In the beginning, they ask you the same thing
all these empty promises that don’t mean a thing
Conversations about everybody that left them
but hope that you will accept them
heard the words “I love you” more than enough
confide in them because they’re the ones I can trust
but here’s the craziest part of all
they all left with me standing alone after helping them crawl
there was never any love, I was a stepping stool
investing real love like I always do cause I’m a fool
everybody isn’t the same, that’s what they say
but I see no differences just the same games they play
Granted, I’ve had my fair share of breaking hearts
situationships ending with me walking away, I played my part
but when I chose to love I was met with the same outcome
& people question why I always tend to doubt them
Love was always given out, way more than I gave myself
with my only regret being the lack of love for myself

What happened to us? How did we get here?
All this fighting & I’m feeling like the ending is near
I’ve stuck around more than I needed to
& waited around because I thought I needed you
I’m a man of little faith but I believed in you
I guess 1+1 just doesn’t make 2
but what am I to do when all I wanted was you
only to be left behind while he falls for you
Death race for love but somehow we made the wrong turn
you’re close to the finish line while I’ve crashed & burned
All is fair in Love & War, I’m the only one without an armor on
willing to die for you, the pain I wasn’t running from
You ask what are we fighting for but here’s what you don’t understand
I can’t just sit back to watch you love another man
justifying your lies trying to get me to understand
that sometimes things happen & this love wasn’t planned
so you put on this act as if you can feel me dying inside
but the truth of the matter is, you drug me right thru all your lies
And in case you failed to see the memo or maybe I’m misunderstood
this becomes strike 3, which means we’re done for good
- Poetic Venom

Love is Pain, Love is Hell
Love is finding that feeling that has yet to prevail
Love is Tears, Love is Horror
Love is the one thing we all want but remains undiscovered
Love is Depression, Love is Loneliness
Love is having those Hands of Love catch you when you reach your lowest
Love is Smiles, Love is Sadness
Love is that one drug with many side effects but everyone has to have it
Love is Heartbreak, Love is the Crying Rains
Love is the Midnight Thoughts & the Tears flowing down the Soul’s Window Pane
Love is the Tears of Joy, Love is the Dreams we get lost in
Love is either a Dream Come True or our Worst Nightmare
Love is the one thing in this world we hope to obtain although having causes a scare

Poetic Venom

I Am You;
right there going thru the similar storm
trying not to quit
& sometimes wishing I wasn't born

I Am You;
sleepless nights, crying the night away
blaming myself
fighting for those who don't wanna stay

I Am You;
sometimes wishing I could die
overwhelmed by the pain
wanting to know how it feels to fly

I Am You;
looking to escape from the hell around me
feeling alone
& shut down from the society that surrounds me

- Poetic Venxm

tired of being tired

tired of crying

tired of feeling unappreciated

tired of wanting to disappear

tired of wanting to die

tired of being frustrated

tired of being sick & tired

It’s not about the *** or the love making but about the connection
when we share our love & get lost within the expression
just the idea of alone of sitting down without any interruptions
understanding one another to avoid any future dysfunction
we both want the same thing & both share the same passion
of bonding thru vibes, sharing tears of feelings, or even laughing
the closer I get to you, the more you make me feel
shocked with excitement with the peace that you don’t conceal
like I’m on top of the world with nothing else mattering much
with the electricity in the air lighting up the room even without a touch
it’s the smallest gestures that make the biggest impact
something that can’t be explained & can surely never be matched
for whether we talk throughout the night or just sit within the silence
with you, I can never feel like I’m off course cause you are my balance
Love, Peace, Comfortability, & butterflies is what we feel inside
but that’s what happens when 2 rare & unique souls collide

I’m not the strongest but I’m far from the weakest
I know there’s a light of happiness & I desperately seek it
Rebuking the Devil every chance I get
for trying to make me off myself but I can’t quit
God gave me a purpose & I’m doing my best to fulfill it
for every broken soul I come across, I’m the one to heal it
But I ask you, how I be the hero if I need the saving
I try to live my best but death had a feeling I was craving
Maybe it was the peace that came attached with it
maybe it was the feeling of closure that I was feeling
I ask myself, who are you to feel extraordinary
only to look at yourself like you’re just ordinary
The light’s been around the whole time, your eyes were just closed
your capabilities as a man could be unmatched but you may never know
how your impact would be if you’re too afraid to take that path
if you keep allowing the fear to hold you back cause you think they may laugh
at a gifted young King who desires to bring change or make a difference
cause he knows that those who bring change, only decease within a time’s distance
- Poetic Venom

Back at one from being over & done
under your moonlight with me as the sun
Watching the glow from far away
awaiting my time to make a play
to win your heart & marry your soul
with one shot to score my last goal

Back at one from where the chapter never ended
falling in love still, only from a respected distance
You smile not the same but we know why
when you smile now, it’s followed by a cry
in your heart where I once reside
around your spirit & forever by your side
- Poetic Venxm

I may not be The One to make you a wife

I just happen to be unfortunate enough to be apart of your life

- Poetic Venom

I want more than just a pretty face
I want more than just a curvy waist
I want more than just some pretty eyes
I want a heart that can’t be replaced
I don’t want what every other man has been inside
I don’t want something just to be pushed to the side
I need that type of woman who carries pride in her stride
The type of woman that i can eventually turn into a bride
I don’t need that love that begins good but turns toxic
Don’t need that love that’s mainly involved around arguments
Want that type of love where she’s rooting for my accomplishments
The love where i build an empire with the same love i started wit
Want a woman with intelligence
Want a woman with class & integrity in her inheritance
I want more than just a freak in the sheets
Give me something to admire besides your lips or your cheeks
Be the woman that i can cuddle next to & be at peace
Rub my back or play with my hair, be my source for a stress relief
Be the woman that i can spoil with time, affection, & loyalty
Be the one thing that keeps me leveled when I’m rushing with anxiety
Be the guidance i need to stay on the right path & not break the sobriety
Be the sunshine of my life & grace me with that smile that i anticipate to see
Impress me with your mentality & the rareness in your individuality

Poetic Venom

Back down this road we go
reliving memories that nearly died long ago
Back in your arms I foolishly fall
back to love as we crawl

If this is what’s meant to be
let this be the last straw
for with you I feel free
from all faults & any flaw

It’s never a right time to say goodbye
& I know why you still cry
from the lack of love that made you fly
but in your heart forever is where I’ll reside
- Poetic Venxm

My wrongs have a list a mile long from where I’ve tried to correct my wrongs

in the many places of several hearts where a love like mine doesn’t belong

Broken many hearts that completely unintentional but what can you do

when we’re all playing games & their objective is to play you

Burned bridges along the way but they were already collapsing

& equipped with all the attachments that’s not everlasting

You’re precious but even my words leave you unconvinced
you’ve been destroyed by love & haven’t been the same since
a solid one that’s for sure but you’re often unappreciated
feeling like a source of lust cause most love these days are undedicated
it’s sad that the only love you’ve ever known was abuse
verbally & physically with unprovoked rage used as an excuse
you cook, you clean, then deal with all the toxicity from the outside world
doing wifely things for a man when you’re not even his girl
hurts my heart to watch a masterpiece often sit silently while she suffers
cause she knows is broken promises, blocked calls, & broken rubbers
rain on me, put your pain on me, you feel lost & lonely
wanted love in the highest quality to only become another body
You’re way too **** precious to let men treat you so ugly
delivered love on time, every time in the highest quality
a diamond in the rough that’s been ignored a little too much
a treasure for a king that should be treated as such
so forgive me on behalf of all those who disregarded your value
an high quality object but most have only degraded its volume

The tears of lost souls usually get overlooked or ignored by most which leads to the wandered travel dark paths that result in death or being empty

And they're further pushed to the edge when their pain becomes a comedy until they're gone then all rise the apologies which is only given to cover the negligence of those they're loved by

I see the carnage from a birds eye view hence why I write the way I do especially if it means there's light for a greater hope

I stand in the midst of cried rivers falling from the eyes of the misery that details the terror inherently within the world they were brought up in with the most of them losing friends & some seek the path of no return just waiting for their souls to burn in the war amongst ourselves

Why do we argue?
Why do we scream?
Why do we go back & forth?
I want you to go but don't want you to leave
I don't like to beg but I'm on my knees
You say it hurts you but it hurts me even more
give you love although I'm not in love anymore
we grew apart & the fighting tore us apart

Why do we argue?
Why do we fight?
I love you & you changed my life
but this love didn't feel fight
despite circumstances, the future was bright
but I don't think this love is the love of my life

The Beauty of Me goes deep but most men wouldn’t know where to begin
to them, I’m only a prize that they feel like they have to win
They look at the clothes I wear & the pride in my stride
or the presence so dominant & the confidence it has to provide

The Beauty of Me is more than just a cute face or curvy waist
more than just nice round hips or my physical attraction
more than just how my presence causes such a distraction
but to them, I’m mainly looked at as a one time experience of satisfaction

The Beauty of Me would be magical to the perfect King
he’ll take a look within the windows of my soul
he’ll see a Queen of Excellence whose not afraid to be alone
a Queen of a rare stature that’s strong enough to stand on her own

It’s more than the love I’m able to give or the heart I have to offer
it’s the vibe that can’t be found anywhere else
a woman who’s fearless & confident within herself
when the beauty enhancements fade, beauty will still exist
the Beauty of Me, can only come true to the perfect wish
-Poetic Venom

there is no voice

there is no expression

a world & heart that’s empty

I’d flatline

without it, i don’t exist

but most of all, I’d be no more   - Pencasso

We were meant to be, meant to be free
free from each other, free to love someone else
in the end, it’s just me
standing here alone questioning myself
As I say goodbye to that star in the sky
I ask why I cry or why I wasn’t meant to see it fly
so much time wasted, why did I still try
when it died years ago before my very eye
We’re meant to fall, fall right out of love
no longer friends going our separate ways
you’re happy with another lover
while I’m just here crying away my days
- Poetic Venom

Love isn’t just the thought that remains in mind
but the memories that still exist overtime
It’s the reason you stay up at night thinking of that one
who’s always there with open arms when there’s nowhere else to run
The touch of relief that caresses your heart with a simple rush
the thought of that special one that makes you endlessly blush
Drowning in the idea of building something with this new breath of energy
someone who’s gonna love you beyond your dreams & not become another enemy
For every second you’re in their presence, you fall 10x deeper
sweeping you off your feet, making you even weaker
For the love you’re experiencing that’s keeping your heart screaming loud
making that dream feel more like reality & keeping you in the clouds
It’s the arms wrapped around your body, the lips kissing you good night
the hand grasping your soul, the presence that’s making your glow shine bright
You can never see it coming or brace yourself fast enough to prepare
in fact it’s so real to where it may even cause an unexpected scare
The Love You Can’t Prepare For is something you can’t describe & something you’re afraid to accept
not knowing if it’s truly meant to be & a little nervous from not knowing what to expect
☆ Poetic Venxm ☆

I used to think it was my biggest loss in the world
to lose the one person that brought me into this world
but going back to think about it, you're the loser here
for walking away from a blessing with the pain being severe
never mind the issues with you & my mom, I'm not apart of that
you owe me enough to guide me thru life but avoided that
I can't understand the idea of not raising my seed
grooming him perfectly to be fit respectfully as a king
with some lessons being better taught by men
"I gave birth to you so it's my job to help you win"
not a single birthday card or phone call to be sent
just that $80 a week on child support spent
you loss out on a miracle, a blessing to be exact
making him grow to disliking you, you gotta live with that
used to be sorry for being your son but it's not me
to tell a dad about his responsibilities
you created a monster that turned into a gem
that soon a monster & slowly becoming HIM
hope you're proud of me dad cause I made it
I now love the creation that spent my life hating

Be a Better Man

I’m struggling trying to be a better man
explain my pain so my mom will understand
why her baby boy has felt alone for years
smiling in her face but inside I’m all tears
I’m depressed & a mess, yea i confess
I can’t go a day without being depressed
tried to overdose but it never would work
cause i can’t see my mom crying til her soul hurts
I got women coming in my life tryna show me affection
but I’m stuck in the past getting over aggression
from dealing with someone who i thought was a blessing
only to be left in the dirt, guess that’s where i was destined
for since I’m never placed first or at least second
Sleeping around just isn’t my thing, that’s only to hide the truth
& many say they want me but i never see the proof
I’m just tryna be a better man so my kids will understand
how their father made it thru hell & still here i stand
Not perfect by any means nor do i aim to be
just trying to do right & what’s best for me
Don’t wanna cry no more, don’t wanna fly no more
Don’t wanna hate myself, i just wanna love me more
And my apologies to the women who’ve tried their best to show me
that I’m an amazing guy, I’m learning now but slowly
see i was blinded by the pain so i only saw the flaws
so I’m catching myself, God please don’t let me fall
just show me the real me & heal me from what makes me feel empty
I just wanna love myself cause i know I’m my biggest enemy

What it means to be King coming from a broken home
raised by a single back Queen with no Kingly role model on the throne
showing me how to be a man or what’s right or wrong
Mama keeping my head in the books although the street life looked more appealing
from the nice cars & flashy jewelry, but the limelight is deceiving

What it means to be King to turn 26 without selling dope or dying in the streets
no babies running around & blessed to never have a rap sheet
Never touched a brick or even a gram of ****
I ain’t even gotta shine for you to see the star in me
Trying to live life faithfully without having to watch my back
knowing that America isn’t safe for me or those that plot to stab me in the back

What it means to be King, to be a young black man brought up from nothing
growing up into greatness but still feeling like he’s missing something
It’s not the crown nor the throne or the scars developed from home
but the will to be something special that’s worth more than money can buy
No flaws or imperfections, that pure Black Boy Fly
This is what it feels like to be King, still I rise above all that aim to disrupt the quest
Black Excellence in the Flesh, yes indeed I’m beyond Blessed

I often wake up in tears but can never explain it
I hate myself in every form & I hate it
sometimes I see myself on this mountain looking back
at everything that’s happened prior getting here
then ask myself, “Why am I still here?” when I feel incomplete
& the only time I vent is in my sleep causing me to cry endlessly
I feel like I’m by myself although I’m surrounded by love
but in the end, would they love me more if I wasn’t here
I bring joy to those I love to hide that I’m not okay
but they have enough on their plate so I remain silent
then at night when I close my eyes & drown in the waterfalls of my sorrows
I wanna be happy but happiness doesn’t come without sadness
& unfortunately, I’m trapped in a world that’s full of evil & madness
I could share my tears with one of my close friends
but who cares enough to keep me from putting this life to an end
I’ve been at war with my own mind since I was a kid
I keep looking for an escape but every turn is a dead end
& I’m tired of calling on alcohol & sleep aid as a friend
If only you knew how many times I’ve driven my fist into a wall
or how many times I’ve tried to consume more than 150 mgs of sleeping pills
still wishing for an overdose cause I don’t wanna wake up again
to face that demon in the mirror that I’ve called my friend
with the only thing stopping me is the pain it’ll cause my mother
can’t bring it to myself to hurt her way worse than the others

If you’re shattered & torn
bring me the pieces that remain
If your cries have drowned you
bring me the tears inspired by pain
For the troubles & sleepless nights
let me create the peace
so you’ll can finally rest
no more fighting with the sheets
If all these & more I should save
I’ll be sure to make you whole again

- Poetic Venom

This is the poem where I appear ecstatic
only to distract you from the truth
trying to keep my head clear but still there's static
trying to bring back my youth

This is the poem where I tell you I'm fine
but I'm lying, I'm down on my knees
begging please to the highest power above
that I'm relived from this hell & grant me love

This is the poem where I tell you I've won
the battle with my demons but I still hold the plug
in hand, just waiting for the moment to say F**k it,
take the head jack & unplug it

This is the poem where I tell you I'll be okay
when in fact, I won't be & I give my ending a delay
cause although I want it to end, the guilt kills me
of making my family bury me but I hope they forgive me

You ain’t gotta be dreaming to feel like you’re on top of the world
Your tears don’t have to dance for your love to be heard
I know it seems like you’ll never find the one who
does everything possible to show his love for you
You’ve been hurt so much to the point where love seems impossible
overwhelmed with being broken & the damage phenomenal
You ain’t gotta dream to come home a nice hot bubble bath with candles lit
& all you gotta do is jump in just to relax for a bit
Soft R&B music playing in the background to set the mood right
for a lovely evening before you’re kissed goodnight
It’s the little things that make you happy the most that money can’t afford
& it feels like it’ll never happen because your standards are ignored
Always dreamed of being honored like the Queen you are but dreams come true
& I don’t promise, I guarantee that one day you’ll meet the perfect King for you
The feeling of being love without being paranoid of being hurt again
playing this game of love knowing that you’ll never win
You ain’t gotta dream or live in a fantasy world to feel loved

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Chasing lust & being a bachelor
Losing out on the best things, getting nowhere faster
In my head, I thought I was living the life I always wanted
but still in the midst of it all, something didn’t feel right
I’m attached to the **** things caught up in the night life
Trifling mental, carrying myself like all the others
Charming any woman foolish enough to stay as I guide her underneath the covers
But I’m missing someone like you
Someone that brings out the best of me like you
Someone who shows me so much love like you
I’ve gotten stuck on you & I’d be lost without you
I don’t know what I’m feeling but it feels right
Unsure what the future holds but hopefully you’ll be my star in the night
And the beauty of my every morning sunrise
Basically what I’m saying is, without you I’ll probably be weak
a lonely fool, that can't be me
& without your love making me whole, I’ll always be Incomplete

- Poetic Venom

every kiss I cherish

every hug I embrace

dwell every time we vibe

feeling butterflies all over

cause any second it'll be over

thoughts of you in every song

you're mine, that's where you belong

love for the moment cause forever ain't that long

To fall in love with a writer, you must be true
for everything written is because of you
whether good or bad, happy or sad
you’ll never perish

- Poetic Venxm

They say time heals all wounds
I find it hard to be true
when the main thing on my mind is you
& I can’t fall in love when I’m still attached to you
but what if time isn’t the issue
on why I still miss you
what if it’s the memories that still exist
that make me miss the good times like this
how our lips kissed & our last dance
that alone is the story of a bad romance

- Poetic Venom

I really can’t explain the thoughts running thru my mind
or the confusion that have grown with time
Thinking of you & wanting to work things out
but going back to you won’t exactly bring my happiness out
Yes, you’re the one that I’ll always love more than the world
it’s just the fact of me loving someone else when you’re supposed to be my girl
I’ve had many times to fall in love but I can’t love someone else
when my heart still rest with someone who made me appreciation myself
A friendship that’s turned into the unknown from what used to be a fairytale
& me not giving anyone a chance to love me knowing their love won’t prevail
So how do I move on from someone that has my heart in its entirety
someone who’d go to the end of the world for me & give their last for me
A part of me is ready to be loved for the 1st time
but I can’t let someone else love me when you’re supposed to be mine
A part of me wants to stay single just to wait for you
since I’ve fallen so deeply knowing that my heart adores you
You know you’re more than just a best friend but I can’t wait around forever
& who’s to say that we’ll end up together
Love is complicated especially when the one you want probably isn’t the one you need
but loving someone else just seems wrong which makes it harder to leave
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

I seek a feeling that I’ve never felt
trying to locate what my eyes have never seen
looking for the same feeling
to which I see on my tv screen

Telling myself what to do right
although I’ve never seen it work
& with everyone afraid,
they’ll push away before even seeing it work

I’ve looked for it my whole life
but how do you look for the one thing
to which you’ve never had
& how can one learn to fly
when that dream has your wing

Never interested in commitment
Ran from loyalty & faithfulness
Tempted by false advertisements
Shot down by disappointments

A man running around like a boy
taking hearts & using them like a toy
Requirements of a dog to be met
down to the lowest level, lack of self respect

My Forever was only temporary
I played the fool yet again
so in return, I took a turn for the worst
feeling as tho Love was nothing short of a curse

Now here I arm, in the presence of a Queen
something I only saw in my dreams
This feeling of electricity that’s flowing thru my soul
even when feeling incomplete, she makes me whole
- Poetic Venom

How could I be so foolish? Let love make me out to be so stupid?
Trying to save a love that’s already beyond ruined
I saw the actions loud & clear but me being so naive
I refuse to think she was like the rest, that I wouldn’t believe
I didn’t think she would play me especially since I’m “different”
thought she’d do right by someone who loved her dearly but I was tripping
We were supposed to share something magical but the chemistry was missing
Silly me, trying to love someone whose focus was to play games
& break any heart she comes across, she’s of no shame
I had it coming all because I’ve gained such a soft spot for her
trying to bring her into my world but evil has a hold on her
Used to the guys who only intend to use her for pleasure
take advantage of a golden heart, tear it apart, then struggle to place it back together
But I can’t say that I blame her, she’s never had that real love before
never had anyone around her that tried to love her forever
Real love is a scary thing when you don’t know if the one who gives it
is actually in it for the long haul or just using you to pass time
& I was unfortunate enough to pay for the mistakes done from the past crimes
Never been a sucker for love until I met her, I now see how deep love can be
when you’re trying to see a love fly but it won’t bother to be free
She took that trust & made me believe she was for real
only to realize that she was only luring in hearts for the ****

Poetic Venom

She came around at a time when i wasn’t myself
moving around like the rest but i had no love for myself
She graced me with a smile and that i never took the time to cherish
& gave me her heart that i refused to cherish
Silly me, silly me. A good woman on my arms that i took for granted
& breaking her heart was a terrible thing to manage
cause down the road, i realized what i did ... how selfish of me
to break something so precious when it could’ve been the best of me
Here i am living the life of a bachelor while stringing her along
proving the stereotype of men & singing the same old song
of someone who’s tired of being hurt when I’m no better
The Right Girl at the Wrong Time, i should’ve loved her better
They say things get better with time but this time, it only got worse
cause the love i had to offer at the time was nothing short of a curse
I can’t even justify my actions cause what i did was wrong
made a good woman doubt herself cause she placed her all where it didn’t belong
Why’d it have to be me? The one to destroy something rare & sweet
She only wanted to love me but my love made her feel incomplete
- Poetic Venom

for years, I've fought this feeling

of wanting love over a ****** healing

to say I Do to you

instead of what time to come through

thru chemistry, we carry on like lovers

in my mind, we belong together

I'm in love with my best friend

but she can't tell me why we're not lovers, just friends

You’ve been dealing with my antics for far too long
& sometimes it’s my ego that won’t allow us to get along
I come to you to confess my feelings only for you to reject me
then I go running off looking for a replacement selfishlessly
You’ve been so great to me only for me to ignore it
but anytime I’m in your presence or making love, I can’t help but enjoy it
It’s the way you hold me when I miss being around you
& the love that comes outta me when my heart surrounds you
I’ve fallen too hard in love with you, I just don’t get why you aren’t too
especially since the love we share is beyond magical
My foolish pride makes you cry & sometimes I
cry at night when I look for that one star that’s missing from the sky
then I picture your face with that tear falling from your eye
that makes me question why I became such an unworthy guy
trying to replace a Queen with the temptation that’s hard to deny
& it breaks my heart to know that I’m reason that inspires you to cry
Why haven’t you left me? I’ve proven that I’m no different than those other guys
who only come to you for comfort & kiss you gently as I stare into your eyes
right before I walk away for who knows how long then I say good night
I’m not the King I thought I was but your love made me realize how foolish I am
to overlook the love from an angel who cares deeply for the man that I am
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

in the circus with the clowns
in the bins with the trash
in the clubs seeking flesh
in the streets dying slowly

they say good men don't exist
truth is, we exist within plain sight
often overlooked due to preferences
that only lead to broken hearts

questions of our existence have no answer
we appear where eyes don't look
but when least expected
once our presence is felt, it's magical

It’s been weighing heavy on my mind for quite some time
about getting those roses when it’s my time
I’ve seen many go way too soon & the respect they’re given
watching as roses fill their resting grounds & their spirits being risen
As I cry for those souls, only one thing jogs on my mind
if they were still here, would they get those roses in time
Why does an untimely demise have to be the key for appreciation
folks wanting to say they love you but there’s such hesitation
Then I think about myself & the things I’ve done for those I care for
do i have to pass away before they tell me they love me forevermore
I only see roses raining when the sky opens up its invitation
for the next spirit to come in for the next spiritual destination
I don’t wanna cry just to get a warming hug
I don’t want to fight for my life before receiving real love
I don’t wanna hear you telling me you love me once I’m in the sky
cause those roses will be meaningless once my time runs dry
- Poetic Venxm

Don’t let me fall from grace or the high clouds that I’ve worked so hard to get to & don’t let me parish before I know how much I mean to you for this life of ours isn’t guaranteed to see the sunny rays of tomorrow or forget the cloudy days of yesterday

Don’t let me cry if life gets hard & I see no further reason to live anymore cause I’m tired of the pain inside that I can’t seem to let go of or the happiness that I’m too in fear to reach because of the potential end that may come on the backend as a result to happiness not being forever

Don’t let me go to sleep existing in a nightmare that’s never ending when I’m looking for my dream that may seem to be lost within my fantasy world & when I look around, it’s only me alone looking up to the clouds waiting to wake up again

The next chapter won’t begin until I find the source of joy that I’ve been waiting to see but my own insecurities have blinded me from right in front of me & that’s the love of someone who truly wants to love me although she’s seen that diamond with the cracks but still appreciates the value

we don’t live the same life
don’t share the same belief
you feel I’m lying a lie
my lifestyle you don’t agree
but we sin every day
& every day we pray
for God’s forgiveness
just in a different way
you live by the book
I live by my own views
just because I don’t follow the path
doesn’t make me any less than you
I am of no religion
but God is the Greatest
holiness or spiritual
for the final say so, we’re all adjacent  - Pencasso

heart for an heart

soul for a soul

honesty from the start

if marriage is the goal

even if it’s only friends

i wanna see it flourish
before it ends

for everything i am, i
need all of you

love ain’t love if i only
have half of you  -king pencasso

I confess to you what I can’t say out loud;
the hidden thoughts buried in mind
the unspoken feelings trapped within
you’ll understand my world in due time
& soon you’ll become my best friend

I admit the things that no one else knows;
the secrets I feel ashamed to share
the pain no meds can numb
unnoticed tears that'll cause a stare from
the unhealed wounds from a war I’ve departed but haven’t won

I hear the music playing
matching the rain on the window
with thunder adding suspense
depression in the making

The feeling in my soul
when I'm in the dark
feeling for an escape
but I'm empty & lose control

Silence becomes a melody
as I listen to the sorrows
of me suffering
a familiar symphony

I was asked once on why I love to write so much
& I answered saying that you don’t how impactful words can touch
the souls of those that you’ve never met a day in your life
especially those who feel like a lost cause & feel the need to give up on life
I write for the pain, I write for the hurt, I write for the deep thoughts
that speak to the rain whenever the heart feels like it’s being haunt
I write for those who don’t have anyone else to turn to
crying out for help but yet they remain see through
I write for the women of life who give so much but get so little
Love & War with their hearts being dead smack in the middle
I write for the teens battling depression that seek self harm
you know the ones referred to as “troubled” or “sick” with cuts on their arm
I write for myself for the thoughts in mind that can’t be said out loud
I’m a gifted poet with a rare touch & I’m **** proud
Poetry is Life, Poetry is Passion, Poetry is Freedom, Poetry is Therapy
I could’ve called it quits a long time ago but poetry is the one thing that’s saved me
-Poetic Venom

While you’re reading this, I want you to know one thing
I know why the tears flow & why the heart sings
I know why your soul cries in the rain
I know why you look in the mirror to hate what you see
I know how much you wanna break loose & be free
Nobody wants to be depressed but some of us can’t help it
Wanting to be happy yet existing with a spirit that’s restless
Your skin is a beautiful thing but I know why you cut it
just to feel something to get over being depressions puppet
I know why your teary rivers overflow your eyes
wanting to call it quits to live in the sky
You’re different & they judge you but don’t know you
a feeling of happiness, I wish I could be the one to show you
Love not anyone else but thyself
for self is all you’ll ever need more than anyone else
You overlook your strength & I know you’ll deny it
looking for the light knowing you may never find it
I know the pain & I don’t really know why I’m writing this letter
when I’m shattered myself but striving to make you better
Not your guardian angel, just someone who knows your struggle
& until I can’t go any further, I hope to be a guide away from your struggles
- Poetic Venom