I wish I could go get a massage
But when you don't have any money
You can't do anything

I hope for a job that is mildly fulfilling
Go to work and pay my taxes
Then go to the golf course
I really love golf

I think I will go hit ***** again today
I am a minimalist
Content to do the minimum
I do not care for material wealth
Unable to move out

Perhaps I will be living with my parents
For a long time
Oh well
Things aren't changing
Even if I try

At least there is golf

America is s debt ridden land
And the people live above their means

George Soros has sold nearly all of his bank stocks
Including shares of JPMorgan Chase, Citigroup

This Is Life
And I am 30

You may be older or younger

I can tell you human beings share many things
We seek a purpose
Most all of us want to live in peace
And love each other

Most all people love the earth
And respect the earth

We seek a way to make a living
Where we can benefit others in some way

We recognize that material possessions will not last

What does last?
What are the most important qualities the human should have?

I would say to love others
To forgive others

There is too much hate in the world
Let us live with love in our hearts

We are the human race
We live on earth
A planet that orbits the sun
In the milky way galaxy
Isn't that amazing?

But our human race is in trouble
Wars across the globe
Economies on the verge of collapse

Examine yourself
Who you are
And what you stand for

How would you like others to remember you?

The impact we have on others

The people we have inspired or assisted
In their life journey

Will be written into our memories

Yes
I'm in the chat rooms again
Looking for a friend

Looking for some support
Or love

Still it's not coming
Not happening

I have my Lord's Prayer
Psalm 23

This life it f with me bad
Somehow
Some way
Strange

A world of strange happenings

Come on Jesus
Come on!!!!!!!!!!!!
Crying*

I have my music

This **** is real
This **** is too real!

Looks Like
I need the money again

Lol

Broke Broke
Broke as a joke

18 trillion dollars in debt
America's future
Doesn't look bright

If you're not
Making money

Than well you're not
Being productive

I am going to read
And read

And watch documentaries

And I can't pay my bills
I'm a substitute teacher

And they barely
Pay us anything
At all

Who cares

I'm smart
I'm lonely
And I'm strong

I sat against the log
Listening to a podcast
About the first American colonists

I saw two sparrow hawks
Swoop between the trees

I listened to their calls
And recorded one with my iphone

I saw two lovers embrace
(It must be nice to be close to someone)

And a mother with a young babe on her *******

I saw a woman walking away from me
Smoking a cigarette
(Doesn't she know it's bad for your health?)

Life is a show I guess

Retirement Planning

hahah

Americans don't get
To retire
Anymore

At least people age 30 to 50

Maybe if you are older
And worked your whole life

This country is so *******
And a debt
That is unpayable

Corrupt banksters
A nation that aborts millions

America is going to be
Like a third world country

I'll be lucky just to get enough
To eat

Not to mention
Water scarcity

And the population in CA
Just keeps going up and up

And every family
Wants to have 3 kids!

The earth can't support
All these people

In the end you know
It will big just one big
**** storm

A free for all
They will be hauling
People off to FEMA camps
For mass killing

The globalists
Want a big population
Reduction in this nation

How badly do you want
To survive?

Forget about a decent job
Or a wife
Or some type of life

Just make it through
The next day
In this struggle to survive

World War III
A possibility

Our economy is done

Isn't it fun?

To be a 21st century American

No jobs, or any type of future too
The globalists ******* me and you

Other countries will not trust
American currency
Anymore

This country is a ****** *****

And this saddens me so
Because most of the people
I live around are
Good and decent folks

We just wanted to make
A living and be left alone

But no, blah

Asdas

Well there has been some improvement
With my akward shoulder

Although the left is still larger
Than the right

Doing some good exercises
I learned from PT

And although I won't ever be perfectly symmetrical
I guess I'll just have to continue
To deal with a slight body imbalance

And that's fine
There are people who are handicapped
And this is just a small thing

I ain't complainin'

Saw a documentary today about a South Korean
Star who migrated with her mother to China to escape
North Korea

And grossed the Gobi desert into Manchuria
With only a compass
Walking for 24 hours straight

Her poor mother was hit
With a hot metal pan

But thankfully she is okay now

Now her daughter makes
A satire
Poking fun at the North Koreans

And showing the realities of
The difficulty of life
In North Korea

So I have my akward shoulder
And you may not like something
About yourself

But at least we have water and shelter
Electricity and food

Let's hope our grid doesn't go down
In an EMP strike

Mean Women
Make fun of me

Please laugh at me
And make me cry

Yes I'm not attractive
And I don't care why

You don't want to touch me
You don't even care

And you slapped me
In my face

I think I like it
So there

You made me kiss your boot
You stuck a vibrating *******
In my ***

Made me pleasure
A powerful black stud
Isn't humiliation fun

A woman could never
Desire me

And why really cares
Wandering across the earth

I see Gollum sitting
Over there

I doubt my old therapist
Spends a minute
Thinking about me

Or what I am doing
With my life

She told me there was hope
I would meet a female friend

Turns out
I'm meeting no one

Always alone

Turns out
Nobody cares

Oh Easter
Is almost here

Hope springs eternal
Lol

Some people
Just get *******

So here's to life
And the pain it brings

Hi Liz
ex therapist

I really enjoyed
Your company

I don't want
To be a Christian
Sometimes anymore

Hope is stupid

A part time job
That pays enough
To pay the bills
Maybe a few dollars
Here or there
To save

At least I got the job I wanted

It's another Friday alone

My akward shoulder never leaves
Women ignore me
Oh well
Not like I have any money
To spend anyway

I'll just look at women on Tumblr
Listen to some podcast
Maybe read some

It's the isolated
And lonely life
Of the 30 year old male

Got My Wrigley Gum
Still in the wrapper

I picked it off
Of the gym floor

Fresh and juicy
Couldn't ask
For much more

Clippers win
I said with a grin

Fun to watch the game with others
At the gym

What a great series
The Spurs are a great team
That game could have gone either way

Have yourself a
Merry Little Christmas
Some modern version

Playing in the background
Quite obnoxious

Here I am at Starbucks
Things don't add up

I'm alone
I stopped at Ralph's
To get my protein bars

Before that I watched
An hour or so
Of fight videos
At the library

And well
This is life?

I can only occupy one place
At one time

And it's all so strange
Is it real?

Not sure how
To explain how
I feel

A different time
A different place
A different voice
A different face

But it's all the same
To me

This place is like a matrix

I want to love a woman
And it's so sad

I might be one
Of the kindest guys
Earth ever had

I hope to find
My female friend

A changing time
A changing place

A changing name
A changing face

It's so easy
Don't you know
To show the love
That Jesus showed

I saw the water
And how it flows

Be like water
And then you'll go
From here to there
Without a care

Demonstrating love everywhere

My therapist
Used to say
My poems were beautiful

Well
I believe she meant it

I didn't know who
I was really
Back then

Almost 17 months
Ago

I have a better idea now

I'd still like
A female friend

I'm embarrassed
About the things
I told her

Important things

And as she listened
And was supportive
It meant a great deal
To me

22 months
Of seeing her
Nearly
Once a week

Now she lives
In some big home
And has lots of money

She left her practice

She'll go on
Like these women do
To achieve
And achieve

That's great
And all

I wish
She could have stayed
Human life
Is so lonely

Did she ever realize
What a good heart I have?

Did she realize
What she was doing?

I told her she was
Like a good friend

And when the sun sets
When she relaxes
By herself

Does she ever think of me?

All I ever wanted
Was a friend like her

Once a week

I cried
Not because
I am weak

But because I am strong
I cried because
I cared about her

I'm a good guy
I'm just a man

I told her about
Embracing the feminine
And still being masculine

Seemed like she understood me
And cared too

And as the months
Turn into years
Does she think of me?

I remember still
The things she said
She was like an angel to me

I even said her voice
Was ethereal

Few are like me
A 31 year old ******

I know life will become
Difficult in America

Does she think of me

Remember me please
As I remember you

You had to leave
It's okay
I understand

I hope you say a prayer for me

That I would
One day meet my female friend

The past is gone

******* America
With no money
You can't do anything

A few friends scattered
Far away

******* America
No chance of making
Any female friends

******* America

The radiation from
The Fukishima incident
Contaminates the planet

It won't be long
Before a major
Catastrophic event

America is not
Exceptional

It is a morally depraved
Bankrupt busybody

A failure in Iraq
And Afghanistan

May ******* America

You can find me in my room
My refuge in a home
I have lived in for too long

Eating my bowl of hamhock soup with beans
Recording Churchill's speeches on my iphone
What a good man he was

We must stand up to evil
Stand up to those who threaten liberal democracies

But in America today
Our greatest enemy lies within, not without

Our own government not holding fast
To the principles upon which it was founded

False illusions that this economic situation
Is under control

Like bailouts,stimulus packages, jobs bills,
Regulation in industry, unconstitutional power grabs,
Dismissal of historical laws, changes in the legislative process
And changes in checks and balaces of power

We have a false sense of security
Big government is hurting us
Not helping us

TSA pat downs
NSA privacy intrusions

Destabilazation
Over arching centralized government model
Begins to take control

A New World Order
Is what they have planned
No more national sovereignty

I'm not going to the FEMA camp

A ***** Parade

Penises large
Penises small

Penises short
And tall

These penises
Go marching
Every fall

People wear them on hats

Some are quite fat

They swing them around

I'm at the pen** parade
Not available
To take your call

The ***** has
Been adored

Since
Before man's fall

There they go again
With their coffees
Or whatever they are drinking

Off to the job site
I like to people watch
At Starbucks

Any hour of the day really

You know there is usually
Some spilled beans
And maybe some *****
That has been poured out
Of my *** bottle

In the parking space
Where my car was just parked

I'm not really going anywhere
I'm not goal oriented

I like to watch
The ***** of women
Jiggle as they walk

Sometimes if I am sneaky enough
I can get a ******* picture
With my IPad

The birds keep hopping around

I have known such crass materialists
And how they slaved their life away
Make more, spend more
Now earn more to spend more
Everything costs
What a waste and a chore

Could have retired many years ago
But always had to spend more you know

Goodbye to my parents
Goodbye to that ******* house

I live out of my car
And at the old family property

I'm still waiting
For the new house
With my own guest house

Away from the bodies
Who have bothered me

Nadal won the French Open
Do you care?

I am the body sitting over there
Nobody talks to me
And life's not fair

Off to the gardens
To read a book

It's a beautiful world
Don't forget to look

I figured out
I always sleep on my right side

So my left shoulder is larger

Now I'm sleeping on my left side
And pressing my left shoulder
Into a foam roller

There has been some improvement
And I feel more symmetrical
The left shoulder is now more
Equidistant from the center
Of my body
And is closer to
Matching my right

Quiet please

You never worked
A day in your life

Go get a job
Yourself

The nature
Of substitute teaching
Means there are periods
With no jobs

During those periods
The homeowners
Will pay my bills

Great is my resistance
Toward these people

And I will do
As I please

I'm happy
Because I found
A footage site

Where I can see
Different times
And places
Different names and faces

It enables me
To travel across
This beautiful planet

From the comfort
Of my own home

Praise The Lord
Alluah Akbar

God is bigger
Or greater than
Anything I can imagine

And I just saw
An Eastern Orthodox
Congregation

Singing worship songs
In their own tongue

And I began to cry

How wonderful it is
Hehe

And yesterday
I saw Chinese men
Speak in their
Native tongue

Each flashed a grin
Oh what fun
And what a joy

I once drank
Milk with soy
Hehe

Thanks Wiki How!
For those nifty hip exercises

I realize now
That my left hip
Lacked the rotational strength

That my right has
But I am working on this problem
In a few weeks
Everything will be balanced

Hooray

Be careful what you put online today
The NSA keeps track of everything
They say

Prism program
Tapping into user data

I guess I should just enjoy the internet
While it is still free

One day I bet it will be down
Totally in this country for good
Or controlled more and more

I know some people grow tired
Of hearing about Jesus

And people want to live their own way

I won't sit here and tell you
That the only way to God the Father
Is through the Son

(Even though the Bible says this)

I'm not a theologian

Blessed is he, who has not yet seen
But still believes

And to anyone, Christian or not
I pat you on your back

If you show love
To your fellow human being
If you are considerate
And care for others

If you love your neighbor as yourself
If you forgive others

We all have our own beliefs
But I think all of humanity
Christians, buddhists, etc

Can agree that we should
Love one another

Well versed in the Buddha way,
I go the non-Way
Without abandoning my
Ordinary person's affairs.
The conditioned and
Name-and-form,
All are flowers in the sky.
Nameless and formless,
I leave birth-and-death.

I enjoyed watching her
Pleasure herself on her webcam

As she had a very powerful ******
I became more intrigued

This latin beauty

And as she began to pleasure herself
Some more

And experienced more pleasure

I became somewhat jealous

That I am a man
And not her

Must be nice to be a woman

It's just
The same thing
Over and over again

An ancestor simulation

Maybe a more advanced race
Designed this earth

As a program

I'm just an organism
That has experiences
That sees lights
That hears sounds

And it is all so bizarre

I am a brain
Floating in space

The program
Will always be here
I suppose

Tomorrow
I will get my headphones

I cut my finger
On a tuna can
I bled a little bit

I guess now I
Can be sure
Of my own existence
After all

One day
America's creditors
Will want their money back

America
A bankrupt nation

Trillions of dollars in debt

Why should I bother
Working forty hours a week

To earn a dollar that loses value
Each year

Quit saying "hi"

Every hour

When I walk in the room

Idiots

I have had to live with these
Obnoxious people
For 17 years

I am tired
Of not making enough

Can't speed up
This program

Stuck in this home

I hate this place

TPP is passed
Another victory for the globalists

Our national sovereignty threatened

Congress serving the interests
Of the large multinational corporations

The president, dictator like

I won't be
Spending Christmas here
No, I won't be here at all

Maybe driving around in my car

God sent Jesus
Because man
Had a great fall

Destined to repeat
The same sins
Again and again

We should ask for forgiveness
Of our sins

I can't find a good job
And I have no money
And at this point

I don't give a ****
I most likely won't find a good female friend

I'll return to the mountain
Sit on the rock

Sit here all day
Like a monk

Gone Gone, far away
From the concerns of the world

Gone, Gone,
No pain or fear

It would have been fun to be a teacher
But I decided just to forget about it

I am a smart man
But in our economy
It doesn't matter

And so I don't really care anymore
I'll study my history and philosophy

And It would have been fun I guess to meet a woman
A woman that cares

But beauty always leaves my life

Amy she is a sweet woman
A teacher and about my age
We share many of the same interests
She even enjoys watching golf

She enjoys Antique road show, and British comedies
She loves hiking and fitness
She has done alot of travelling

I would have enjoyed it
If she lived nearby
I would like to be friends with her
Good friends who share life and share hugs
I dreamed of meeting a woman like her
To have as a close friend

But only a glimpse is given
Only two days are given to me
A glimpse of someone kind
Of someone loving

She hugged me and said goodbye
When I left
That was kind of her

I always wanted to have a friend like her

But better not to hope
Better not to hope at all
That I can have a friend like her

And so I return to the mountain
Gone, gone, gone
Away, Away, Away

Alone Alone Alone
Like always

It would be nice
To have a friend like you Liz
Someone so kind and caring

Amy is like you in that way

I won't be meeting any women like Amy
Anytime soon

And so I return to the mountain
My home
I dwell in this mountain
I dwell in the high places

I walk the mountains

And when I hiked up telescope peak
With my hiking poles
I strode up the mountain

At 10,000 feet
I reached out my hand
To touch the sky

God is great
I said to myself
God is great

Hiking is beautiful
And I can enjoy it

Jesus is my friend
When I barely have any friends

And the world rejects me
And I do not care anymore

And my loving female friend
She is not coming, she is not coming

The hugs are not coming
The love is not coming
Not coming

I only have some small hope left
Why haven't I learned yet?
Why should I hope at all

About finding my female friend

I would like her to be like Amy
Loving and kind
Spiritual
Amy is that way

May Jesus watch over you Amy
You are an amazing person
A ten year teacher
You are a strong woman like your mother
A lifelong teacher
Whom you said is retiring soon

I wish I lived near you Amy
We could be such good friends
And I know you saw what a loving
And caring man I am
And we discussed our intellectual interests
And it was very enjoyable

And I probably won't ever see you much
Beautiful people they never stay
They never stay

I got a paycheck
Hooray

Now I can buy a few
Little things today

Perhaps a protein bar
And a green tree
For my car

Lol

I just watched Edge of Tomorrow
Fun Movie

I'ts the human race
That threatens to destroy each other
And our planet

We don't need aliens for that
The human race is primitive enough

I suppose I'll go to the gym now
Go do sit-ups or something
Go on the bike

More lonely hours
Geeze

Must practice Wu-Wei
Non striving
It's all an automatic process
The earth keeps spinning round and round the sun
Regardless of How I feel

This nation is in deep ****
Up **** creek without a paddle
This global economy is in deep ****
Seriously
Something big is coming
Something hard and terrible

I will do my sacred duty

How dare they!
Reject me

Unemployed
I try again and again
I am a smart man

I love history and philosophy
I have a B.A. and a teaching credential
I was almost accepted into a Masters of social work program too
I made it to the waiting list

I can't even pay my bills
And I'm almost 30!

I will stand
I do not tire
I will not rest

I must not fail
In performing my sacred duty

I will not fail
In performing the duties
That were assigned to me
By the Creator

I forgot it's Sunday
Neighbors stopping by

They are good people
And I'd like to say hi

But I had a hike planned for today
I'll wait for them to leave the property

Then I'll be on my way

Human life
What's it all about

Eating, sleeping

Relaxing in the park

Maybe going on a hike today

I had Kodiak cakes yesterday
Had them today

I guess it would be nice
To go on a hike
With a woman

I'll go to the gym
Work out alone

After a certain time
I learned to just breathe
And relax

All of life
Is just one big vacation

Forget TGIF

Friday is the same
As Monday

It's all one
Big experiment

We are told
To crave
To one
To desire
And to strive

But there is absolutely
Nothing here

Listening to a podcast
Going to my job
Working out

It's really all
The same
Same empty program

And who would want
To live forever

Everything is falling
Falling away

Everything is decaying
Oh well

My body goes here
And then it goes there

I am a minimalist
It once occurred to me

That the world's
Most powerful nations
Will destroy the world
By beginning World War III

I heard someone say
Life is funny
It's just man
Repeating
The same mistakes
Over and over again

The human race
Won't change
Leaders will lead nations
Into war

The innocent population
Will suffer

Nothing new
I hope there is no
World War III

Return to the mountain
Return to the yoga mat
And raisins

I can't pay my bills
And I don't really care
I've always been poor

I create my own world
And my own life
My podcasts

I dont have a job or money
And that is just fine
They did not hire me

That rude administrator said," We have all been in your shoes before"
You have never been in my shoes

I'm just going to sit on my yoga mat

I'm going to cause a problem here
I do not exist as a part of this society
I live in my own world
A world I created for myself

I could spend a thousand years
Sitting on my yoga mat
Underneath the oak tree
I am a Tagatha now

I sit and meditate
I drink my water
That has the electrolyte mix

Yes there are bills
Car insurance, student loan
Health insurance, credit card,
About 600 dollars a month

I'm tired of these people that live here
If they kick me out
I will go live in a park
I do not care

Stay away from me
People who live here
People who spend too much time
In front of the television
People who take anxiety pills
Stay away from me

Need to get ready
For the coming war

Can't get the things I need
Because I'm poor

I'd ask mom for money
And she'd ask what for?

I'd tell her
It's because
Of human beings mom

They've done it before

Need a shovel
To dig real deep

Hide inside
Won't hear a peep

Look at the scream
And look at them run

DARPA drones are deadly
And not much fun

I know America has done
Many wicked things
In the past

But my Syrian neighbors
Are good people
Have to make the canned food last

We'll have to
Pull together
You and me

These good and decent people
Lovers of Liberty

The global masters
Aren't like
You and me

No shred of human decency
They'll tell you to March
To the beat of their drums

And that 1+1=3

Some type of spiritual battle
On this earth

Many people agree with me
For what it's worth

No food at the supermarket
No food in town
Don't look now
Everything is shut down

They will ration gas too

You never thought
You would see it
In the land
Of the red white and blue

Baltic Dry Index
As low as it's ever been
Seems like the global economy
Is on a downward spin

Chinese ships empty
Going broke
Not enough cargo to ship
It's no joke

Dow Jones is way down too

Without water
We are *******

The rich have other locations
Secret hideaways

My family just has our faith
In what may be
The end of days

We're a kind and decent people
Don't you know

Welcome to earth
Welcome to the show

It matters what you do here
I sure hope
I can persevere

He said he would be with us
Until end of days
King of Kings
Be not afraid

Hidden deeds in darkness
Will be brought to the light

Sometimes life's so hard!
But you'll be alright

Everything is A-Okay
We all have our part to play

They plan a global government
Apartments stacked high
Citizens monitored every minute
Don't ask why

There is He
Faithful and True
On a white horse
Riding through the sky

This poem is for
Every lonely guy
Who works out
Who is kind and caring

And who is ignored
By women

Who interacts
With beautiful
Married women

Who sees women
With boyfriends

And who
Does not
Have a female friend

And who dreams
Of the soft touch
And warm *******
Of a woman

She still announces
That she is
Going to the market

Did it ever occur
To you
That I don't care

What you are doing
Or where you are going?

No
I don't think it has

Because you're
So **** stupid

The Muslims attacked Israel
And nukes were headed to our shore
I'll say to myself this was the day the world ended

This life was kind of a bore
I tried to do what was right
At least I could say that to myself
As day turned into night

I think the male ****** is boring
And stupid
Don't ask me why

At some point I didn't care
If I didn't make a female friend
I didn't even try

I went to see
The monkey at the zoo
To have a looky-loo

Just a monkey eatin'
And a swinging from the trees
No hopes, dreams, or desires
Just livin' so carefree

And as the nukes dropped
I discovered a spontaneous side of Me
I waved at the monkey

Swingin' from the tree

Long Range Desert Group
Small patrols cover thousands of miles
Gathering intelligence on enemy movements

"Ghost Patrols"
Drive the truck and camouflage it
Watch the road

*** and lime to ward off the scurvy
***, water, powdered lime
Let the air blow over it
And you have a cool *** and lime drink

Sun compass
LRDG brought back
A steady flow of important information

It is as though you have an eye
That sees all forms
But does not see itself.
This is how your mind is.
Its light penetrates everywhere
And engulfs everything,
So why does it not know itself?

I saw a beautiful goddess
She was wearing short shorts

But she won't talk to me
Oh well
At least I have this documentary
On the Vietnam War to watch
Life is not so bad after all