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Ana Habib Dec 2019
How easy it must have been for you to fall again
Fall in love
Were you ready for it or just looking for a replacement?
Something to numb pain
Something to give you the strength to walk again
Repair what broke
I hope it worked out in the end
I hope she was able to stop the hurt
I hope she was able to bring back the smile on your face
I hope she was able to fill your eyes with new dreams
I hope she was able to fill your heart with hope
I hope she walks beside you in everything that you do
I hope she never lets you down like I did
Ana Habib Dec 2019
The day was a good one
The sun was out
The cold didn’t bother me one bit
No one got in the way
I didn’t flinch at the sight of two people talking
Talking about dreams and no doubt planning a future together
He had his hands in hers
Looked at her so intently
I almost choked up at the sight
I forgot what I was thinking about
It made me long for you
There was a time when you looked me that way
Under the stars
In the company of crickets and fireflies
We talked
We pouted and fought
We laughed
We always looked forward tomorrow
Until they ran out
The stars are still there
The crickets come out
But the fireflies left a long time ago
Ana Habib Dec 2019
I will continue to move on
It’s all I can do
I still cant forget you
I don’t think I ever will
I am not sure why that is
Anger has melted away
Hate has turned into honey
Sadness and grief still haunt me
Loss and regret walk beside me
Every single day
Wherever I go
Whatever state I may be in
The grip gets stronger with time
I can cope with the marks they leave behind
I can cope with feelings of suffocation and unhappiness
I can cope with the memories
But how do I free my self from the pain
Of you not being here
Of you never coming back
of us never crossing paths again
Ana Habib Dec 2019
I don’t know how I feel about you
Even though I can see your eyes pleading me to say the magic words
“ Its ok”
“ I forgive you”
“ I don’t mind at all”
Well not tonight
I would normally feel weird if I don’t talk to you for a long time
But not tonight
You take step towards forward
I can smell the flowers from here but I will probably just give them away to the nice woman a few apartments away from ours
A smiley faced nurse with a veteran husband
She will probably appreciate the pink peonies and purple bellflowers more then me
You smell nice and it looks like you ironed your own things
Well I refuse to budge
I don’t really want to go upstairs put on spandex and sit through a miserable meal of cheese fondue, creamed spinach, beef roulade and potatoes and pie a la mode
Watch with disinterest as you charmed your friends wife
Endure a long ride in the quiet woods
swat off your clumsy attempts at making up
step out of pointy
wipe off fakery and put up with heartburn and gas for the entire night
Nope
So here are your keys and there's the door
Now into the kitchen for creamy chocolate profiteroles and pink bubbles
Ana Habib Dec 2019
Sounds

There is so much noise in this house
The cat is purring
The speaking is speaking in French
The washer swishes and swirls
The dryer tumbles
The heater hums
The dishwasher sloshes about
The blender whirls
The oven just tinged
The phone continues to beep and buzz
The computer loads
The shredder shreds
The printer has stopped
It is never quiet in here
Even though it is just mittens and I
The only sound my ears want to pick up on is the sound of the front door unlocking
Your voice ringing through this small house
how I have missed the sound of your voice
Ana Habib Dec 2019
Off
Something feels off about you
I know the mornings wasn’t so great
Neither of us get any sleep
I was in one of my moods
You were abnormally chatty and sleep deprived

Something feels off about you
We talk like we are suppose to
We work together like we are suppose to
But there is something between us
It suffocates me
You look so lost
I don’t know how to bring you back home

Something feels off about you
I cant remember the last time you smiled
I cant remember the last time I felt happy to be in your company
You talk when something bothers you
But this time you failed to let me know that it was me

Something feels off about you
You voice is thick with resentment
Your body is rigid
A touch feels like a shock to the system
You snap at me more often
You are quick to anger
You have resorted to using unkind words to communicate

The words feel like icy water
Or a slap that has left behind a mark

Something feels off about you
You choose to stay far away
If you keep everything inside and refuse to let anything out
I wont know what to watch out for
I don’t know what to solve
It all feels like madness

Something feels off about you
Something is coming undone
Unraveling…
The heart…
The mind…
Feelings…
Ana Habib Dec 2019
I am ashamed of these tears
I continue to make mistakes
I continue to not understand
I learn things the hard away
I try to love you in my own way
Its messy
It doesn’t always make sense
It can be loud and obnoxious
Sometimes even annoying
The last few days were hard
I was tough on you
Only because I saw potential
Only because I was trying to spare you from a type of pain
But when I try to help
You push me away
You scowl
You frown
You feel pressured
I cant help someone who thinks he doesn’t need any help
He thinks that everything will always just fall into place
I cane make you see that your wrong
You cant even dream of being wrong because of pride ego and tradition
You always need to be right!
I cant bring myself to apologize now
I feel small for trying to do the right thing
You wont even acknowledge me
I know I am not like you
I know we are both different
But sometimes I feel like I don’t even know you
I don’t know where we are going
I don’t know how this will end
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