Day by day..

I grow weaker

Day by day..

I get more and more depressed

Day by day..

Is the more I forget.

I've lost myself today.
You say I'll find my way..
But, I won't..

Because, today

Is

The

Day.

Broken
Shattered
I *can't pick up the *pieces.
I can't give you a reason.
I won't walk away until you know..
There's nobody who gets me like you do.
My mind is running empty.
Through the search for someone else.
I can't be the only one who's so disconnected..
It was so different in my head.
Drink up.. last call before the sunrise sets the last scene.
Of empty bottles, heavy hearts.
The memories of broken dreams.
But, wait.. now that I've found you..
Situations from dark now change to gray.
It's perpetually blinding me of my sanity.
I've lost my whole life and a dear friend..

I'm not confused.
Nor jealous.

I know they're happy.
I'm happy for them.

I am hurt but not by her.

By everything else in this world.

I'm not hurting you.
Not hurting her.

So don't..

Write

Poems

About

Me.

You and him..
You don't quite known how you fit together...
I'm kind of under the weather..
There will be time for us to be friends..
Unless it's the end of us..
Unless you say you care
And you don't..

I'm scared I'll lose you.
Because, he doesn't like me
Like you do..

I'm happy for you..
I am..

Just there's a space between love and lust.

Finding out where you fit..

In my life..

There's always a space for you here..

Somewhere...

You'll always be here.

Even if you don't care.

Jewish people.

Germans.

Concentration camps..

I'll turn on the lamp.

And think all my thoughts away..

Think of all the horrible things..

Kids and Moms in gas chambers.

Bodies being burned..

What did kids earn?

**Hell.

You think that a poem has to rhyme?

No. Believe me, I tried.

And guess what ?

Poems aren't always about what you feel.

It's just things in general.

So stop mocking my poems

They don't have to rhyme.

Not all the time.

You'll never know..
The emotions I choose not to show.

I can't tell you enough.

I just want to die

****** me tonight