What would you do if I told you,
That thing you’ve been dreaming of,
That beautiful feeling of longing,
Is right around the corner?

I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
I’m sure I don’t but I’m curious what the thought of me feels like.
Your sceptical mind would rip me apart,
If I told you how much you mean to my heart.

All these feelings mean nothing because you’ll never understand,
What it would mean for me to hold your hand.

To gaze into your eyes and say,
Please don’t leave, don’t go away.
I’ll say those three magic words knowing you deserve so much more,
your heart is locked but you’ve shown me the door.

I knew what I wanted was too good to be true.

I didn’t care.

And it tore me apart.

I put your essence in my own words,

Did you see?

Did you even notice?

How intimately I spoke of you.

I showed you what I couldn’t even show myself.

And for what?

You asked me for the moon and I smiled sadly,
Because how can I give you something like the moon?
Something so small.
So insignificant.
When you’re my whole universe.

I hate that in all my dreams and fantasies I’m someone else,
I hate that I believe for me to be happy I need to be someone else,
I hate that i feel like I can only have you if I’m someone else.

I was never afraid of being alone,
Then I met you.