I watched my blood,
Bleed deep in the soil,
From the knives in my heart,
Caught deep in turmoil.

And I feel so cold,
Trapped in the snow,
My ghosts keep me company,
Still colder and colder I grow...

And I bow my head,
With my arms wide open,
Praying to God, take me home...
As I sink deeper in dread,
Here's...my...last...breath...I hope I'll be free when...I'm dead.

Father...
I know you're hurting,
The wounds of your heart cut deep,
It must feel like you're drowning,
I can hear you call for mom in your sleep.

Father...
Recently I've lost my way,
Feeling cold and empty,
I feel pain everyday,
I always pray for God to take me.

But Father...
You inspire me,
You always try to fill in the spot in my heart mom left for me,
You always fight for me,
And although you don't say it, in your eyes I see your love for me.

And Father...
Your not alone,
Never shed a tear,
One day our Father will call us home,
So for now, have no fear,
Because I am here.

Mother can you hear me,
Mother can you see me,
I'm alive, I'm still breathing,
But my heart is still bleeding.

I try to be strong and crack a smile,
I thought time would heal me, guess I was in denial.

I'm sorry mom...

I TRIED!
I TRIED!

Tell me can you relate?
I gave them love, in return they gave me hate,
Every achievement I've made,
They've called a disgrace,
They're testing my faith.

Lord forgive me,  
Have mercy on my soul,
I've prayed for you to **** me,
My pain, is something I can't put into words, I just can't tell it all.

My dreams fade to black,
My dreams are filled with silence,
The bloodstained fields glow like violets,
Blood flows from the cuts on my back.

Mother I'm sorry,
There's no need to worry,
Lead me home, where we belong,
Where the eagles cry,
Where we can fly,
And forever I'll be by your side.

They say when loneliness eats away at the heart,
Demons let themselves in,
They'll break you apart,
Then send you to your coffin.

I try to resist them, I know I have to,
I don't want to accept the Devil's wager,
But it's difficult, when people hurt you,
They use you, tear you up, and they crush you and throw you away like a piece of paper.

There's no where to go,
No helping hand at offer,
All I have, is a silent voice I hear when the wind blows,
"Endure a while longer, I promise I'll make you burn brighter than the summer".

Awake at night,
I can't sleep,  because there's no dreams in my mind,
Motivation is tough to find,
I ponder if I should quit and start a nine to five.

It's a future I dread,
I'd be better of dead,
That's the echo of the demons in my head,
This is what happens when people say that they love you,  but they've never really cared.

I'm losing sight,
Cloaked in darkness,
But I heard a voice, from a glimmer of light,
Saying,"Son come follow me, and my blood will cleanse you from all the pain, and my light will dwell in you, to show you, you're not heartless".