Michael Pillay

Michael Pillay Sep 15

She whispers in my ear
Sultry and seductive
Secrets of her siren song
Pulsating through my veins
She's saying that she loves me as she licks away my tears
Aren't I so lucky

Her embrace, a strong sensation,
A shiver down my spine.
Her voice a revelation,
A peace so divine.

I rest within her lap,
Her hands cold to the touch,
Yet comforting to this weary soul.
What joy! For the love of my life,
Is taking me from,
Pain, heartbreak, sorrow, and strife.
As she strokes my head with her cold hands,
I fade to slumber in faraway lands.

Was inspired to write this when I reflected on my life, the suffering I've gone through, missed relationships, watching my mother die and losing hope. Feeling rejected by society I thought I could find an escape through deaths warm embrace. Although, thank God I didn't listen to those voices.

#suicide #sorrow #death #loneliness

Michael Pillay Aug 6

See No Evil

What's love?
A faded photograph in an empty room,
Something that drove
Me to a darkened tomb.

Only warmth I felt was in the womb,
What's left behind is broken and twisted,
Mother you left me too soon,
Now I'm left with the lukewarm,
Who-is-not I'm conflicted.

I sacrifice it all,
Just to be told that I won't amount to nothing,
From the same people that said they would love me,
No wonder, their voices feel numbing.

But the voices in my head,
The ones who keep company,
Tell me to walk down the avenues,
I reach the 19th, run into traffic, till finally...
I'm D...

Michael Pillay Aug 5

Tired

Woe this life of mine,
Where there is no light,
Following a crooked line,
No hope in sight.

Woe unto me,
Rejected, worthless, and faithless.
Desolation is all that's meant for me,
As I drown myself in the darkness.

Michael Pillay Aug 3

Rockstar

Can you hear the beat,
Of the drum in my chest?
The chords of my heart,
Strings strung and caressed.

My eyes are set ablaze,
And light up the stage.
My soul sings,
Along to the rhythm of my dreams.

I dance along to the music,
A performance of perfect harmony,
Bewildering...it's like magic,
A true symphony.

I receive an applause of silence,
Overjoyed, I perform an encore,
Walking on air, I wish this night never ends.
Alone, this song of mine, is what I'm made for.

Michael Pillay Jul 27

Journey: Book 2-Storm

As the wind howls,
I look up and take notice of the clouds,
The seem like a group of weeping souls,
Filled with regret and rage.
The ship creaks,
As the waves crash against the hull,
The cold sends chills down my spine,
The situation seems dark and dull.
I grit my teeth at the helm,
Hoping to weather the storm,
But before I could react...
A flash of light blinds me,
My ship is destroyed,
As I fade to a cold,dark realm,
Certainly this...is...my...
END...

Michael Pillay Jul 24

Journey: Book 1-Purpose

Why do people seek adventure?
Is it to find treasure, gain fame, or to push mankind to new frontiers?
I don't have know myself,
But...the sea...,
It calls out to me.
For what will I gain from this quest I ponder?
What drives me to set sail?
I can only wonder.

Michael Pillay Jul 8

Vinland

I watched my blood,
Bleed deep in the soil,
From the knives in my heart,
Caught deep in turmoil.

And I feel so cold,
Trapped in the snow,
My ghosts keep me company,
Still colder and colder I grow...

And I bow my head,
With my arms wide open,
Praying to God, take me home...
As I sink deeper in dread,
Here's...my...last...breath...I hope I'll be free when...I'm dead.