Lizzie

Lizzie Mar 2021

I want to smile through the tears,
But I haven't cried for many years.
I don't want this numbness anymore;
Is that too much for me to ask for?

Thinking I was gaining control,
I locked away my precious soul.
You don't realize what you're choosing.
When you numb the pain, you're truly losing.

If you shut your eyes against the darkness,
You also shut out any brightness.
If you smother your feelings and **** the pain,
You'll never feel real joy again.

Numbing the pain it's not worth losing yourself.
Recently coming out of a depression of several years, I discovered a side of myself that I forgot existed. While I sometimes cry till my head hurts, I also find myself laughing to tears. And whenever life gets hard, I remind myself that it's worth those small moments of wonder, joy, and inspiration. I don't want to ever lose myself again.

Lizzie Feb 2021

Taken for granted (the things we do for love)

It hurts to see you like this.
I love you, so I want to fix
All your problems immediately.
I'll care for you...
But who will care for me?

I'll be strong and face my fears
So that you'll have no need for tears.
I'll do anything to make you happy.
I'll care for you...
But who will care for me?

When you love someone, you'll do anything for them. But when do you care for yourself? Where do you draw the line between selfless and selfish?

Lizzie Feb 2021

Change

Even though I know
Everything must be like so
How can I let go?

I keep hoping that somehow good things don't have to change, or that when they do it's all a bad dream.

Lizzie Feb 2021

Run Away

Every day that passes is one day less.
All your suffocating mind knows
Is its desire to breath again.
You're in love with the man who runs.
All you wait for is to run hand in hand.
Yet when dashing Escape finally shows,
You suddenly remember all that you'd lose.
It's a leap of faith, I guess.

Sometimes there's nothing you long for more than escape from the life you have. But when there's an opportunity for it, you dont know what the future would being. And so you wonder if that leap of faith if worth losing what you do have.

Lizzie Feb 2021

Crush

Jealous love is not love at all,
But I can't deny his good taste,
And that makes him attractive.

My crush liked someone else.

Lizzie Feb 2021

Can't Help But Love

Why do I do the things that I do?
I have so many reasons, which is true?
Am I jealous, or am I just blue?
Whatever the case, I can't help but love you.

I feel blind even though I can see.
I don't look trapped, but I'm still not free.
I hope that some day there will be
A person who can't help but love me.

Lizzie Jan 2021

Love is Luck

Whisper away the waves,
Sing slowly to the sea.
Put love in a glass bottle,
And send it here to me.

If other shores should find it,
If it's cushioned in their sands,
I hope the chorals crush it,
Unless it reach these hands.

But what I wish and what will be....
Is chosen by the changing sea.