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Call me Oliver Nov 2018
As I woke
I walked over to the pool
The lights rays bursting into my eyes
I don’t mind it

I grab a chair and take in the silence
Surveilling every detail
To the birds
The clouds
The movements of the water
Even me siting there all alone

As I come back to reality
I see that I wrote you a letter
“I’ve felt you leave me. Your presence.”
“So to my dearest Angle, I will start to move on.”

One day I’ll wisper this to a hole in the ground
And bury it
Planting a sunflower seed with it
I’ll watch it nourish and blossom
Both in the earth
And in me
“Love, me” not “Love me”, there’s a big difference.
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
You show me off
as if i'm the plant on your hanging bracket
am I a accessory or a necessity
make up your mind
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
The fire is calming
It’s beauty
auora
pain
Without it
What would we be
Nothing more than
someone else  
And that’s the worst thing
To happen to us
We let it happen
Now look
There’s nothing else to say
We said it all
We’re nothing else but that

You really are just alike
You Angle, are the same to the other Angle
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
They always say to keep your head held high
But never over the clouds
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
As I’m hinged over the sink
I cry, and whisper
“Move on”



I don’t know how long it’ll take
Call me Oliver Feb 2019
I’ve never felt so lonely
I’ve never felt more alive
I take lonely ness and sadness in different ways. I create  from it
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
I swear to god
That I must be the worst person I’ve found
Tell me would it be too late
To appreciate myself
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
I love listening to “hard to find songs”
I like to think that I’m the only one listening to them
Right now
In this very moment
I want to believe it’s not true
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
As I’m standing outside my open sliding door
During the rain
Listening to the sounds
Not caring who hears
I scream,
“*******! But don’t forget I loved you”
im not going to wait for you no more
I know my self worth and you making me feel small and plastic like I won’t let happen. You pretend that nothing never happened and that’s okay, it’s your problem now. I love and adore myself I see the beauty in me that no one else sees. It’s almost my birthday and I’m gonna enjoy it.
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
I guess I have nothing else to say about Angle

He never loved me then
And he never loved me now

I hope I can recover way more quickly
This time
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
I sometimes think of your hair
The way you made me feel
Dou, you were and still are the best
You were more than a friend to me
I see you in him,
Sometimes I feel awful about it
I hope you get this somehow
I know your far and all
But I still think we do the same things as before
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
Note to self:

Work on communication
Call me Oliver Apr 2019
To every girl you meet eyes with
I felt you’d love her for that  brief moment
But whenever it came to me
It was just a stare to you
Noting but a stare
And I question it every time
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
It’s my decision to be happy at the end of the day
Not yours
Ode
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
Ode
Ode to the sad mans face I saw on the lonely mountain
Omg
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
***
Say something
I told him
I’m waiting for a response
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
Me and a close friend of mine came to school early
And walked on the bleachers
Watching the morning sun burn through the thick wall of clouds
As we watch it
We both take turns screaming out our pleads and prayers
Hoping for something to change and happen
Call me Oliver Feb 2019
Only on these days can I feel sane
In a sense of a complete labyrinth
I’m surrounded by many things, people, and thoughts
I somehow forget about all of the people I’ve meet and felt for, and end up finding myself gathered at the grass viewing the sky
Saying to myself “One day, I’ll see it”
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
I wish you could see
That for even you, the person that made me feel so much pain
I’d give it all away
Just to see a truly meaningful smile



(I rather see a smile because I know I’ll never get that one kiss from you)
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
You weaved yourself into my lovely embroidery
I wish you didn’t mess it up
But it’s lovelier
Minimalistic and abstracted (a tree tapestry)

You taught me
That I can’t do this alone
But I’m not sure about that
I feel your roots in me
I know your trying to take my soil

Over time a tree blossomed and produced fruit
Now that your gone
It’s starting to wilt a bit
It’s my duty now to nourish it

Even though the fruit is too bitter and sour
The aftertaste is sweet
I’ll share them, like my poems
Letting everyone enjoy it or dislike it
Call me Oliver Aug 2019
I went to go withdraw today from school
As I left and headed to my car
I heard a “hey Oliver”
I knew it was you, the masculine tone of your voice when you held me when I cried in your arms
I just held a peace sign and left
For the first time I heard you speak and my heart didn’t ache
Now I truly know, I’m free


(I’m leaving this suburban town, never coming back)
Call me Oliver Feb 2019
I’ve always been told to be a poster child
Now that I’ve become somewhat of it
I know the effects it has on a person
I’m now feeling the need to revel against the night streets
And no longer wait for it

It’s the complete opposite
And I’ll follow it

That’s the need
I tell myself to have and to be
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
I might look the same
and I might act the same too
but i'm a little different now
I hope this was for the best
I wish you knew that i'm not strong enough to talk to you right now
say something
please
I have low self confidence at the moment. I hope he does finally talk to me. Its been two days so far but i already feels like dying.
Call me Oliver Mar 2019
Today I’ll be happy
Today I’ll be happy
Today I’ll be happy
Today I’ll be happy
Call me Oliver Mar 2019
your yet to realize
we all go through something similar
we can understand each other more than you think
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
Your kindness can be easily mistaken for love
It’s disturbing
And I’m tired
You make my head hurt
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
It’s funny to think about
How your name was Angle
But you weren’t one

Sometimes I can’t sleep at night
I think about your hair
Your eyes
The way you’d put your arm behind your head
When we’d talk
The glances we’d make

It’s been seven months now
I’m in theatre
I met this boy also named Angle
He looks the same
Has the same hair
Even talks the same

I feel like I was given the chance to fix things
As if life brought me up to not make the same mistakes as before

The day I found out he just got out of a relationship with a girl named Jasmine
I...I don’t know
I know now he’ll never love me
The same as the other Angle
I need to stop focusing on boys

But I desperately want to feel loved
So I’ll sleep on it
Thank you for listening
I deprived myself of love, it’s nobodies fault but mine. I’ll get through
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
In the end of the day
Somewhere in Arizona
The moment was just perfect
And framed like a picture
That now lays between papers and crayola markers
Waiting for me to one day look back
Smile
Laugh
Cry
And wish to be back

(Though I’ll never really know and understand why)
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
I’ve know your beauty ever since day one
I’m captivated to be just like you
The part of you that I long to rule over every persona
You don’t try to be good, you are good
I’ll remember this till the day I die
As we speak of this while on the shore
we see the woman watering her dandelions on the hill side
We wait patiently for the sun to come and to end
Never viewing ourselves, but viewing the world surrounding us
Call me Oliver Feb 2019
We must learn to understand the simple things
To really acknowledge the mesmerizing impact of everything that comes our way
Till then can you get a clear understanding that even the uneventful moments are equally to learn from
A few words I’d like to leave off before I die
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
Thanks to you,
I made it
And I’m not sure if I’m ever gonna go back


- Alan
Even though my life was simple to you, to me, it was everything. My real name is Alan
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
Unlike you
I would risk my own life to view the beauty of everything
I’d hold my breath as long as I could to view the waves
Even in the problems you give me
I try to see the beauty
I even try to hold my breath
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
You lonely bird
How do you do it?
You fly so passionable, but your always alone
What do you see that I can’t?
I envy you
But I’ll never tell you how much I love you
Call me Oliver Mar 2019
The sweet feeling of release
As we poured more lighter fluid.  
The more it would glaze into the thick air of spring.
We are young.
We are helpless to feeling powerful,
As the fire
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
I remember being able to see your eyes in the flowers
My dreams
My paintings
And in my life
Now the only thing I can see you in are glances from the other room
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
See you tomorrow (I hope I never see you again)
Call me Oliver Feb 2019
I subclude myself from all
When I think to myself
I get lost in the moment of reverie
It might sound lonely and it might feel as if that
But that’s all I’ve ever really known
And I’ve come to call it home
The effect raised me well
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
If I ever gave you the chance
I would fall in love with your words
I’d let myself
Only if you wanted
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
“It’s a bad day, not a bad life”
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
“our fingers are touching, you fake like you're blushing
cause laughing is easier than saying you love me
and maybe you don't but i think that you do”
Call me Oliver Aug 2019
I prayed to forget all about you
Leave you
And to never comeback
All these things happened but,
I can’t stress this enough...that was love...true love
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
Let it break
You'll feel better
You're always near
But gone forever

I don't hear you
Anymore
There's too much noise
Noise
No I can't hear you
In this noise

Far away
You don't need it
Day by day
But you don't mean it

I don't want to hear you
Anymore
Just give me noise
Noise
No, I don't wanna hear you
In this noise
No, I don't wanna hear you
Give me noise   -Gemma Hayes
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
The room was filled with an aroma
Even though I was sick
I could still tell it was your cologne
Too strong
(As always)
As I laugh it off
I start to cry
Call me Oliver Dec 2018
To show how bad you were
I fell more in love with the scenery
Than with you
Call me Oliver Jun 2019
It’s weird...
Now that I’m no longer in love with you, I have no reason to write poetry
I don’t feel the nerve anymore,
I was in a trance
You went with my friend, I’ll go with mine
(I hope I never see you again)
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
I met two angles
And neither of them helped
Two guys both named Angle I’ve met and fell in love with; neither of them helped me. I portray them as angles
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
Are those two green chairs a figment of my imagination
I don’t know where they came from
They don’t see it
No one else sits on them
They all pass them by looking for seats
As I make my way over
I hear the echoing of your screams as you fell in the shower
It haunts me
As if when you die
I will too
I feel at home
I’m writing this while searching for those two green chairs again
Madness, silent,
Call me Oliver Nov 2018
I wish to see you in my dreams
I wish to see your beauty that you call home
I wish to get to know you

In the morning I’ll pick you up to go to school
Hold your hands even though your nervous
In the halls
Let everyone stare
They don’t know this feeling

We’ll skip classes
Run around the football field
Dance and trip
Make up fake passes

We’ll hide behind the tree’s shadow
While my hands on your face
We’ll see eachother from our perspectives
And share a quiet moment
And a kiss

Now noticing that we
Can be loved by strangers
And laugh
And leave school early
I know what it feels to want equal share of love,
So to anybody who needs this, take it. This is for you, yes you; reading this.
Call me Oliver Jan 2019
I don’t like (the way you move me)
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