My Joy, My Pride
Love, Safety, and Happiness,
My love for her is immense and full
Her hate, Her loathing
Anger, Manipulation, and betrayal
Once we loved, Now she uses,
Uses Like a child with a toy,
I happily take this torment,
Pain, Regret, Frustration, and the cold chill of her words,
The more I cry, I kick, I scream into the void for her love to once again envelope me into its warm embrace,
The Cold, Frozen, Ice of her words
They trickle and slide down my arms and down my wrists,
with the blood, the only warmth I get,
the warm blood after each cut of her words,
It falls to the floor,
Just as I do,
For her I'd give my soul, my heart, my entire world is hers,
My sweet lover, you have broken my pride, my will, my mind.
You have squandered my gifts,
But love you I do, Miss you I do, Forgive you,
Forgive you I do, despite the pain,
Despite it all,
The pain and the hate, the tears and the blood I've shed,
My Love is as true as Your Hate
I scream!
I Cry!
My tears and my blood, fall like the ice of your belittlement,
I hate you, I love you, I miss you, I need you,
I scream it all into the darkness!
My Love, My Pride, My Joy,
Its all for you and only you,
You are my world,
My cold, empty, broken world,
Your frozen Stare holds my blade,
my blood shale please you
Our once unbreakable love,
Our bond,
Our happiness,
Our future,
Do you forgive yourself?
The pain you cause?
My heart is forever yours,
My Love never fading,
My blood forever dripping, dripping, dripping,
Dripping to the floor,
Just as before,
The chair,
It falls to the floor,
I scream your name,
as I take my final breath.
My Love shall never die,
as the blood falls to the floor,
it paints the chair,
My dear lover,
                                                                                 I Am No Longer Yours

Cold

I have never been so alone, Mother Nature no longer care to send even the tiniest animal my way to help cheer me up and all Father Time does is cry for me.
We fear even tho I am an adolescent that I grow cold with age, less willing to care.
I want more,
For than hate, more than doubt, more than suffering,
I want a meaning, a reason to live,
Because with meaning comes joy, joy removes hate for room for herself, like two heart swap love, joy and hate will swap seats in my head.
Once joy gets comfortable she will invite love, as joy sets my mind free from its rage and clears the confusion, love will thaw my heart, my heart frozen from time and neglect.
But hate is here to stay, he will never leave.
Hate is king and with fear as his right hand man and an army of doubts they rule my mind.
I’ve come to realize my mind is gone, my soul dark as night, and my heart cold as stone on a winter's day.
I’ll never be normal, never be loved, never be free.
Free from the nagging dagger in my back, it wedges itself in my spine and laughs laughs knowing i can't reach it to pull it out, It know joy and love shall never enter my heart or mind even if I wanted them to they can't save me.
I say it's a good thing, after all joy bring love, love bring pain. Pain of lose when they leave, when I can't help it but drive them away by shielding my heart I put up a wall, it keeps them all out and me safe.
I may be alone but I am alone and free, free to wallow in self pitty, free to feel as cold as I want without hurting others.
So alone I stay, cold and unfeeling.
Soon Father Time shall stop caring and Death shall beckon me into the darkness, closer and closer to the abyss of hate.
When that day comes when the gods themselves can't thaw my heart and my mind is so opposed to love than nothing can get me to care.
I will walk, I will walk with patience throw that open door, I have no fears. I will follow the darkness because no one else wants me.

No your not
Everything will be okay
These are lies, ones I say often
For starters
I'm a liar
I don't lie for me, or for fun
I lie to keep equilibrium
My lies are the dark and the good they do for you is the light
I keep the balance...
I do what i can to keep you alive and well
Ina world as dark and hellish as this
The light in my lies are a matter of life and death for some
for others they are an abomination
those who see it as wrong aren't like me, or you when your alone
My lies are for your own good
If I was to stop
the balance would fall
and you would die...
But hear me when I say this is no lie
I may be a liar
But you are worth the darkness I hold
to save you I'd take hell its self and so I do
I tell you your worth, worth more then you know
I'm a liar for starters
secondly you are why I am so
thirdly
Stay safe my friends
know that some times,
My white lie is for you and I don't mean to hurt you
So stay blissfully ignorant...
Keep that light....
I'm a liar
and a savoir for most...

Me?

I am br.OK.en
Stay in one piece for me?
<3

Boats in the Sky
Clouds in the lake
I see cookies everywhere but I prefer cake
In a rain of chocolate and gummy bears I smile with Joy
Oh boy I exclaimed I've come to claim this magical land for me and me alone.
I see other sad children and tell them to follow me into happiness as they come over from the gray and dark sad land they get a smile on there faces, the places they've been where sad no doubt but now there are out and about in a land of glee.
I soon wake from my dream to the news on channel 3 and me of course can only see the looks on the small baby whose mother has died and he is starving.

I wish to go back to the dream but I can't not now, I have to do what I can to forget and go run back to my dream where everyone is happy and no one hurts. But that's just it, it's a dream, I know that even if fall back to sleep It will be over to soon and I’ll be back here.
Back in the cruel world with nothing more than a hope that someday things will get better.