living alone, I
thought the sea was a distant
dream — 'til I cried one

when I say don't stop
I'm pleading more to myself
than I am to you

    don't stop giving in
   'til the shape of your back is
    the shape of his palms

   don't stop yielding up
    'til your secrets liquefy
   into his whiskey

   don't stop submitting
   'til you see the skin under
   his chin sleek and flushed

will you call my name
again, the one with double
letters where yours have

dough in the oven
and a lover with their past
— these things won't rise if
you keep opening it up
digging it, calling them out

I don't understand
how you can be more tempting
draped, than naked — you

you — standing still, strong
like David and Venus — un-
drape me already

I was a dreamer
you, a wanderer — you left
                 while I was asleep

lights on or lights off
does it really matter, when
either way we'll smash

YOU emanate GRACE
that to say — you're beautiful
would be           REDUNDANT

I don't wish to be
where you're not — your absence has
embittered life there

I chase with my eyes
what my hands cannot touch — I'm
left empty-handed

bamboos sway and bend
in the moon's last summer light
we say our goodbyes
                                  門
                            ­      さ
                                  よ
                     ­             う
                                  な
              ­                    ら

enter through the same
door he walked out of — that is
how
          you find
                           my heart

endless summer day
hoping by the end of it
you'll come home to me

teach me how to look
at you like I know exact-
ly what we'll do next

my head hurts so bad
tired of explaining myself
thought you'd understand

take me by the hand —
that is how I know for sure
that I still exist

they only see the
tiredness in your eyes when they're
mad at you for it

boy ran to the fields
and saw how big the sky is
brother didn't see

boy ran to the fields
and fell towards the big sky
brother longs for him

boy ran to the fields
his brother chased after him
they ran forever

setting my alarm
at 4 am, I wake up
it's 8 am, F

sun-kissed valley wind
train to Madrid's not here yet
— want a cerveza

sit in the shadow
look at those pale, lovely hills
— let's have anisette

if you don't believe
in love at first sight then how
about now, baby

wrong sh_t all the time
a fish is caught in its mouth
I'M the f_cking fish

fleeting orange sky
stop — before I sing sadly
through dark winter nights

I don't tell you things
because explaining in length
things long brewing's like
standing at the floodgates of
a river as it empties

I take this ring, a
sign of my folly — so I
can pretend I'm yours

I hear rain coming
like heavy footfalls of my
favorite person

my skin is foreign
land — just as my hand is a
foreigner on yours

what does it mean when
the time they used to give free—
ly, we beg for now?

we're to meet at noon
I stepped out, hand on the gate
the sign says
                          WET PAINT‎

ghosts do not forget
— they haunt where it seems quite
just like past lovers

am I good for you?
I'm not even good for me
— just think about that

this feels like a long
ride where everyone got off —
and then it's just me

you're the summer months
I spent in Grandma's house — moves
infinity slow

if I end up
                   dead
to you,
             I hope you'll keep all
the green bones left at
the funeral pyre — show them
to me the next time we meet

what we see as change
when green summer leaves turn brown
is really just growth

will the only time
I get rest — and peace — is when
I'm but grey ashes

for eight hours a day
I die at my office desk —
and then I drive home

eight hours of sleep
eight to work and to hustle
eight to love yourself

nowadays I read
myself like it's in 𝕷𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓
in M---rse, and spɹɐʍʞɔɐq

you ought to be hanged
for the way you stare — gold-framed
in a museum

they say it's all in
my head — why do I feel it
in my LIMBS and CHEST

head raised to the sky —
in a way, praying you won't
stop what you're doing

tell me a story
who, what, where, when, how and why
I'll always listen