
convicted

forget the high road
I take the road where you can swipe a knee
if you need to keep yourself safe

a dead silence
grinds the nerves
into long strings of tendon
holding together nightmares

my mind conjures the sound
of Sweeney Todd
making sausage

when your guard is always up
you can’t enjoy the revelry brought by
fun loving bandits

just make the best of it
he said
I’ve been trying ever since

there is a lot more
great, cheap *** in the world today
but for the really good stuff
you still have to pay

feline curl
in the crook of your arm
relaxed
in the blind feral faith
that she is the one

it is now so recognizable
anxiety
the need to run
literally
figuratively

it’s too dangerous
for my mind
and my skin

in wavering
the timber sounds strong

now is now
now is
right
now
my smiles
my arms
my lips
they are
now

all the hellos and goodbyes
boil down to a rainy Sunday
with piano music
and hot chocolate

I organized my sweaters by color this morning
I feel much better now

walking in the dark
holding hands
bashfully
no one has ever
innocent kisses
lips exploring
joyfully
no one has ever
waiting loving hoping
waiting trusting
patiently
no one has ever
betrayal lies fear
forgiveness
betrayal betrayal betrayal
no one has ever
she didn’t come
you didn’t come
you never came
no one has ever

best pick up line ever:
I’ll groom it however you like
it’s not my face going down there

I’ve decided to marry you
no, I mean, I’m ending it
I’m ending it, we’re through
wait... hello?

I will be available for eternity
next month

never ending spin
thread, spin, thread
spin
weightless baby bird

unfortunately for you
I have enough of my own power
I don’t need to **** for it
but I kept all those texts

it’s a gorgeous day
my heart is full of Red Bull
I am cracking my wrists
I am cracking my neck
I am flexing my muscles
(which can be seen for miles)
I am feeling like the day

don’t end up on the wrong side of my tracks
it’s a dangerous neighborhood over there
but there’s lots of signs to keep you safe
if you’re the sort to pay attention

I think you meant to apologize
for being a presumptuous condescending *****
to a complete stranger
but it came out wrong
you can always try again

please don’t **** on me
I’m not into that
and I’m sorry but
we have no public restroom

unsympathetic

please
tell me
what is poetry

something I learned from my wolf
show your teeth when needed
make clear you have no qualms using them
and enjoy your territory

hello poetry should change its name to
Not A Dating Site
there are lots of other sites for that
and they work pretty well
in my experience

ah well
you know where to find me

nothing I write
on this site
will make him care
about me

I am so sorry
I am so sad
come back
dear sociopath lover
I live for you
truly
all the feelings I have
revolve around you
even if you are a lying
psychotic
*******

and isn’t that what counts?

sometimes a but can haunt you
it appears
disappears
but
but
but

just spit it out
you weak *******

sorry
I tend to be ******* myself
at times

life is about context darlings
also
not giving a ****
but context
it only comes with experience

there’s no getting around that

I just spent 30 minutes
trying to tune a cheap electric guitar
at least I’m not on Facebook

I just don’t want to be hit in the head
with a baseball bat
when I’m not looking
so if you’re going to hit me in the head
with a baseball bat
make sure I’m looking

I love you so much
but you aren’t you
and I’m not me

maybe
will only get you so far
but most of the world’s population has not realized this
as they bow their heads in prayer

I’ve been breaking records my whole life
but I’m not talking about me this time

the day is swirling around you
with never ending love and fantasy

there is a dire incompatibility
and it is not time or space
or others
you should know
by now
what it is
I have wrapped my head all the way around you
and my understanding is an ouroboros
who is no longer hungry

there are lots of doctors in my queue
which is ironic because I hate doctors
but ****
they are hot

I dreamed of a new lover
he was tall and thin
he was old and young
    (like me)
he was strong and easy and kind
he did not believe
in absurd myths of human subservience
we walked together with our jangly arms intertwined
we laid together with anticipation
we smiled together with shy hope
I woke up with all the best feelings
in my favorite parts of the body
he’ll be back
he was a keeper

the day is cold
very cold
it will not get warm
but my heart makes up for all those types of things

our interactions have become meaningless
in an irrelevant way
which is very compatible with my happiness
but there’s still hope for you in the grand scheme of things
I’m sure of it

unfortunately, I am not afraid of normal things
like a god fearing woman should be
like ****, or ******,
or being photographed without make up
I’m afraid of
supernatural parasites
being abducted by aliens
losing my place in line at the DMV

also, sharks
if you were a shark
I would find you terrifying

as it is
I find you fascinating
and ****
you would be a great way to die
or live, if that’s an option

the cold irony of your words when you think you are talking about love is endearing
but sometimes I feel sad for you

sweet dreams
sweet screams
ice cream’s
melting in the sun

ooo! I’m being “boosted”!
maybe I’ll have a date this Friday
or maybe I’ll have a gardening accident
maybe a meteor will land in the ocean
or maybe I’ll just dance naked in the dark
like I usually do
anything could happen

arousal occurs at the oddest moments in your 40’s
like sometimes even when gardening
hormones are truly god’s gift to us all

I love the guys in their 40’s
who put on their profiles
“Wants kids”
and I’m like
seriously dude?
then you shouldn’t have ****** up your last 15 years of relationships

all you young men out there
take heed
put the work in now
because you’re going to want kids someday