What is pleasure
more than waiting forever
Knowing of a love
that can be Never

intensified yet, never realized
an eternity among days
a sun among stars
in the love of our space
burning with a brightness
that blinds the fright
and illuminates the wicked paths
within our sanguine nights

032004~6.08p

Stealing songs
from right and wrong
enduring hunger
so I can be strong
enough to heal
enough to feel
my way around
this cavernous sound
an unhealthy pulse
driving me on
I'm so scared
can't see beyond
today's setting sun
It's over, isn't it?
I can't fix it
without breaking myself
Creating a hell
becoming a shell
Do I love enough of me
to give up the beauty
with whom I want to be?
041204~5.3p

Life is hard and work is long
So many things to come between us
Misunderstandings and different ways to live
Disagreements on when to take and when to give,
When to fight and when to yield
Sometimes we're a sword when the other needs a shield
But learning and forgiving is how we make it through
Even when the romance seems to have fallen, too
You will always be my lover, always keeping me alive
I will always be here for you,
Hungry for the times
When things are peaceful
And you're in my arms.

101513 ~ 9.53a

Into a new world I came
brimming with energy
clear of my shame
yet, it rises again
as the sickness sets in
the bile of reason
still clinging to my throat
I spit out my choices
that burn as I choke
I'm no more a man
than the million I hate
My old condemning voice
laughing in my face
The rotten stench
of judgemental purity
haunting my senses
with hell's fiery fury
And stand, I must
and full-on face
the horror of selfish choices
that pull me into my grave
But why stop there?
On my back with heaven open
the stars cry deep
to fill my tomb
but it would not be justice
to die in the womb
Mother embraces, as she births,
nurtures, and finally claims
every life is equal
every death the same
It is those who destroy
that do not belong
there are too many tears
and too few songs
My circular path of destruction
has isolated me alone
beneath the charred remains
the seed of life lay unsown.
081103~7p

The flowering trees
snowing
in the morning breeze

The moon illuminates
knowing
you are in love with me

My brisk morning walk
breathing
feeling you inside

Before the sun wakes
needing
your touch in my life.

030310~6.29a

Days and nights are blending
into sunsets and dawns
life's not about life anymore
(at least not to us pawns)
Is there an understanding
we've forgotten to seek?
A connection within ourselves
waking from our sleep

We've programmed our defenses
to react -- to attack
to believe blindly in a cause
we sacrifice to defend
Where is our compassion
for the leniency of truth?
When knowledge never ends...
can a belief be complete?
And, can perfection exist
without the search for clarity?
041101~12.02a

Her softness
  under the slight touch offered
  creates such serenity
  within me
The jewels within her eyes
  gleam so bright
so sure of her beauty
and the rareness of her love
Her assuring smiles
and playful gazes
move my hands over her
most intimate places
My soul devours her
sudden sweet gasps
my lips hunger
for the breath she takes
my spirit is restless
for the love she makes
9/4/2000

You create such beautiful dreams
you tear me open and kiss the seams
My heart exposed for all to see
It's a beautiful vulnerability
because my goddess is with me
Nothing compares to how I feel
since our love became tangibly real
All of my dreams and hopes and desires
became an effigy when you lit me on fire
Burning for you and all that you are
I feel like a phoenix, seen from afar
Reliving life in honor of you
Surviving a wildfire, life begins anew
Glowing with life and desire to live
You sustain my life with the love you give.

070513 ~ 10.10a

I was alone last night
but, within dreams I found you.
You comforted and kept me
all to yourself and never left me.
Held tight to the *****
of the goddess I adore;
My lifelong lover
could never love me more.
I am saturated in desire
for what she gives,
how she smells and who she is.
My goddess, my temptress,
my exquisite lover, divine;
You are the world to me
and you are Mine.
052515~6.34a

poetessa diabolica*
Your muse is on fire!*
---
"Oh, how she inspires!
Burning through my pages
as a wildfire rages;
forever quenched, yet never tires."

062315~9.17a

My mind sways this morning
like the tops of tall trees
My fingers across your skin
as the breeze caresses through the leaves
Each one touching and bending
to connect with another
A sweet good-morning
to awaken my lover

061615~6.57a

You've captured me completely
with your skin and eyes
the way you feel sets me afire
and how you see me
burns your love into my presence
with an ever-hot brand
bearing our names and promises of forever.
You excite me and sooth me
The very idea of us
moves me
You are the One, dear Lesa,
who will always be my goddess
Who will walk in my heavens
and sleep within the depths
of my endless adoration.
051710~7.43a

My chest pounds louder
each moment we're apart
A day seems a deafening eternity
without your mouth on my heart
I miss you, my goddess,
come speak with your love
Come crashing down around me
as oceans from above.

042610~6.51a

I have been feeling a faint gradient creeping
darker into my life the past few weeks.
Maybe, in the depths of our unbreakable,
unknown sub-earthly ties,
you are infecting me again
with your violently sweet muses.

I revel
in light-buzzed day-fantasies
of when I would lay naked,
pouring out my soul in mixes
of alcohol & your breath's lull.

No one has ever spoken to me
without speaking
or touch me so deeply
with only breathing.

Your presence is eternal within
me, no matter how quiet the storm becomes.

The eye of your fury
brings only silence and calm.
Bursting forth within a Lycian resonance,
memories flood my soul;
your skin stains my eyes
and my hands dance forth
with another remembrance of who we were
and who we will always be.

Even time does not separate what blood has joined.
You will always flow through me
deeper than life, and more truthful than I can see.

072706~5p

Opening my eyes to reality
and finding you're not around me
I crush my eyes closed
and wait for my heart to slow
I'll find you when sleeping soundly.

050310~6.35a

I died last night
and I saw you there
My eyes were focused on
your long, dark hair
   I died last night
   It wasn't a dream
   It's so much hotter
   than it may seem
I died last night
It was just you and I
Naked and aflame
under a starless sky
   I died last night
   and your eyes led me there
   Close to your love
   Closer to where...
I died last night
under the still, full moon
I was inside you
Midnight til Noon
   I died last night
   and I saw your face
   You were always waiting
   ...just at a different place
I died last night
and I felt your skin
wrapped so tightly
around me again
   I died last night
   and I breathed your breath
   You took my pain until
   only love was left
I died last night
and for you, I was saved
My goddess now holds
the rest of my days.

040510~1.23p

Finding time to feel the rhyme
beyond the mind...
                      Within.
               Inside.
Feeling my breath
   within my words
hearing my thoughts...
   reverb

What I hear is you.
Your beauty, your touch,
your eyes, your face
your voice, the space
your spirit takes
   within my heart,
your hair on my cheeks
your lips on my lips
we fit.

030605~11.44p

Daily dreams
slipping through
the seams with you
into my life
as beams of light
from the rising sun
illuminate
the things with you
only the darkness knew
and waking sweat,
playfully fading,
swiftly to forget

My full days seeming empty
with unknown longing for the night
my sleepless sheets spread
as I lie waiting for the light
Too tired to sleep
lying staring at the ceiling
dreams steal me under
another restless night alive
Sirens sound mourning
as my daily death dawns
waking within emptiness
I find it all gone.

022504

Oh, how soft could I love?
Spring trees in their
   glowing green
could not sing the scene
of the passion I'd share.
Lips have not moved
in such supple
    sweet speech
to touch upon the blushes
hidden beneath those fair cheeks.

I'm finding rhyme within
rhythm's soothing sigh
and longing to belong to
the skies within your eyes.
013105~6.05p

My lips parch without your kiss
My lungs drown without your breath
My hearing quiets to whispers, and
My eyes can see   only what's left:
My unending, uncompromising need for you.

032910~7.24a

My mind finds you
before my eyes find the morning
My lips still plead for your skin
with leftover good-night kisses.
Hands reach out
to cover the sheets, to feel you near....
A morning unconscious
ritual of need
searching for the goddess
who belongs with me.

030210~6.37a

Cold is setting in to the city
as this feeling seeps in
   so deep.
Mists of misery engulf me
and grey once again covers the skies
filtering the color and joy from my eyes.

I've grown so tired
so alone
so mired in my misery.
I get ******
I breathe a little softer
I think a little less
about how I feel.

I conjure images of mountains
and me on top
a teetering soul dying to lean
just enough to the side
then I'll slip & drop.

The sweet end to this
would be so welcome.
I'm tired of hurting;
tired of this ******* pain.
I'm sick of wishing it were over

101309~5.9p

Always wanting
your sweet caress
Like a little kid
stealing under your dress
Fascinated and hungry, still
There'll never be a time
when I've had my fill
You're all I want
and I always want you
Every way I can imagine
Is everything I want to do

081213 ~ 10.18a

Ah, how silence grasps
the darkness at last
all voices hushed
inside we rush
safe in havens
under watchful light
betraying ourselves
as we die of fright
091403~7.3p

My heart eternally raptured
by the suns setting in your eyes
the darkness that is our love
enveloping our painful lives
A midnight dance
serenaded by crickets
the soft glow of the filtered moon
lighting the ceiling of our
****** ballroom
Like the beast to his beauty
I spin you around in broken cadence
My arm around your waist will never release
lost within our poetic conveyance

031914~11.08a

I find that,
           sometimes,
a rhyme helps
           soothe me.
An internal,
       verbal assurance
that there's still
        something beautiful
inside me.

033009~5.1p

My love for you
grows deeper and faster
As a stream narrows
through winding pasture.
Seemingly calm
so slow and serene
Yet, torrents rage
just underneath....

021210 ~ 7.05a

This morning when I woke
I didn't wanna let you go
my hands cried for your skin
My eyes soaked up your view
Gentle caress
An undisturbed slumber
settling back in to sleep with you

070113 ~ 5.4p

Patiently waiting
for you in my arms
Distance is fading
with morning alarms
Hands wrapped tightly
pulling you closer in
I've longed for you nightly
Feeling such hunger as I did back then
You'll always be my goddess
Always the one I adore
To me, you're **** and the hottest
I'm counting the hours til you walk through our door

122713 ~ 7.15a

Never again
without your breath
to infuse your love
into everything left
I gave so much
that belonged to you
Anything I could do
to just get through
I was starving
without your touch
Hardened
by hurting too much
Too young to to know
what I really had
in a Goddess that gave
to everything we made

Finally, you're mine
and you'll always be
until the end of time
I'll keep you with me

Even when my breath fades,
my love will evolve to another shade
Drifting & searching
through sunsets and dawns
to lie within your eternal arms

022514 ~ 11a

Here lies
a romanticized dream
Cut down and faded
So far from what I created
A special place just for love
Now tainted with verbalized shoves
All the time spent
building us up
Just look at us now
More arguments than ****
So much negativity
Cutting me down
Watching as the prayers
Sink away and drown
It's a shame that simply
by being ourselves
Creates feelings so awful
We live in a hell
Can't be too honest
Can't reveal it all
Keep **** to ourselves
Count bruises when we fall
Waiting for the day
We throw it all up and say,
"We gave it our best.
Finally it's time
for our eternal rest."
We stop fighting and screaming
In peace we find meaning
That a week can go by
without heartache and fights.

092313 ~ 10.35a

Longing for you
in the late mornings
Trapped in formality
behind Formica and a paycheck

I just want you
within my arms
when I want you

I don't wanna wait
when the desire comes
to kiss your face
and hold you tight
to spend the day
pretending it's night

No other arms
will ever feel right

031214 ~ 7.05a

I want to be the one who's strong
the one to hold the sun
to keep the days so long
I want to be your Summer warmth
to take the Winter chill away
I want to be the light
to give form and beauty to your day
I want to be your Spring
even though you love the Fall
because we're so deep in Winter
cold and darkness covers all
022615 ~ 10a

I wake
To an ache
Deep within
My sinful soul
And it's you,
Only you, who
Can fill this
Empty hole.

I need you.

120309~8.44a

My mind truly never leaves you
you give me such peace
the only wish I still pray for
is your desire for me to never cease

022410~7.08a

In reply:
As I open my eyes to the gentle light
My thoughts remain in their rightful place
The touch from your hands
The look on your face
My body yielding to the remains
of our last embrace
My heart held safe in the knowledge
that my love is where it should be
And knowing that you love me.
-Lesa Renee 022410~7.5a

Poet inside:
  help me verse
  my deepest hurts
  and carry the lies
  upon the wind of my stormy skies.

Closing my eyes
to see a dawn inside
the technicolor rain
and floating shapes
are all I see.
I try to look harder
--deeper within--
I try to search for something
that can't be seen
Lost for moments
until I open my eyes
the tears stay hidden
instead,
I sigh....
122304~5.4p