My emotions are boiling into one

My heart is hotter than the flaming sun

It beats, beats, beats like I had a run

My words were stronger than a loaded gun

You see I was stepped on

You see I was left alone

You didn't see me crying

You didn't see me breaking and dying

You didn't see me on my bed lying

You didn't see me denying

You didn't see me justifying

You didn't see me roaring

Cowering, tripping, stumbling

You only saw what I wanted you to see

Are you ok?

How can I be?

When all of that is loaded in me?

Are you ok?

Why can't you see?

When nothing fruitful is coming from me?

You never cry!

Of course I do!

But never to you!

Why have you changed?

I never did...

You have forgotten what's been said

I try to feel better which is hard

Never thought it'll hurt to part

I keep going back to the start

When you deemed it simple to break my heart

I feel everywhere, I feel apart

Eyes won't close, can't depart

Was I bad? Mad? Hard?

Loud? Clingy? Embarked?

Too loving? Too gentle?

Too mental? Too regretful?

I broke both hearts, with my hands

I hope one day that I will understand

That I did this for you, then for myself

And maybe this poem will die on my shelf

I want to move and not wait a second

Yet I am held by something I recon

So ****** I feel, that I had to kneel

Why did you do it? Why did you steal?

Never have I felt so alive and real

But you simply wiped me like dirt on your heel

For that I am saddened, that this was our end

Where would I find another heart to lend?

Mine is all broken it's all over the place

Should I collect it? Or wipe my tears off my face?

I will say something, I will cut to the chase

I am too crowded inside my own space