beast

it feeds upon dreams
and joys
and we blame it for our carelessness

and we forget about it being there
and it loves
and we love
it hates
and we hate

and it hungers
starves

though still it is a beast

I have  been grieving for you
every goodbye,

my entire life.

If you feel alone,
look up at the sky.
The stars are always up there
twinkling for you.

To know you, I would risk our love carved into pillars, declared to history.

It is enough for me, to love you in silence,
without your consent.

Oh how would I cope if this was reciprocal,
but to die with you in my arms
and hold onto you forever?

stand still.

I am like this,
like that

it is hard to be what I fear -
change

I am fickle and fain when things remain

i love this quote:

the water sustains me without even trying
the water can't drown me, I'm done
with my dying

have you always been there -
yes, you have, I know

and now you are leaving
for better things to come for you -

I should have said good luck,
goodbye -
I was too ashamed

because

I never said hello to you
in the first place