If I could ask anything of God

Do I ask him to show you that you deserve only the greatest love in the world and I'm far from it or do I ask him for the means to give you only the greatest love in the world
To receive your love from another world

Oh how I've run
So so many times
I ran to the military
I ran away from you
Nothings ever hurt more
Not making selection
Roamed France
No path found
Returned
Anew
Redefined
Tweaked
Still wondering
Could I face you again
Even briefly
I guess time will tell
I just mustn't run
Not again

I'm not very certain
What will come in the end
All I know is it involves a gun
And a pen

Alone within a thick wall,
With no one to stay,
He reminded himself,
"It is better this way."

Lost in the deepest forest
Of my clouded mind
Treversing rugged terrain
Climbing sheer cliff-faces
Then thinking of taking the short way down
Lost pretty much everything
Just my family
Keeping me going
Their wellbeing and your face
All that kept my step back
I couldn't hurt my family
I'll carry on as best I can
For the chance I see you
To show you I've been strong
Hopefully to see Happy
To say I'm proud of you
To hear you say you're proud of me

I get it now

I saw so much in her
Perfect in every imperfection.
Heart of pure love
A smile that warmed my broken heart
The dream girl I'd always imagined
Intentions so pure.

My Hearts
Fallen Angel


All I needed
Life material you might say

But I

A stupid heart reduced to coal, mercury arteries, yes my intentions were true but I had to be the idiot to question Her!

No-one will ever know of this but I truly did love her

I loved her smile
The way it warmed me from the inside

The way she'd play with her hair liquifying the inner crevasses of this heart

I loved how kind hearted she was and how she cared so much but I always believed she deserved better realizing I am tormented, a burden unbaringly deserved.

I should've said what I felt
I should've kissed her

Instead leant Apon the door
I wouldnt allow myself

I looked You in the eyes and shot myself

Although all I wanted was to see you
I couldn't for your own good
You knew it was coming
That's why you ask dme to leave you alone
So it wouldn't be as painful

A Necessary Sacrifice
Your Happiness and Well being
All I want for you

Til time flies and paths not overstep

I'll be wishing you well

From a Place, Time and Location Never Known

Just as much the mystery to me than you

In search of

Answers

Questions

Knowledge

Wisdom

Of

LOVE

A piece of Myself I could never forget because of You