I miss this one human
they know who they are
they mean the world to me
they have a beautiful smile
amazing hair
and personality that any one would be blessed to have
this person is kind
understanding
and makes me feel safe
some times the world makes us work for or love  
thank you for working with me against the world
and letting me continue to love you

people don't understand what I mean when I say i'm depressed
to you it means i'm broken and contagious, messed up to a point of no return  
to me i'm working through a hard time in my life but i'm getting better

I shake and I quiver and don't know why
I am oppressed and messed up broken
from the inside
they told me I'm fine and that it gets better
it always doses
it has to
we have to accept those things that make us different
the things that set us apart
the things that brake us
I shake and I quiver and do know why
its because I'm different
and that's okay
I will shake and I will quiver
and it sometimes it makes me cry

I sit in the rain
just letting it pour down your face
distinguishing between the tears and the rain would be impossible
except for my mascara that runs down my face like a river
the tears turns black and streams down my face
crying about everything and anything
I feel like I've fallen apart
drowning in the rain
drowning
but with every breath I give to the world
one is taken from me
but I wipe my face
I stand up
and I go back inside
back to my life

hi
yes you
as you see i am not right but I am strong
with every bone in my body broken out of fear and hate and panic.
it makes me stronger
slowly
maybe if you cared or sat down to know how I feel you would start to under stand the pain and fear and panic I live in on a day to day bases
it's hard to understand for a neurological typical
which I am not
we all have our struggles but I'll struggle more
it will take you a bat of your eyelashes coated in mascara to go to collage.
I will have to fight to work meany hours
sleep deprived, belated, tainted to your eyes
nothing more than a sleepless blurb that you will step over and scowl at to try to make fun of
my family
my life
hard work
school
me just living
all wile I carry my beautiful baby sister and guide her through the ways of the world and show her how messed up your creeds are but how beautiful it all could be
that I and all the rest of us have to fight for our education  
a good job
our family's and friends
the ones we love
our children
this world is a real ****** up place where demons and angels live hand in hand
but some how the demons control the world while most of the angels sit in silence with frowns on there face scared if they stand up our word will become desisted
a war zone but
I get stronger and we all do
so please be smart
and
kind
polite
ask question instead of judge
and remember everyone faces there own battles and you may not know the extent just ask how can I help

one day people will understand that a smile dos'not define happiness
one day people will know that asking questions is rude to do
one day people will stop starring and whispering
one day it will be okay for every one to be themselves