Rest,
hush,
go find you.
Loneliness is nothing to feel
ashamed of.
You are the first
who must give yourself
love.
Confidence is key,
friendliness is
unlocked.
You'll find yourself leaving a conversation feeling
so proud.
You were one who talked!
It may look easy to them,
but we're all different.
Being alone may feel awkward,
but I think it's confident.
Give yourself time,
and later you'll find,
your difference,
is a gift to the world.
Your circle will come around
and your social life will be founded
and twirled.

So now I must write.
I know I will win the fight.
Punching out emotion
blocking out bad thoughts.
Tell my paranoia to step off.
I am continuing to strive the things I love.
Comedy and poetry is my passion.
Nothing can cause me to start crashing.
I stand up,
never look down.
At anyone who cares
I am not a clown.
So I remove my big red boxing gloves from my tired hands.
I take a breath and lay down in my twin bed at night.
So tired from working all these things out,
I know I am winning this fight.
It can happen, I will make it.
The victory belt will reside in my room
and there be in my sight.
Everything will be
just fine.
It's gonna be alright.
Just gotta win the fight.
1
2
3
Ding!
Here I go
take over the ring.
Nobody against me
is ever going to own me!
Punch!
Bam!
Pow!
The referee hold up my arm.
I won!
So it's all on me now.
I can do this
be a leader.
Influence every fan of mine
whether a fan or
reader.
I'm not just a fighter,
I'm a believer.

So the response to my confessions
are how losers spoke to me
ten years ago?
I admit a mistake
and the head cases
look up but talk down.
Suppose it is not worth it anymore
to say what we need?
Don't bother making me look bad.
It is my job to be naive.
So Im done with them all now and forever.
And this conversation
is over.

Don't ever know the tide,
just by looking.
Do I dare go aboard?
Can I keep this friendship sailing?
By the comfort of my ocean,
near the dock at my home.
The ocean remains,
so theres always new sailors to
bond with.
So I'll get to know you
since when I'm alone on my sunfish
I see you on your opti.
Before you get on my ship
I'll bond with you
like we sailors do
and together we sail away
as friends.

When the depression  goes,
and I am not about to **** my dignity,
I don't care anymore,
and I feel like a Child.
When the people in my life,
surround me and trust,
I feel no pain,
and like a Child.
When I'm being forced,
and scolded with aggressiveness.
I back out,
and cry,
like a child.

At least a child learns.
At least a child is smart.
A child can forgive.
A child can pray.
A child will say.
A child will do.

When a person tells me
that I need to grow up,
I look at them back,
and I say,
"everyone has growing up to do."
To criticize our maturity.
To label us with shame.
We are all hypocrites.

As we see in others.
And observe,
like a child would.

It may be in the past,
Doesn't mean I'm not scared.
Could now be behind me,
Though anything could
Be put in front of me.

I try to let go.
I cannot forget.
My heart is pounding out of
My chest.
My body trembles and shakes
Like a loud maraca.

Will they come find me?
Do they remember what I do?
Will it get worse?

I know it's over,
But what are my consequences?
Lobotomy?
Death?

Stop it.
I'm fine.
Like everyone else,
I'm over it.
And now and forever,
It is in,
The past.

At least there's a sky,
Looking down at the managed
And mixed world.
Turning away
The blue and light felt clouds.
For to put on darkness,
Must we remember,
As we look,
To find our glittering stars.
One will fall,
So make a wish.
And
      Don't
              You
                    Ever
­                           Tell.
The secrets we keep,
For what we hope is never asked.
Hearing,
"How are you,"
Do we DARE
Speak the truth?
Does a child know
Why a parent had to go
Away?
Will the one with depression
Just admit they are
And not sugarcoat?
For a troubled soul
In life with a sweet girl
Drives the girl insane
And
       There
                She
                      Goes.
Not even a chance to make a wish,
She gets what she wants.
Her time,
Her space.
And nobody,
Can wish,
For her to feel comfort
And go back,
Again.