love is a fickle thing to hold, ever present ever silent it stand in the back of one's heart
If you think it's gone you're wrong, it is there sitting still in the back of your mind waiting for a memento to spark that quickened  heartbeat  
Love betrays you
Because it is honest, it cannot lie
Because love is the only truth we have no matter how much you might fight it
So be true to it, and with that you will be true to yourself

Slowly I feel myself drifting out to sea, drowning into the deep

No longer knowing who I am slowly I go, day by day I slip further away

Slowly feeling less and less of how I used to be.

You helped me change that but without you near, I see myself drifting deeper into the sea

Its 3:30 on a Wednesday and here I am yet again sitting in a coffee shop questioning my existence and wishing you were here

I want to see the future
For selfish reasons of course
But not for reasons you might think
I don't care if I win the lottery, or if I get the job that I've always dreamt of  

No I don't care about those silly thing
I want to see us in ten years
where we live, and if we do have kids

And if we do, I want to see what they look like, if they have you're hair, your smile, or my eyes

I want to see what personality they have inharted from their parents, to see if they are as manic you once were, or if they have my temper

I want to see us with children, living in a home we love, living a life we so greatly deserve

I don't need to question if we will be together

Because I already know that answer, I will always be with you
I don't see any other outcome other than the two of us, being happy and still so in love

I don't feel the same without you here
As I venture into this new life scared
I wish you were by my side like before
I need you here to not feel so lost anymore

Being in love is like being a spring flower

You feel fresh and beautiful thanks to the winter that came before

showing you that you are strong enough to get through the cold

And have grown thanks to that cold and hardship

wether that love is for yourself or for another, you are beautiful and have grown

Be proud spring flower, you can do anything

One year ago I was lost
Not knowing who I was, slowly collapsing into myself
Then I met you and something just kind of happened
I felt alive once again
You changed me and for that I thank you
Thank you for making me feel happy and I mean truly happy once again
Thank you my love and happy one year

To the girls who sit in coffee shops

That love the feeling they get when they sit in there favorite spot

Browsing the internet, listening to their favorite music

The taste off coffee running through your veins

I know how you feel, and how far you'll reach for the stars

I know who you are, because I'm that girl too

I just miss everything about him

His smile, his eyes

Thoughts days where we would just lay in bed all day

I miss my best friend, the best thing that's ever happened to me

I miss his skin,  and literally everything about him

I feel as if I am lost without him, he brought peace within me

I fell in love and I never want to lose him

I fell in love with you so fast it was insane

we met at that coffee shop you use to work at, that seems so long ago
even though it was only a year ago

it took us so long to even speak to one another, both of us awkward and vacuous to one another's flattery  

you thought I was beautiful from the start, even when I didn't you did

I was so mean to you that first day that I walked in, and you stared at me, later you told me you couldn't look away

it took us months of brief passing, till you finally formally introduced yourself to me, you hate that, it made me ecstatic

we talked constantly for weeks, until we decided to go on a date

it was awkward, I was nervous, and so were you, but its something that can't be touch in its innocence, I still loved it

we fell for on another fast, and then after our third date as we laid looking at thoughts stars and you kissed me, was when we started to date

quickly we fell for one another hand and together

we laid staring into each others eyes when we told each other that we loved one another

I love everything about you, the good the bad every single thing

how could I not, you were everything I wanted, everything I need and more, you changed me, you made me better

we were happy, friends, and lovers

then this is the sad part of our story, there always is one, you were moving across the country in fact

I told you of what I had been like before you came into my life, I had opened up completely to you, I opened my chest exposing my beating heat, and you took care of it and did the same for me

then about a week later was the day that you departed, that morning the dat\y you went and I was leaving I loved you , seeing you lay there one the bed knowing that smile on your sleepy face was mine and that you loved me so made me happy, I cant stop loving you

after all your my first love

I hope someday we'll meet again, maybe when I'm older and your younger wouldn't that be a twist

Another year older

A leagal adult

It's funny I thought I'd feel different, but I never change

I'm still the same person, still me

Who ever that may be

Well let's hope this years as good as the last, maybe even better

I feel a bit lost
a bit small

Young and confused
To who I am

Just finding my place
In this vast space

Alone
Surrounded by a crowd

In this fast pace life
So much to change in so little time

I fell into something wonderful
I stumbled opon greatness they may say

Words not spoken we look at one another and know of the greatness we hold

A greatness that took not long to find, we moved on tandem from the start

Our beliefs the same, so similar it was hard to believe we had never met before

I fell for him quickly his looks so kind and strong, I couldnt believe  I had found someone who thought so wide as I, so young

He's mine and I'm his that's all I need

Nothing more nothing less

I love you

I love your smile, and the childlike mischief it protrays

I love your eyes, and how they look at me

I love your hands, and how they care for me as you hold me close

I love how tall my are and how I fit so perfectly in your arms

I love how you kiss my neck sometimes when I'm doing something, and the chills it sends down my spine

I love when we're holding one another so closely you press your lips opon my forehead

I love that late night drive home, when I tried to sleep but I couldn't and I heard you sing along to the song, and your voice made my heart swell so

I love how you found your way out of the crap you've been through

I love how you went for it and talked to me, even though you have great social anxietys

I love you, all of you the fighter, the mechanic, the dreamer, the adrnallen ******, every pice of you

Everything

I love you darling, and I know you love me too

You hands define me, adoring me, finding my edges, my bums, scares, streach markes, taking it all in, they way you always do, your hands tell me how they love me so, as you hold me so close to you, our hearts in unison, I look at you dark brown eyes, and you look deep into mine as we hold one another so closely nothing but skin touching skin, just breathing one another in, it's hard to decribe such a thing, when you hold each other so close, the trust you feel, it's not a word it's a feeling so strong, that is love of course, I geuss that's the closest thing I could define it as, love. So strong, so pure, so undefined.

I want to kiss you like there's nothing more I could do
I want to touch you hair and make it as messy as possible
I want to laugh at your terriblely dark humored jokes
I want you to hold my hand when we walk toghter
I want to be around you
I want to see your smile appear on your face
And I want to be the source of your smile
I want you touch my **** and I'll touch yours
But most of all I just want you
All of you
The good
The bad
That dark pasts
And the bright futures
When I tell you your mine I mean it, I want us to be a pair, two pice that fit toghter, because they don't work as well if there not toghter
Darling your mine and I'm yours

Toghter we laid, chest to chest, our heartbeats a tangled mess

You worry me darling

Every second of everyday

I just want to make sure your ok

We walk through our lives wondering and hoping for something to come along

And when that thing come, we have to remember to stop and take it in

Kiss me

Kiss me like it's the only thing you thought about all day long

Kiss me and take my breath away

Kiss my head, my neck, my noise

Kiss me, hold me, tell me about your day

Tell me about your childhood, your dreams, and ever more  

Hold me, touch me, even tickle me if you will

Talk movies, art, feminism, life

Your the best boyfriend a girl could ask for

There's something I can't explain when I see you, that thing that happens inside of me

That feeling you give me, the way you hold me, they way you touch me

It means something to you, that I can see

You don't care how I look, baggy eyes, messy hair

You care, thoughts eyes, they way you look at me with them, so sweet, oh so kind

You that's all I want in this world, nothing more

Oh dear, you are something different

Something good

Something worth all that time I was waiting for

I wish I could kiss you right now, and forever more

I don't know how it was so perfect, I brought him to a place I feel in love with all my own

A place where my small towns artificial fun, doesn't seem to reach.

The sky littered with bright stars, it was such a clear night

His blanket that tired to warm me, you asked me as we sat under the vibrant night sky, if this was a sign

Of course I replied yes.

It wasn't a suddel thing this kiss, it was so much all at once.

We sat there locked lips, under that night sky, I haven't wanted such a perfect thing in all my life.

He kissed my for the first time under the night sky

Now that's something I'll never forget

I finally found one
One who sees my character first

One to take to, long and slow
Anything and all things

I found a gentleman in a sea of horror

His jaw sharp, his smile bright

I don't understand how such a man could have not have been found

Staggering breath
Skin and bones
You done eat anymore

I was six, white little thing in a sea I of black siblings

So young and and ready to run, Cookie boy hate you at first
But he grew old
Staggering breath
Skin and bones
Didn't eat
Kept falling to his feet
Cookie boy came and gone he was your friend

So many year have passed you grew old tumers grew, one on your head back and under, you grew weak

Buttercup came  and you came to life, she was so young and ready to run  

You grew strong she was your sister, mange hit you and you fell down, it took so long we thought you were gone.

You got back up and started back up again.

I love you, Chloe I thank you for reminding me to fight

Because that's all you did in your short eleven year life.

Fight for life, like Chloe did.

I feel like a lion in a dog cage

Don't take thecalling
The comments of hate
Don't let men control you r body's
Don't be afraid to presue your passion
Feminism is nothing to fear it means that any man is your equal and you should be ashamed to shout it out

Take me to a place where I might get lost in other people's thoughts instead of my own

Killing me slowly with thought word full of glee

When you have that feeling so deep that you can feel it in your bones, no not your bones the dark part of your soul, that place you never let anyone see expect the person who you see in the mirror that right there is it that's all you need nothing else.

So if you haven't been able to live that feeling, experience it and if it doesn't scare the living **** out of you then your missing out.

Because that thing, that experience, leads to great things.

So you don't like me or love me or very much see me

No you might have I don't know but you don't like me now that much I know

You like the girl, she's young very young.

I know you don't owe me anything

I just have one question if you will take it

Why not me?

I have never been the first choice for anyone, I'm an after thought in your mind

Pretty, but is there something wrong that I did?

yes I have walls one hundred feet tall, but no one even bothered to try?

Just, why?

I'm not asking for your pitty just give me a reason, that's all I ask

So thank you for the year you invaded my mind even when I thought we could be toghter at last

You don't choice me

So have your fun with your little girl, I just ask for her sake give her space

She's not ready for what you ask of her I know I was on her place at one time

Goodbye for good this time.

I want him so bad it makes my bones ache,

And my heart breaks,

When I see the long looks he takes towards me, I become unsteady,

Someday,

Someday.

What are you thinking why do you look at me like that now.

I'm sorry but your just a friend.

I feel for the boy who plays football, and dances silly.

Your a great friend who I love, but I'm sorry not that way not now anyway.

I'm sorry to have to tell you this way but that is all I have to say.

Don't get heart broken your like my brother, if I needed you I know you'd be there.

Don't hate me, please don't leave me cause I don't fall head over heel for you.

This is how it has to be cause I want him, I have for a year, why now do you look at me that way?

No, I can't do that to you to our friendship, so I ask you to stop looking at me like that, cause what do I do when I loose you?

When the he sits next to you when your drunk and nothing happens, heart break happens

Sometimes we have to let parts of ourselfs die to keep living

All of this is crushing me I can not handle all the stress, or life, of school

I need time to think and to destress.

Ask me what you think of the rain that falls on our heads .It's the most beautiful thing there is for what it dose for us.

Ask me what you think of the way you stand.
You look strong with you firm stance.

Ask me about politics, science, the weather, your favorite sport. Republican, fascinating, terriblely cold and wet, I don't quite understand football.

May I ask you?

What
Do
You
Think
Of
Me?

Do you think of me before you fall asleep and what could this be?

What do you look at when your looking at me?

Is it my nose,my hand, or my eyes?

So let me know what is it or is it the worst thing that I could fear?

Not at all.

Thank you for your stare with thoughts stunning killer blues

We may fight at times but I love her

Today I helped you fix you're hair and I rembered the way you did my hair every day when I was and I wanted you to do my hair like a  hot airballoon  

you did every day so thank you mama I'll rember thoughts day and be great full for all youve done

Thank you mama 17 years you've loved me so happy birthday mama

You're my mama and I'd never ask for more

Why dose my heart get faster when we get so close and sometimes our legs touch

Or when you say some rude comment under your breath and I catch it and you smile a bit when I asked you "what was that?" And I smile back just a little bit

I wish you would tell me more about how you can sleep at night or why you get so flustered oh so quickly

I wish just for once it could just be you and me and we'd sit there and talk about everything we think and feel and you would tell me about your scars and I about mine and we would be together and that was all that would matter just you and me.

Cause really what more do we need?

Let us one day sleep through the night without dark thoughts invading our minds

Let us one day feel free to be that person we want to be

Let us one day see the world and the beauty we all seek

Let us find home whatever that might be

Let us all one day be better than we are today

I can't even tell you how I fell about you in my dreams

Sometimes I wish my dream took me away faster than my thoughts make me stay

So many homes in this little ski town, most are empty now sitting awaiting the snow, to once again be full

I envy you and all you have given us,
for your politic that gave us the foundation for what is now this great nation
you building styles, thoughts famous columns
thoughts things you though, the problems you solved
you changed the world, your langue create our routes, your style of fight
so thank you, for all you great work

Words spilled out of his mouth the the water  turned on high, messy loud and all at once and destroys  more than it makes

She spoke like rain drops, quite and sutill but bring more life than it shows

When you look at me with though bright blue eyes what do you think about?

Do you study me, as I do you? Ever muscle you move ever word you speak.

Or want to talk to you ever time your near?

It might just be me, but I hope you see me too.

I'm bursting at the seams, my naked soul shines through

looking at the love of her life, her reflection looked back

hard
painful
tiring
long
really hard
annoying
but.
heart beat rises and you feel,
alive.

It's ok to have doubts as long as they do not run your life.
Even the nicest person in the world has bad moments.  
You'll always not like people or hate doing something but you'll have to hold your head up high and do it anyway.
The age of a person can't always be determined by a number but by there soul.