If I had only one wish for today
It’d be to talk to you & pray
Ask God to guide through your storm
Heal your heart for good so you’ll never again mourn

Take your life back to what it used to be
Where you used to smile & live stress free
Relive those days that mattered the most
Remove your fears of anyone getting close

Cure you from the heartbreaks you’ve obtained
Eliminate the suffering caused from the pain
Show you the Queen you are when you look in the mirror
Paint the perfect picture so the image is clearer

For every tear you’ve shed, I apologize
For those who didn’t love you truly
A rare heart that only one can identify
Those who tore you apart & made you blind to your beauty
Take away the hurt suffered so you no longer have to cry

pain is a drug
& most of us can't get enough

falling for errors
while loving those we don't trust

red flags ignored
true intentions come to light

feelings get hurt
hearts are never taken in consideration

pain is a drug
some of us can never get enough

What is Love? Love is Pain
Love is Fear, Love is crying with the Rain
Love is looking in the mirror & accepting what you see before you
Love is loving yourself enough not to settle for less than someone who can't adore you
Love is being in love with the fact that you're simply amazing
Loving is realizing what you bring to the table, never begging for love, & let make you chase it
What is Pain? Pain is Depression, Pain is Hell
Pain is trying to overcome what hurt you but the damage wont let you prevail
Pain is giving your everything every time but getting nothing in return
Pain is having the Heart of Gold but the treatment of hell & it's something you don't deserve
Pain is that devil on your shoulder convincing you to do evil
Making you hate everyone around you even your own people
What is Love? Love is Joy, Love is Happiness, Love is an Emotional Rainbow
What is Pain? Pain loving someone who makes your heart erupt like a volcano

With Love, I haven't had the best luck
settled for hookups trying to get my count up
but that was before the phase
before the worst heartbreak

I was in love once, it was a dream to me
I thought this angel was what she seemed to me
talking over the phone getting close to me
but who knew she'd be a part of my dark history

The reason why I said "F Love", they're all the same
you could be a King but they won't change
so I changed myself, still ashamed of myself
she broke me like nobody else

Provided a heavenly vibe in the midst of my hell
& she loved a King, in her voice I can tell
got me doing things I don't normally do
singing songs to her, it was beautiful

But then the world got dark with her in the center
playing me for an ex love, I could never forgive her
in fact, it made me bitter
the beginning of my downfall & my choice of liquor

I try not to blame them all cause it was my fault
trusting someone I barely knew & took a loss
thinking she'd be down but she let me down
questioning if I was really a King or clown
showing me words carry no certification
help turn me into a rebel against a lifetime goal
& if I'll ever go back, I guess we'll never know

We haven’t spoken for the past few weeks & I’ve lied to keep from telling the truth
saying i’m busy with work but I’m sure you can still see the proof
Somewhere along the road, I started seeing us from a different light
I started seeing a world without you as a lover & i started loving the sight
But then I’d ask myself, how can one get over someone who did so much
can’t just walk from all that happiness & leave a beautiful heart crushed
I know keeping the truth from you isn’t right but telling the truth, I may lose you
& I can’t just sit here to allow my broken heart use you
I still think the world of you, it’s just the feelings that used to be don’t exist anymore
but the heart that I’ve grown with, I’ll love unconditionally forevermore
What I’m trying to say is that I have to move on to keep from drowning in false hope
of keeping faith within something that may never be again
& it’s that drug you gave me that I can no longer allow my system to overdose
I’ve done a thousand laps in my head trying to go about this in the right way
but in order for us to be happy, one of us has to swallow the pride to walk away
So my silence wasn’t because I was busy, it’s because I’m trying to leave
& holding on is only going to prevent me from waking up from this long never ending dream

everything is okay

never knew what this would feel like

for once, my world isn't dark

the sun shining bright over me

flowers bloom in the spring

birds chirp the morning away

laughter in the midst

feels like I've waited my whole life for this

I’ve been enjoying this single life for quite some time now
but I’m still lonely, yearning for one to hold me down
I admit that I’m not perfect, I’ve been creeping on the prowl
a few one night stands but it’s no fun to me now
It used to be fun wit me but my feelings have gotten a hold to me
got me wishing one was there to love & spoil me
Just a simple man wanting love without the games or mixed signals
just wanna be corny around the right one just to make her giggle
This ******* lifestyle was cool but there’s still something missing
the love of a woman that wants all of my love & attention
I tried living the life as other men but I found no excitement
but when a woman request the love of my heart, it’s all silence
Don’t know if I’ve been hurt too much or rather not waste my time
cause I keep meeting girls with different zodiac signs
So tell me what’s a man to do when he’s ready to settle down
tired of missing a Queen’s love & falling for the lust waiting to be found
You live & your learn, my old ways taught me that pleasure can’t fill the void
of real love that my heart is waiting to enjoy

As you grow up into a lady, it’s my job to teach you the right lessons
How to carry yourself in a respective direction & grow into perfection
I never had my father around, but you won’t know what that’s like
Cause I’m gonna be there way before you arrive & so those tears I won’t have to wipe
I want you to look at your mother, see what being a Woman really means
How to respect yourself & never let a man treat you like you don’t have any dignity
You’ll always be my baby girl, nothing in this world could ever replace that
Always look to the future, don’t you ever for a second look back
You’re gonna meet guys in your life that’s gonna try to break your heart
Do whatever they can to come around & tear you apart
But I’m gonna teach you how to stand strong when life tries to trip you
You’re amazing beyond measure, don’t let a man treat you like you’re see through
The only acceptance you need is from you, that's true indeed
Never let your crown tilt over & never let a man break what you inspire to be
Baby Girl you’re a blessing & I refuse to let a man treat you any less
You got your whole life ahead of you, don’t let these boys cause you any stress
I’m gonna direct in the right path so you’ll never be misleaded
Teach you how to read the fine print, looks can be very deceiving
Never stoop low & use your body just to get attention
If he can’t see you for what you are then that’s a blessing that he’s missing
You’re a Queen in your own right, don’t tolerate bs from no clown
Cause all you need is yourself, you don’t need a man to hold you down

Am I a poet or am I crazy? For trying to bring change to his world
My poems beg those to help me from myself that’s caught up in this dark world
Am I a poet or am I dreaming? Guiding those like me to the light
Inside is where we’re heard screaming as we struggle to keep the fight
against ourselves when we battle with my demons
while telling ourselves that we’re Light & breaking down when our hearts end up leaving
Am I a poet or just crazy for trying to do what my heart feels within
one foot on the bright side & the other in the darkness where I make most of my friends
cause I see myself inside of them when I see that depression ripping them into
a million pieces & they only see the person society shows them when they look in the mirrors view
So am I a poet or am I just another writer on a mission
without throwing a penny into the well, I’m here wishing
for a brighter future for those just like me
guiding a line of overlooked angels who inspire to be great just like me
- Poetic Venom

I cry in its arms & vent everything I feel
no doctor but my deepest wounds, it heals
Always there when needed, never turning its back
the greatest thing I’ve ever loved & that’s a fact
I don’t depend or count on much
but one thing’s for sure
this bond we share is beyond pure
Pretty eyes, warming smiles all let me down
but words always find me when I don’t want to be found
Pretty Little Liars with dreams turned into nightmares
don’t have faith in much but Poetry Never Broke My Heart
- Poetic Venxm

I’ve written my whole life in words
over 1,900+ poems to date
but what’s a poet to do
when he’s run out of things to say  - Pencasso

I’m praying for a star, no matter how far you are
whether you’re full of tears or skin full of scars
whether you’re drowning thru the music or dreaming in your diary
whether you’re lost in reality, just know you inspire me
whether you’re struggling with addiction or praying to end your days
if you don’t feel loved, I love you but let me explain the ways
You don’t see that you’re fighter cause the pain is overwhelming
but you’re still here to see another day, another chance of prevailing

You’re the Star that I see whenever I look into the sky
lost with inspiration to do what I love but I then hear your cry
listening to your tears when you don’t understand why
why does life have to be this way or why you feel worthless
pressured by the society around you just to be perfect
So I pray for this star, that’s more than what you are

You’re precious but even my words leave you unconvinced
you’ve been destroyed by love & haven’t been the same since
a solid one that’s for sure but you’re often unappreciated
feeling like a source of lust cause most love these days are undedicated
it’s sad that the only love you’ve ever known was abuse
verbally & physically with unprovoked rage used as an excuse
you cook, you clean, then deal with all the toxicity from the outside world
doing wifely things for a man when you’re not even his girl
hurts my heart to watch a masterpiece often sit silently while she suffers
cause she knows is broken promises, blocked calls, & broken rubbers
rain on me, put your pain on me, you feel lost & lonely
wanted love in the highest quality to only become another body
You’re way too **** precious to let men treat you so ugly
delivered love on time, every time in the highest quality
a diamond in the rough that’s been ignored a little too much
a treasure for a king that should be treated as such
so forgive me on behalf of all those who disregarded your value
an high quality object but most have only degraded its volume

That whole night was amazing, spending time with a female friend before sexing her crazy
Pulled up for a night out, went to the movies, & grab food I was feeling her maybe
Stopped at this lake to end the night out as we cuddled in my backseat
Watching the stars dance across the sky while listening to some 90’s R&B
Right before I realized it, our lips would touch
I pulled her on top of me then I felt this sudden rush
I haven’t been in action for a long time & my hormones are raging
I’m taking her clothes off as my heartbreak keeps racing
My heart’s telling me to stop while I’m ahead but my head & body say keep going
And how could I resist the lust from the emotions to which she’s showing
So there I am on top of her kissing her from the lips all the down to her thighs
Putting my tongue to good use while the excitement lights up her eyes
I climb back on top of her, slowly work my way in as she gasps her air
Telling me I’m the biggest she’s had & the previous love interest doesn’t compare
The windows begin to fog up, we begin to sweat, & I’m just cruising my way inside her body
Doing all the moves I’ve seen in explicit movies as I get a little cocky
An hour & a half of ****** acts go by then we conclude the experience
We get dressed but judging by the look in her eye, I can tell she was delirious
I dropped her off, kissed her lips, then she tells me she loves me & was rather serious
Fast forward almost a year later after conversations died down
I’m still texting her to make sure she’s ok due to personal issues at home
She’s getting ready to move away from the nest to be out all on her own
Then something tells me to check her Facebook page & there I see
A beautiful baby girl but I’m questioning if it really looks like me
Biracial with beautiful eyes & a beautiful smile, I can’t believe it
Is this bundle of joy mine? When did she even conceive it?
I’m blowing up her phone with a million questions but she’s not telling me no
Beating around the bush with speculations about that night we shared
Got me pacing me back & forth out of excitement but a little scared
Loving her wasn’t a mistake but the fear of the kid growing up like me
In 2 different households by 2 parents who barely know each other, this isn’t like me
I’m not sure if she’s been with someone else after me but she strongly denies it
Told her if it’s proven to be my daughter then I’ll definitely provide care for it
So I asked one last time if the baby’s mine then she says it’s her little cousin
Birthed by her guardian aunt then my heart stops rushing
Telling me if I was the father then she would’ve told me if she was pregnant
Saying she loves me too much to throw that on me unexpected
And that she loves me too much not to allow me to be the father I’m meant to be
I deserve the most beautiful family I can create that’s a reflection of me
Hopefully when that times does come, I’ll be a married man & financially stable
Not afraid to raise em better than me or to raise them in a world that can be cold & fatal

✰ Poetic Venom ✰

She Said;
What if I pulled a you on you?
What if I made you feel just as amazing as you make me do?
What if I made you feel like the King I see?
What if I gave you everything in me just like you do for me?
What if I eliminated all those doubts you had about love
& loved you regardless of the flaws you try to get me to judge
I’ve dealt with the wrong types all my life til' you came along
& made me feel like I’m above the clouds like I can’t do no wrong
When I was crying, you made me feel like your arms is where I belong
& when I thought I was weak, you made me feel like I was strong
So what if I pulled a You on You just to show you what that feeling is like
when you’ve found that One to make your world complete & ignite that light
that’s been faded out for so long to soon become afraid of the light
until something came along to remove that dark moon that provided darkness
which eventually made the sweetest heart go from being lovely to heartless
You need to know what it feels like to be appreciated, because just like me
you’ve given your everything several times but you still feel incomplete
Maybe then you’ll see the man that I see whenever I stare into your eyes
& there’s a beautiful creation within the beautiful disaster that deceives the eyes
- Poetic Venom

This is crazy, I found me a lady
on some Jodeci vibes, Forever My Lady
Her smile alone keeps driving me crazy
fooled by the hype, thank goodness you saved me
I’m only trying to be King, we can wait later for the baby
cause I wanna see you walk down that aisle
& call you my wife before making a child
a rare breed that doesn’t come around too often
more than a Queen, a real life Goddess walking
If you were to walk away, I’d lose the better half of me
me deceiving you, that’s blasphemy
Too many good ones get left behind or used for selfish reasons
but this world wouldn’t be sh*t if you were to leave it
That’s why I salute you to the highest power
there’s no better love in this universe that I desire
- Poetic Venom

It’s days like this;
where I love being laid up next to you
legs around my waist, arms around my stomach
no better feeling than being close to you

It’s the feeling I can’t explain;
when I’m staring into your eyes
kissing your forehead & lips
as I blush whenever your smile replies

Yea, it’s days like this;
when I fall deeper in love than I was before
enjoying every second spent with you
which makes me want you more & more

Rainy Days;
I wish they never go away
I wish for a sunny day delay
& for these Rainy Days to replay

I juggle with the thoughts of retirement then watch people look at me crazy
then I listen to em when they ask “Dre, are you crazy?”
It’s your words & stories that get me thru the pain daily
& I get it but these stories aren’t exactly the key that I need to save me
I’m able to save y’all from your pain but I’m a pro at neglecting myself
plus I never imagined being here, poetry was therapy for myself
I did what I never thought I could do & what I thought I never would do
& although y’all mean the world to me, maybe this is what I should do
I take many breaks thru the year just to live life not only to learn from experiences
but to study myself from different characteristics
I prayed about saving a few lives with my words, I’ve saved many
prayed about guiding a few to a new light, I’ve guided plenty
so even if I do reach the highest level of this gift, what’s left for me to enjoy?
Especially when I’m barely happy & self destruction is the main thing I can’t avoid
I always ask myself, what would y’all do if you never discovered my passion for this
What would you do if you never met me or if you never saw talent in this
guy who’s just like you that you look so highly up to
salute like he’s a God when he’s nowhere close to being above you
A part of me doesn’t wanna quit but a part of me wants to throw in the towel
just to see the admirers give me a standing ovation & take a bow
I’m just a King still on the search for his crown
as I unknowingly lead others to better days while I’m slowly breaking down
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

She came around at a time when i wasn’t myself
moving around like the rest but i had no love for myself
She graced me with a smile and that i never took the time to cherish
& gave me her heart that i refused to cherish
Silly me, silly me. A good woman on my arms that i took for granted
& breaking her heart was a terrible thing to manage
cause down the road, i realized what i did ... how selfish of me
to break something so precious when it could’ve been the best of me
Here i am living the life of a bachelor while stringing her along
proving the stereotype of men & singing the same old song
of someone who’s tired of being hurt when I’m no better
The Right Girl at the Wrong Time, i should’ve loved her better
They say things get better with time but this time, it only got worse
cause the love i had to offer at the time was nothing short of a curse
I can’t even justify my actions cause what i did was wrong
made a good woman doubt herself cause she placed her all where it didn’t belong
Why’d it have to be me? The one to destroy something rare & sweet
She only wanted to love me but my love made her feel incomplete
- Poetic Venom

When you met me, I guess it was kinda like dreams becoming reality
Falling hard over my ways even tho we’re not near each other locality
You were used to those guys who played these games
Then met me on accident then everything suddenly changed
In my mind, I was afraid it wouldn’t get anywhere so I backed up
Started to focus more on me & trying to get my stacks up
Nevertheless, I was still giving you most of my attention
Spending hours on the phone like I wanted but still, something was missing
I began questioning myself like it wasn’t really me that you desired
Like I was missing a key element that your love truly required
We both been thru the worst so I hope you don’t blame me for my decision
Your heart tried talking to me but my ego wouldn’t let me listen
Trying not to be like the rest but didn’t wanna be fooled either
Tried pushing you away but you insisted on falling even deeper
I guess the saying is true, you’ll lose something before you appreciate it
I acted like someone I didn’t recognize & now I really hate it
I wanna right my wrongs but now, I know it’s too late
I may never have you again but I still care of whether your heart is safe
If there is a way to right my wrongs, fill me in
Deep down, you’re still a blessing that I’m once again trying to win
I’m a fool & stupid for letting you go then watching you leave
You tried showing me something different but I was in disbelief
Time will tell down the road if this becomes what it was supposed to be
But until that time arrives, I’m forced to sit back & watch you fly

It’s been weighing heavy on my mind for quite some time
about getting those roses when it’s my time
I’ve seen many go way too soon & the respect they’re given
watching as roses fill their resting grounds & their spirits being risen
As I cry for those souls, only one thing jogs on my mind
if they were still here, would they get those roses in time
Why does an untimely demise have to be the key for appreciation
folks wanting to say they love you but there’s such hesitation
Then I think about myself & the things I’ve done for those I care for
do i have to pass away before they tell me they love me forevermore
I only see roses raining when the sky opens up its invitation
for the next spirit to come in for the next spiritual destination
I don’t wanna cry just to get a warming hug
I don’t want to fight for my life before receiving real love
I don’t wanna hear you telling me you love me once I’m in the sky
cause those roses will be meaningless once my time runs dry
- Poetic Venxm

While I’m alive & well, I don’t feel the appreciation that one should feel
when he places everyone before him, it’s only a heart being killed
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep asking if life is worth living anymore
cause I look around & don’t see fit to be around anymore
So many tears I’ve cried but my scream for help has yet to be heard
pleading for peace but my world feels too disturbed
So much love will be shared that I’ll never hear
but it’s sad how my homegoing will be the only time they’ll ever feel sincere
I know that once my time has come & it’s time for me to leave
you’ll then see so many fall to their knees
crying those everlasting tears as they realize what’s to come
a world without yours truly & the guilt of what they’ve done
& when the rain comes down on the day I’m sent home
it won’t be from the crying skies but from my sorrowed eyes
while the doves of heaven take my soul through the stormy sky
- Poetic Venom

Ladies, I have a question. Maybe you can help me understand
How y’all claim to be heartless but lowkey desiring a man
I get that you’re paranoid & tired of being heartbroken
Dismissing every man that approaches you asking your heart to open
Not gonna argue with your reasons, in fact I agree
But in a bunch of phonies, there’s always a King looking for that key
So used to peasants that you can’t recognize a real one in your presence
All you know is hurt so you curve any man even if he’s not your preference
Thinking every guy is full of himself & do what the last man did
Making every man suffer from the mistakes of the previous man’s bid
During the day, you front the mask of savage just to keep guys away
But at night you’re in your feelings wishing a man would love you the right way
Seeing other girls cuffed up & inside it makes you jealous
Cause you wanna be loved even tho you front to be careless
Pretending to be a savage? Please, stop the charade
Still attached to that infamous broken record & it’s devastating serenade
False savages protecting something like it’ll forever be shattered
Never wanting to love again like every man’s love comes with a hazard
Stopping playing the savage, we all know you want true love
Not saying you shouldn’t protect your heart but don’t every man pay for the mistakes of your last love
Love can be beautiful once you meet the perfect one that defines it
Your heart will feel like a treasure once the right one finds it
If you go as hard for a King as you do for a peasant, Love will be a Blessing
But if you continue to impersonate a savage when you lowkey wanna be love then your nights will forever be depressing

I know you see me as your hero without a cape, just poetic powers
The one you come to that helps you blossom into that unique flower
Every day you reach out for my hand to be your guidance
Trusting me with your darkest confessions with faith of keeping it private
You could’ve turned to needles, drugs, or even self harm yet you turn to me
With hopes that I’ll be the one that’ll forever set you free

The words my heart writes save you from going off the deep end
Maybe I failed to realize that my art is your only friend
I used art as a way of expression never knowing the impact behind the concepts
It was a substitution to keep me from using that sharp silver object
That makes you bleed when it dances across your skin
When it hears the rainfall of your tears caused by the hurt from false friends
Keeping me from sober so I wouldn’t have to make out with that bottle
That makes me drowsy to the point where I slip into this world
Where I’m looking at myself fall apart unable to shake away my demons
That convince to drown in that pool of substance from my life’s bleeding
So here I am trying to keep you from going to that world where it’s impossible to come back
From knowing that it keeps a hold on you & knows how to knock you off track
Let my pain guide you to the light so you won’t make the same mistakes as me
And you too can seek a better way to peace to which that world doesn’t want you to see

- Poetic Venom

our love formed in the midst
of falling leaves
warm afternoons &
cold nights
it’s winter where my heart is
but paradise when in your
presence

the sun shined bright as a
diamond but it couldn’t
spring into a Summers June
love built for a cooling March
but still December’s freezing
falling in love
when we’re outta season

bonding beautifully but
more perfect apart
more dysfunctional than
Carolina weather
we’re unsure if we wanna rain
or shine
capture love in the heat or fall
apart like October’s leaves  -king pencasso

I see you falling head over heels for a man that’s not me
Feeling my heart shattered to pieces cause your love doesn’t want me
Ring finger glowing & you’re scared to be honest with me
You’re moving on to someone else, I guess you’re done with me
Thinking about it now, I know it’s a waste to say
That I should’ve loved you better but my pride got in the way
I realize this is the end & there’s no fixing what’s broken
Gotta take the high road & deal with these depressing emotions
The truth still remains that I love you more than you’ll ever know
But I hate the fact that I’m forced to let go
Heart’s breaking even more, the one I love no longer loves me
And the thought of you saying I Do to someone else just stuns me
Although our journey has come to an end
I just wanna see you happy & a new life begin
I won’t lie, I’m losing focus knowing you’re comfortable without me
My love made you feel incomplete, quality was very lousy
We used to be inseparable but things have sadly changed
Went from being a fairytale to being overly deranged
Does he hold like he never wants to let you go?
Does he kiss like he’s ready to feel that love flow?
If I had one wish then the old days would be gone
And we’d be in love once more where we originally begun
Miss your kiss, miss your touch, now it belongs to someone else
But I’ll see you around & hopefully there’s still a little love left

Every time I think of you, I feel this thunderstorm in my soul
trying to get move on from this tragedy but unsure where to go
When someone brings up your name, I start to lose it
you’ve had this hold on my heart & I’m struggling trying to lose it
I can’t even let my ego take over when my soul cries
knowing that someone else is enjoying your vibes
I wanted to be your everything & build us a home
but I can’t believe that I got nothing after waiting for so long
A man doesn’t settle down too often & he doesn’t do half the things I did
candle lit showers, rose petals on the floor, or even fathering another man’s child
I know I’m an amazing man but you made me feel worthless
especially after making me feel like what we had was so perfect
Can’t stand the sound of your name & it kills me knowing your face is stuck in my head
crying myself to sleep knowing I wish it was me sharing your bed
This was supposed to be my Meant to Be but I guess I’m meant to be free
free from your love, free from your vibes, free from the thought of you & me
-Poetic Venom

- Instagram @venomwrld

I’ve been looking for love in temporary places where it can’t be found
Looking for that loyalty with one night stands that couldn’t hold me down
Love making all over the bedroom except the one place where it should be
Falling for the same temptation that I hoped wouldn’t catch me
Charming whoever falls for it knowing what we have won’t last long
Walking away after making love knowing it’s not where my heart belongs
Making love to you vs them is different when it’s passionate between us
I’m doing all this casual hookups knowing your heart breaking is my weakness
For the longest, I’ve been blind by the temptations of love that I ignored
The main one that my heart became attached to adored
*** Ain’t Better Than Love but I needed to feel the void of being alone
Knowing that I was out there by myself & wasn’t ready to establish a home
A boy can’t be a man when he’s too busy still trying to live immaturely
Seeking something pleasuring yet short lived cause he hasn’t learned to love fully
Not sure what the objective was but no source of happiness was discovered
Thought I was looking out for myself when in reality, my heart’s the one that suffered
I guess one must be foolish before he realizes when a true love isn’t present
Making all the right mistakes before he starts to truly miss the perfect blessing
I’ve been sexually attached to a few but there’s nothing like falling for what’s yours
Knowing that the greatest feeling in the world is the love that’s made to be just for you

                                               - Pencasso

Left alone on her own since she arrived in this world
tears tell the story of a heart broken & forsaken girl
No one ever cared for her, everyone left after a while
never knew her real family, she was an abandoned child
It brings me to tears whenever I look into her eyes
to be left in a world so cold & yet, She Rise

Her story inspires me to be all I can be
with my back against the wall & nobody rooting for me
You can’t ignore the strength of a Queen who did it all by herself
fallen angel but slowly building an empire with every shattering step
She Rise

Her tears maybe invisible to some but her struggle is remarkable
to overcome so much to become a force that’s unstoppable
Yea her life maybe a stormy night of rhythm & blues
but her statement of dominance, not many could walk a mile in her shoes
She Rise

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

The singing caged bird tells the story of a woman suffering from loss, not a family member or friend but how she lost herself within her own love.
Selfless with a heart of gold built in this structure that's damaged product of a fatherless empire, forced to grow up faster than most Fantasies of the better side of life living thru pics attached to her wall seeking the ability to one day fly but setbacks altered her image above all
Sure, she's a beauty to look at but past abuse won't let her see her true worth
she's capable of love but rejects it cause she's never had love that didn't hurt yet she still fights with the hopes of one day becoming free to fly once & for all
break away from the statistics of her reality to become something more powerful

... that's why this caged bird continues to sing

I spend most of my nights staring at my computer screen
Letting my heart write its emotions while my soul screams
Love songs on blast & guess who’s on my mind
Got me thinking about her, desiring her free time
I’ve done enough crying over you, all those tears have dried up
Now it’s all inspiring me to write this much & my thoughts are fired up
Look at what you did to me with all these emotions coming outta me
Still missing your body in my arms & your kisses laying next to me
Cause I know when it comes to that masterpiece
It’s your love that has the perfect recipe
I’m Sleepless because of you, listening to love songs because of you
I guess you still don’t understand how much I love you
You’re inspiring all these poems I’m writing
And all these emotions that I’m constantly fighting
Pacing back & forth, trying my best not to cry
Barely connected with my best friend & I don’t even know why
You bring out the best in me but without you, I’m hopeless
Just vampire during the night time trying to stay focus
Sleepless with a heart that has a thousand things to say
Wishing to come back home & desperately trying to find a way

I know you suffer more dark days than sunshine
I know things seem to get worse over time
I know your heart seems to get broken all the time
But smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for the dark days won’t last forever
Smile for the pain will make you better
Smile for you’re remarkable beyond measure
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile for those tears will soon stop flowing
Smile for your presence that’ll soon start glowing
Smile for the end is nowhere in sight
Smile for your future is bright
Smile little Miss Sunshine

Smile, you’re worth more than you realize
Smile, wipe those tears from your eyes
Smile, though your heart’s been brutalized
Smile little Miss Sunshine

I know there’s a woman out there right now crying her eyes out
Gave her all to a fool & he just let her down
I know she gotta be feeling like she’ll never be good enough
Like she’ll never meet a man that’s loyal enough
Another sleepless night, another case of deja vu
Thinking what she did to deserve the pain he put her through
She never had real love, only met fools who wanted her goodies
Pretending to be a King when he’s only sweet talking to get her cookies
Here we go once again, your heart suffered another tragedy
Getting shot down by love again, facing another sad reality
I can hear your heart crying & it makes me cry when I listen
Hearing the things it’s experiencing & steady thinking something’s missing
You wanna be loved but *** seems like the only thing that we really seek
Feeding you a bunch of lies & never practice what we preach
I know you must feel like it’s end of the world & you’re single forever
But somebody’s gonna love day & treat you 10x better
I know you’re tired of the games that us men are always running
Beating around the bush fronting like we don’t want nothing
I hear those tears you cry, that’s I wrote this letter
Somebody’s gonna love you one day & become your Forever
Every mistake in love has a lesson to teach
This clowns aren’t the one for you, that’s why they got impeached
Somebody’s gonna love you, just gonna take time before you find em
Loving you isn’t gonna easy but you gotta take the time to guide em
I know you feel like you ain’t good enough & that I understand
You’re mixed up in a society where there’s more players than man
So used to the clowns that a real man just might scare you
All these lessons love’s teaching you are only gonna prepare you
For when you finally meet the one then your world begins to light up
Love is getting your perfect match ready so please never give up
Somebody’s gonna love you & I know that’s hard to believe
But when the right one comes, no matter how hard loving you may seem, they’ll never leave

Sometimes I break down when  I realize
That most of my life has left me traumatized
Never could accept the way I was created
Only wishing that one day, my presence starts fading

Sometimes I break down when I see
The person I’m supposed to be
But held back by fear & self doubt
I remain that forbidden soul lost within the cloud

Sometimes I break down from false happiness & lying
How I struggle from crying
Knowing that the pain is overwhelming but I carry the weight
Of being the one to hold it all together but at the end of the day
who’s gonna be the one to stop me from feeling this way

P e n c a s ******>

I hear Voices in my Head

during the Edge of Destruction

when I’m feeling like a Monster

& maybe it’s the Way I Am

for showing No Love

to those who’ve made me
Heartless  -Pencasso

lately I’ve been feeling SAD!

& i Fall Apart even on good days

sometimes life can be like
the Matrix

deja vu & insomnia, i just wanna
Sleep

cause it feels like I’m Moving Mountains

i save those around me but i can’t
Save Myself

but i guess it’s true what they say
everybody dies in their nightmares   - Pencasso

I feel like I’m Stuck on Stupid

whenever I’m With You

& although I’m the birth child of
Cupid

i try to be the Best Man I Can Be

& it’s Simply Amazing

cause All I Want is You my
Sweet Lady

& All My Life I’ve prayed for

that Angel of Mine, my
Cherie Amour  -Pencasso

Right now I’m empty
not sure what I’m feeling
I wanna love you
but i need healing

Can’t have you loving me
when I’m currently lost
trying to find myself
but don’t give up on me

If you feel pushed away
please stay
be patient & don’t
take your love away

This isn’t me, it’s the pain
I don’t even smile the same
I’ve fallen apart but i can’t
ask you to repair me

In due time, I’ll return
to give you what you deserve
the real me, that pure gold heart
i just need space for a fresh start  - pencasso

It’s been a while since I’ve had that feeling
It’s been a while since we’ve given each other ****** healing
I haven’t seen that smile in a long time
been too long since you’ve shared your time with mine
We’ve known each other for this long & I still think you deserve better
simply because I’m not perfect on that attractive scale but we’ve manage to stay together
Style like no other, smile like no other
but thru it all, you still continue to treat me as if I’m your lover
I’ve been flying in this sky alone for way too long
to not have the queen eagle up here to fly along
I’m struggling to fight temptation cause I can’t let go of you
bugging out at the sound of your name when deep down, I still love you
I’m hard headed & stubborn, refusing to take no for answer
to hell with all these distractions, you’re my only dancer
No Rose Royce but here I am, wishing on a star
hoping to grasp your glow no matter how far
I thought I was lonely when you were around but your absence makes it clear
that I’m far from complete without you being here
One last memory together could be the key we need to fly again
to see our love light up the sky like the 4th of July, forever my friend
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I admire you for having a huge heart, it takes a lot of courage
I just wonder how you’re able to bounce back without being discouraged
Been cheating on countless times & it never seems to get better
Just attached to another fool who swears he’s gonna treat you better
Lied to more times than you can count, looking like a fool in the end
Still holding on although loving you is not what they intend
Gotten attached but still managed to be left aside for someone else
Tried giving your heart but it always seems to fail
Riding the wave of being in love only to be dropped without explanations
You wanting to make things work but there’s a lack of communication
Here you are now, still trying to love as if none of that ever occurred
Still trying to fall in love even if the same type of love isn’t being returned
I know you ask yourself if it’s something that you maybe missing
Crying your long nights away being sleepless & reminiscing
Do you not fear the same thing happening once more?
Feeling a little empty & sometimes wishing you could’ve done more?
I know it must take a lot for someone to love again & fear being hurt
Be treated for less than what they truly deserve
Don’t you fear those tears falling again or a repeat of your heart breaking?
To make someone your one & only but your heart ends up being forsaking?
Still trying to love as if that heart break wasn’t devastating
Never wanting to be alone & eager to love although your heart’s still rehabilitating
For you to still wanna be someone’s all, just know that I salute you
And I strongly apologize for all those whose love didn’t nothing but abuse you

Poetic Venom

I used to get high to get over you, drinking just to **** the pain
Crying my nights away, my tears became the rain
Smiling on the outside but falling apart on the inside
Laughing like I’m okay but the obvious I couldn’t hide
I hated the thought of you but always ran back to it
Holding on to what was no more making myself look stupid
How could one person make me feel this empty again?
Gave her everything in me & still it was a battle I couldn’t win
Wanted to fix things but you made it obvious that it was too late
Thoughts of you every day, heavy tears on display
Tearing myself apart & desperately trying to end my days
I needed you to show me something but didn’t
So I chose to drink to **** your memories & say good riddance
Haven’t been that depressed since 2009 & feared this deja vu
Felt so attached to someone whose love seemed so true
Wanted to be more than your King & more than your dream come true
More than a fantasy & more than someone who means the world to you
Taking away the love of my life caused me to lose control
Falling off track & allowing the poison to please my soul
So much hate towards you trying to destroy any memory of you
Just allowing the hell within to **** the very thought of you

How could I be so foolish? Let love make me out to be so stupid?
Trying to save a love that’s already beyond ruined
I saw the actions loud & clear but me being so naive
I refuse to think she was like the rest, that I wouldn’t believe
I didn’t think she would play me especially since I’m “different”
thought she’d do right by someone who loved her dearly but I was tripping
We were supposed to share something magical but the chemistry was missing
Silly me, trying to love someone whose focus was to play games
& break any heart she comes across, she’s of no shame
I had it coming all because I’ve gained such a soft spot for her
trying to bring her into my world but evil has a hold on her
Used to the guys who only intend to use her for pleasure
take advantage of a golden heart, tear it apart, then struggle to place it back together
But I can’t say that I blame her, she’s never had that real love before
never had anyone around her that tried to love her forever
Real love is a scary thing when you don’t know if the one who gives it
is actually in it for the long haul or just using you to pass time
& I was unfortunate enough to pay for the mistakes done from the past crimes
Never been a sucker for love until I met her, I now see how deep love can be
when you’re trying to see a love fly but it won’t bother to be free
She took that trust & made me believe she was for real
only to realize that she was only luring in hearts for the ****

Poetic Venom

I was having a bad day, thinking about my past & future
Thinking about my talent not taking me anywhere, still end up being a loser
I came home from work, took a shower, then started listening to music
I grabbed a bottle of ***** with a hand full of pills contemplating something stupid
Only thing on my mind at the time was either going missing or dying
And the one person I reached out to for advice wasn’t replying
Few hours roll by but I still haven’t made a decision
Just waiting for the depression & anger to make a collision
Almost to the bottle of the bottle with 5 pills in my system
Listening to the voices in my head & their evil filled wisdom
I get up from my bed, walked to the bathroom, & stared into the mirror
Seeing the hell on both shoulders, the message is becoming clearer
Pills aren’t doing any justice, I’m just turning into a zombie
Washing my sorrows down my throat with this dark cloud above me
It’s now 3am & I’m on the floor with a butcher’s knife in my hand
Holding it next to my neck feeling like the world will never understand
How I can feel so alone sometimes or feel unappreciated
Trying to do right but all I’ve ever felt was hatred
I placed the knife on my wrist then began to cut just a bit
Still following the voices in my head telling me I’ll never be ****
Move the knife slowly right before they tell me don’t quit
Oops there it goes, a little bit of blood dripping from my wrist
If that was so easy, let me aim at my throat again
“Do it Dre, this world is better off without you. Face it, you won’t win.”
Supplying pressure but still no movement to cut
All the motivation to die when I look at myself feeling such disgust
Right before I proceed to slash myself, I then receive a message
Showing me the love I’ve been ignoring & how I’m a blessing
I wipe the tears from my eyes, stand up, & realize how selfish I became
Trying to **** myself over a group of people who don’t even care to know my name
“Dre, you’re an amazing gift to those without a voice”
“If you leave, who else is gonna be the perfect versatile voice”
“You gotta chance here to do something bigger than your wildest dreams”
“So I encourage you to stand up, dust yourself off, & chase your dreams”
I look at myself in the mirror once more, told the Devil he can’t have me
Proceeded to the toilet & threw up all the pills used trying to drag me
“I’ll no longer give the enemy any power over me, I will have self control”
“I will be Great at what I do by any means. I shall not end this road”
Drop my knees & told God that I’m eternally grateful
And no more shall I continue to please the ungrateful
Thank you for turning me around from the wrong direction I was headed
And thank you for always keeping my soul protected