She's the cream of the crop
It was infatuation.
That friend I had to chop.
Text conversations
I needed to tell her.
I was losing patience.
I wrote her a letter.
Intended flirtation.
Lead me to frustration.
But she was motivation.
Kept reminding myself.
I had dedication.
I promised that I would
be right beside her
heartbroken found out
She was  just another *nightrider

And as I sit alone
Silence abounds
My mind begins to take off
Racing into different directions
A firework bursting forth
I hear voices of past and future
Ripping into my soul
Taking the calm tranquility
That lied so within my breast
Creating chaos
A storm of storms
Threatening to tear down
the walls I have built
Flashes of red and green
Passion and jealousy
Blind me into submission
I strain for the voice that's whispered
the calm within this pandemonium
the one who's screams
Are hushed by the violence
The words that soothe the fire
The past is past
No more can be done
The future is not yet writ
Your path yet traveled
Cling to today
To the moments of now
The assault over
I lay my head
Smile and drift into the *now

You keep me warm,
with you, things are good
I never feel cold with you,
even when I should

You hold me closely
with you, I feel safe
I want to stay with you, *always.

They say it's a choice:
A choice to love.
A choice to let go.
There is no fate or destiny impacting love,
It is solely
Choice.
I made a choice:
To love.
Love you with everything I had.
Through the roughest times in your life,
And through mine.
To love you when I had nothing but hatred for the world around us.
To love you when all I wanted to do was walk away.
To love you when you couldn't love yourself.
I made this choice, and I made it for months.
But there came a month where I chose to let go.
I chose to allow someone else the opportunity to love you.
More than I did and
Better.
I did not choose to stop loving you, that is something one can not do; yet I chose to set you free
From the burden you carried because of me.
I chose to love you from afar,
And that may be the worst choice of all.