Mar 2021
I want to smile through the tears,
But I haven't cried for many years.
I don't want this numbness anymore;
Is that too much for me to ask for?
Thinking I was gaining control,
I locked away my precious soul.
You don't realize what you're choosing.
When you numb the pain, you're truly losing.
If you shut your eyes against the darkness,
You also shut out any brightness.
If you smother your feelings and **** the pain,
You'll never feel real joy again.
But I haven't cried for many years.
I don't want this numbness anymore;
Is that too much for me to ask for?
Thinking I was gaining control,
I locked away my precious soul.
You don't realize what you're choosing.
When you numb the pain, you're truly losing.
If you shut your eyes against the darkness,
You also shut out any brightness.
If you smother your feelings and **** the pain,
You'll never feel real joy again.
Numbing the pain it's not worth losing yourself.
Recently coming out of a depression of several years, I discovered a side of myself that I forgot existed. While I sometimes cry till my head hurts, I also find myself laughing to tears. And whenever life gets hard, I remind myself that it's worth those small moments of wonder, joy, and inspiration. I don't want to ever lose myself again.
Recently coming out of a depression of several years, I discovered a side of myself that I forgot existed. While I sometimes cry till my head hurts, I also find myself laughing to tears. And whenever life gets hard, I remind myself that it's worth those small moments of wonder, joy, and inspiration. I don't want to ever lose myself again.
