The melody of your heart, my laughters
Source,

But now, I see through your ruse.

You exploit my joy, you have no care,
Only self serving games, I swear.

Foolish me, to believe in your tune,
Naive a puppet, hanging on your cue.

You'd exploit laughter, leave me with none,
My heart you've used, but now I'm done.

Careless and cold- love fairness missed,
I've longed for you,
Felt deeply,
In my chest.

No requited affection in sight,
Just your acts, your games,
Your plays and spite.

Used as a toy, just a game you play,
Never the object of your tenderness-
Or sway.

You've hidden behind scorn,
Fearing vulnerabilities touch,
An addiction grows, belittling,
Demeaning you, so so much.

Is your heart torn by the truth of your own feelings,
Or is it that anger masks the only shield you're wielding?

Have you forgotten what it's like to feel any other way,
Lost in the shadows your anger casts-
Each day?


You've played your part, just as i've played mine,
Caught in this dance, again-
And again, I find.
I question truth, I settle for the lies,
I tell myself I’m stronger, but still, I disguise.

Your melody lures me, a song I once knew,
A tune that onced soothed, now made untrue.
I’ve begged for silence, a break from the noise,
But I'm lost in a world where you're always the voice.

I’m stuck in webs, to tangled to see,
The cains you've woven-
they still cling to me.

Your laughter and lies, they still pull me near,
A puppet, a fool, caught in the fear,

And so it continues, the endless refrain,
I’ll scream, I’ll cry, yet still I remain-
Waiting for you, waiting for change.

For how long will you let yourself suffer?
Pathetic, weak, foolish—
Isn’t that all you’ve ever been?

Why keep fighting battles you’re destined to lose?
Why cling to the hope
That you’re worth something
When it’s clear you’re not?

No one cares.
Not me,
Not the neighbors,
Not those so-called friends you keep chasing.

So why try?
Why dream?
Why breathe?

Give up.
You're useless.

You're running again, my love.
So many little circles in my mind.
Do you ever get tired, I wonder?

Your yellow hair,
And sky blue eyes,
Are a sight-
That make even the sun bow to you.
How could he not,
When your smile makes the world brighter than he could ever dream?
How could he not, when you are so perfect?
He envies you, my darling.

I am enraptured by you,
Completely and fully.
Your heart holds the key to mine,
All you need to do is turn it.

Oh, won't you turn it, my love?

Drag me out of my shell of longing,
And make me bloom with love for you.
I'm so full of it, I have so, so much of it to give.
Let it spill through me like rivers in spring,
Like the rain that falls during a storm,
Let it overflow into you like a breath of fresh air-
it will never stop.

It will rise, like a tide-
Crashing into your shores,
It will grow like mountains,
And forever be a pillar of light,
Amongst any darkness you face.
Let me love you, my darling, my sunflower.

Let me hold you in my arms until the morning,
When we wake up,
let me hold you more.
Let me heal you of any pain,
Forever I will be there for you,
I will be here-
For as long as you want me to stay.

Do you remember that day?
When we went to the pasture,
and you fell in the mud?
Oh how you laughed,
Laugh like that for me always,
Promise me, love-
That you will never lose that beautiful smile.

when the world calms-
Grows quiet,
I will be there.
My heart, a place where time has no power,
Will forever hold you dear.
It will hold you for every sunrise,
Every sunset,
Even when the stars fade from our sky,
I will still find you, my darling.
In the quiet places of my soul,
I will wait for you,
I will love you,
And I will hold you-
Forevermore.