The best buzz
is that one singular moment
right after the first forty,
when you've got a Marlboro
hanging with its fingernails
to your bottom lip.

And you're so lazy
and warm
that you push the smoke out
without lifting a finger.

you give off
a sort of disgustingly wonderful sweet music.
I find myself humming it every time you pass me.

spill out your heart, sister,
show me you're warm inside,
show me you're not just a popsicle with a
hard center holding you upright

show me
please
show
me.

You're cute
and you know it
tempting
and alluring
under my skin
but I won't give in.
You're no good
no, not for the real me
I'm really not sure
who I was trying to be
just to ease this pain.
But ***
with you-
basically a stranger,
no, that won't do.
You say "friends with benefits".
More like- "benefits"
because we're not friends.
You talk so *****
that I have to scrub myself clean
because that's just not who I am
nor will it ever be.
So, I'm changing my mind.
You'd get what you want
and I'd still be alone
tell me,
what's the benefit in that?

Forgive me for wanting to be loved,
and not just ******.

She wears that smile
You know the one
It comes from the hidden secrets
Something's gone according to her plan.
Her calculations were correct.
The plot thickens.
Why can’t you see through her eyes
To her core
Where she waits
Like a snake
Ready to coil around her prey
It’s me
It has always been me
Who soothed you!
Who understood you, and who needs you.
What’s wrong with me?

you know more
than just skin
sliced it apart
gotten under
dug close to the bone
so please
get gone

My virginity
a security blanket,
I keep at the foot of my bed.

It doesn’t shield me from loneliness,
It’s purely for show.

I imagine limbs tangled in that blanket.
Our breathes mingling to create dream clouds.

Legs combining like tree roots.
A tentative hand and trembling lips,
The tangible reality of my nerves.

Sooth me with my favorite line from Jane Austen,
Darling I just might love you.

Hips grind against hips

We’re two halves of a love poem.
You, the undying love
Me, the inevitable disappointment.