What's love?
A faded photograph in an empty room,
Something that drove
Me to a darkened tomb.

Only warmth I  felt was in the womb,
What's left behind is broken and twisted,
Mother you left me too soon,
Now I'm left with the lukewarm,
Who-is-not I'm conflicted.

I sacrifice it all,
Just to be told that I won't amount to nothing,
From the same people that said they would love me,
No wonder, their voices feel numbing.

But the voices in my head,
The ones who keep company,
Tell me to walk down the avenues,
I reach the 19th, run into traffic, till finally...
I'm D...

I watched my blood,
Bleed deep in the soil,
From the knives in my heart,
Caught deep in turmoil.

And I feel so cold,
Trapped in the snow,
My ghosts keep me company,
Still colder and colder I grow...

And I bow my head,
With my arms wide open,
Praying to God, take me home...
As I sink deeper in dread,
Here's...my...last...breath...I hope I'll be free when...I'm dead.

Father...
I know you're hurting,
The wounds of your heart cut deep,
It must feel like you're drowning,
I can hear you call for mom in your sleep.

Father...
Recently I've lost my way,
Feeling cold and empty,
I feel pain everyday,
I always pray for God to take me.

But Father...
You inspire me,
You always try to fill in the spot in my heart mom left for me,
You always fight for me,
And although you don't say it, in your eyes I see your love for me.

And Father...
Your not alone,
Never shed a tear,
One day our Father will call us home,
So for now, have no fear,
Because I am here.