Today, I saw your face again
And I felt as though I were meeting you for the first time.
That first meeting of ours...
It was so pure
And I was so shy
And you could not take your eyes off of me
And I could barely look at you.
"He doesn't deserve your admiration"
I had thought
And today, I thought that again.
I never thought I'd bump into you once more -
Not until you were ready to let it happen.
But nothing could prevent Destiny.
And when I saw you, I wanted nothing more than to pull you in
And to taste you.
To feel your lips pressed against mine
Even if you would have pushed me away.
But it was that first meeting all over again
And I could barely look at you
And still that didn't stop you from looking at me.
We had hurt each other in the past
But all that is so easily forgotten when I see you.
And as we hugged goodbye, I wished I wasn't such a fool.
I wish I had kissed you.

And when you're gone
I'll remember pale moonlight
And early sunrise
And the way the morning air whispers your name
Just before dawn breaks through
The midnight blue

We had a lot of good memories didn't we?
And perhaps I did take you for granted
And perhaps you took me for granted too.
But just one more kiss from you would have been
A saving grace
And my complete undoing.

And all she wants is
To be held
To have someone whisper
Into her hair
"I've got you"
And to feel properly
Loved
For who she was and who
She is and who she wants
To be
And to be allowed to remain a
Free spirit
And someone to get lost with
Someone to encourage her to be her better self
Someone to keep her head
In the clouds
And her feet pressed firmly to the ground
She does not want to feel overwhelmed
Or oppressed
But alive
And beautiful

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Hold your breath.
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Exhale through slightly parted lips.
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Hold your breath once more.
Is this worth dying for?
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Don't tell me it's too late.
Exhale through slightly parted chapped lips.
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There has to be more.
So much more.
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It's never too late.
I can still learn to appreciate
The life I've been given.
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I will continue fighting for
My life
My say.
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My life will not end on this cold hard floor.
Hold your breath.
Inhale. Exhale.
You are worth more.

O' how dark is the world t'day
So morbidly gray
But o' here comes the sun
Shining down through the clouds
And you are there to soak it up
And wish he were there

And in that moment she felt like crying
But no tears came
And she so desperately wanted to cry
"over a boy?"
They asked
And all she could do was nod
As she felt the
Splinter
Work it's way

Let's start off with this: I miss you.
Let's add: every day.
Let's keep in mind: we broke up 2 years ago and I have a new boyfriend.
Let's do this: get each other's numbers and make plans.

Rewind.

I have not been able to get you out of my head.
I have splinters in my heart.
I can still hear your voice, can still hear you saying my name.
I still get goosebumps at the thought of you.
What have I done?
How could I let you go?

Pause.
We were good.
I was filled with giddiness.
You filled my heart with wonderlust that was uncontrollable.
You made my soul yearn for freedom.
I had never experienced that before.
I don't now.

Play.
My mom said that what we had was simply
"puppy love"
Oh, if only she could understand...
If only she could see my heart.
If only you could.

Pause.
I want to show you my heart.
I have changed.
I am different; no longer afraid.
Let me open up my heart and show you the cracks I have left in it.

Fast forward.
My new boyfriend made me happy.
But he does not fill that void.
I am currently unhappily in a relationship with him.
But I won't break his heart.
I won't break another one.
I know I broke yours.

What is my punishment?
I have done this to myself -
I am breaking my own heart because I broke yours.
I am breaking my own heart so that I can avoid
Breaking his.

But wait.
I still need you back.
I still need you back.
Please don't shut me out.

Please...
Take me back...

Soon I'll not have a name to you.
Soon I'll only be a girl you once knew.
One day, I won't have a face either.
And one day when you pass me in the mall
You won't recognize me.
But I'll remember you.
I'll remember how you chose to forget about me.
And a look of confusion will cross your face
When I smile at you.
And you'll go home
And after a while
You'll remember my face.
And you'll remember my name.
And you'll remember how you chose to forget me
And you'll ask yourself why you did.
But I will have moved on
I will have forgiven you by then,
And that will make you think
And think
And think.

You are golden.
And I love you still.
And I wonder... Do you think of me at all?
Does anything trigger your memory?
I was a fool.
I acted too rashly. Always.
You are golden.
And I love you still.

i looked into his eyes today
and felt a shiver run down my spine.

i had dreamt of him last night.
he had written in a card for me
telling me that he was scared to love me but that he wanted to, so badly
and i had wanted to tell him that i was scared, too,
but that i was too in love with him to care.
but i couldn't pick up the pen, couldn't speak to him
and suddenly i wasn't moving, i was falling
down
but not to him.
into an abyss.
perhaps i was drowning in emotions...

and when i looked into his eyes today,
i could not see anything.

does he even consider me?
yes. he is a little younger.
and no. i don't care.
because when you love, it's for real.

but will he ever think of me?
has he?

i wish that i could captivate him
the way he captivates me, even when he isn't anywhere near me.

i want to know him
but does he wish to know me?

i glanced into those dark, intriguing eyes
and felt my heart-beat pick up
but had to look away.

i do not want to reveal my feelings for him...
but i wish i could.

oh, how I wish...
i wish he would notice me

And suddenly I wished to know what it would be like to breathe you in
And to know what you taste like
And to rest my head upon your shoulder
And to hear your heart beat in my ear
Or to hold your hand as we drive through the night on an endless road trip -
The kind we both long for
With your awful singing that I know I'll love so much and your strange taste in music
And we are so far apart with nothing in common but our desire to explore
And I remember how I felt this all before and I realise how I want this all much more