we don’t live the same life
don’t share the same belief
you feel I’m lying a lie
my lifestyle you don’t agree
but we sin every day
& every day we pray
for God’s forgiveness
just in a different way
you live by the book
I live by my own views
just because I don’t follow the path
doesn’t make me any less than you
I am of no religion
but God is the Greatest
holiness or spiritual
for the final say so, we’re all adjacent  - Pencasso

you dream a world

free from heartache & heartbreak

just you & your meant to be

without the world, the feeling of free

no tears or long nights that keep you restless

candle light dinner, morning awakes with breakfast

heaven on earth without the hell

dance with the sunshine with the rain in your rearview

What can I say about the man who's taught me a lot
the one person apart of his life that he forgot
someone that needed him the most
but his presence forever remains a ghost
& for the longest time, I've hated you for leaving
the last thing you told me is that you loved & I believed you
If there's anything you taught me the most, never be like you
never create a blessing but toss it aside like you
so for you dad, this is my fathers day thanks
to the Father I never had but always wanted
who's love failed to accept me & the memories forever haunt me
but I forgive you for walking away, I understand now
that it's more about you than it ever was about me
thanks for making my mom struggle to raise me
just off lousy child support that was $80/ week
Happy Father's Day, I became a man without you
- Poetic Venom

You ain’t gotta be dreaming to feel like you’re on top of the world
Your tears don’t have to dance for your love to be heard
I know it seems like you’ll never find the one who
does everything possible to show his love for you
You’ve been hurt so much to the point where love seems impossible
overwhelmed with being broken & the damage phenomenal
You ain’t gotta dream to come home a nice hot bubble bath with candles lit
& all you gotta do is jump in just to relax for a bit
Soft R&B music playing in the background to set the mood right
for a lovely evening before you’re kissed goodnight
It’s the little things that make you happy the most that money can’t afford
& it feels like it’ll never happen because your standards are ignored
Always dreamed of being honored like the Queen you are but dreams come true
& I don’t promise, I guarantee that one day you’ll meet the perfect King for you
The feeling of being love without being paranoid of being hurt again
playing this game of love knowing that you’ll never win
You ain’t gotta dream or live in a fantasy world to feel loved

☆ Poetic Venom ☆

Ladies, help me understand why y’all give us so much power over you
Getting mad at us for doing all the wrong things but ignore what we’re allowed to do
I understand that Love is Powerful Drug & it’s not easy leaving someone you’re attached to
but that doesn’t mean that you should justify the disrespect that we show you
You ride so hard for a man who’s giving his attention to everything but you
We tell you that we love you but we treat you as if we can’t stand you
Love has become slavery & seeing what y’all tolerate, makes me question many things
Like why do y’all put up with so much pain that makes your heartbreak sing
Is loving someone worth withstanding all the hell you go through
versus being with someone who’s desired to give the world to you
What’s the reward for being miserably in love & growing into self hate?
If he’s not being your Peace then he’s bringing more stress to your plate
He’s demanding more ****** attention but never an intimate conversation
Never on the same level mentally & headed to a roller coaster destination
You let us walk all over you because you love us, ain’t that much love in the world
For you to allow us to make you a side chick when you’re supposed to be the main girl
Why do you give us your world when we’re barely giving you land to settle on
but so quick to give you a saddle for you ride on?
Your mind is racing with thoughts of us daily but you’re barely on our mind
for the exception for a piece of meat, we’re doing nothing but wasting your time
A lot of you won’t like me saying it but it’s true & deep down, I know it hurts
to give your everything to us only to feel like you’re either unworthy or your love is cursed
You feel obligated to put up with us because you’re afraid to be lonely
but why continue to love us when we ignore you for hoes & the homies
We make you fall in love with us, make you develop a soft spot for us
just to use you against yourself & inspire you to hate yourself because of us
We take your love for granted, so quick to replace you & make you cry
yet you still help us fly which makes me wonder why
being confused, lead on, & torn by the lies
riding hard for the same ones who will eventually inspire your love to die

I want more than just a pretty face
I want more than just a curvy waist
I want more than just some pretty eyes
I want a heart that can’t be replaced
I don’t want what every other man has been inside
I don’t want something just to be pushed to the side
I need that type of woman who carries pride in her stride
The type of woman that i can eventually turn into a bride
I don’t need that love that begins good but turns toxic
Don’t need that love that’s mainly involved around arguments
Want that type of love where she’s rooting for my accomplishments
The love where i build an empire with the same love i started wit
Want a woman with intelligence
Want a woman with class & integrity in her inheritance
I want more than just a freak in the sheets
Give me something to admire besides your lips or your cheeks
Be the woman that i can cuddle next to & be at peace
Rub my back or play with my hair, be my source for a stress relief
Be the woman that i can spoil with time, affection, & loyalty
Be the one thing that keeps me leveled when I’m rushing with anxiety
Be the guidance i need to stay on the right path & not break the sobriety
Be the sunshine of my life & grace me with that smile that i anticipate to see
Impress me with your mentality & the rareness in your individuality

Poetic Venom

I confess to you what I can’t say out loud;
the hidden thoughts buried in mind
the unspoken feelings trapped within
you’ll understand my world in due time
& soon you’ll become my best friend

I admit the things that no one else knows;
the secrets I feel ashamed to share
the pain no meds can numb
unnoticed tears that'll cause a stare from
the unhealed wounds from a war I’ve departed but haven’t won

I may not be The One to make you a wife

I just happen to be unfortunate enough to be apart of your life

- Poetic Venom

every kiss I cherish

every hug I embrace

dwell every time we vibe

feeling butterflies all over

cause any second it'll be over

thoughts of you in every song

you're mine, that's where you belong

love for the moment cause forever ain't that long

you fear the rain & the thunder
in silence where you suffer
sunshine for the masses
inside you’re shattered
rain drops dance from the eyes
causing the soul to keep dry
the rain describes you as weak
so you share it for one
that’s who you trust
don’t fear the rain
let it shower you
for its whole purpose
is to empower you
- Pencasso

heartbreak ahead
all signs ignored
no love to be found
the damage happens early
but I don’t stop the fall
delusional, I might be
crazy in love & empty
the pain is strong
the love is stronger
but although it breaks me
this love is where I belong

- Pencasso

The Beauty of Me goes deep but most men wouldn’t know where to begin
to them, I’m only a prize that they feel like they have to win
They look at the clothes I wear & the pride in my stride
or the presence so dominant & the confidence it has to provide

The Beauty of Me is more than just a cute face or curvy waist
more than just nice round hips or my physical attraction
more than just how my presence causes such a distraction
but to them, I’m mainly looked at as a one time experience of satisfaction

The Beauty of Me would be magical to the perfect King
he’ll take a look within the windows of my soul
he’ll see a Queen of Excellence whose not afraid to be alone
a Queen of a rare stature that’s strong enough to stand on her own

It’s more than the love I’m able to give or the heart I have to offer
it’s the vibe that can’t be found anywhere else
a woman who’s fearless & confident within herself
when the beauty enhancements fade, beauty will still exist
the Beauty of Me, can only come true to the perfect wish
-Poetic Venom

If i perish before the roses fall from those I love most, let one thing be remembered of me until the end of time. Not the way I impacted those I cared for but my mission to spark the change to which I was inspired to be & the change I wanted to see. My upbringing was nothing worth glorifying but it made me the man I became before those who chose to worship the very grounds I graced & those who chose to travel the same path to which I paved. I know in life, death comes before people reveal how they feel about you or how much you meant to their lives but what’s the use when I’ll no longer be around to hear these heartfelt letters of grief. So if I shall perish before I know the capacity those true feelings from the masses, let it be the one that allows my soul to rest peacefully but my legacy will be admired for generations yet to arise. I’m a man of plenty mistakes but nothing short of outstanding & my message will always be the same, Be Great By Any Means
- Pencasso

Right now I’m empty
not sure what I’m feeling
I wanna love you
but i need healing

Can’t have you loving me
when I’m currently lost
trying to find myself
but don’t give up on me

If you feel pushed away
please stay
be patient & don’t
take your love away

This isn’t me, it’s the pain
I don’t even smile the same
I’ve fallen apart but i can’t
ask you to repair me

In due time, I’ll return
to give you what you deserve
the real me, that pure gold heart
i just need space for a fresh start  - pencasso

a best friend
the creation of endless smiles
& the glow of its compliments
the spark that lights up the sky
the sweetest hello
the hardest goodbye
& when my world goes dark
you’re the diamond in my sky

- Pencasso

While you’re reading this, I want you to know one thing
I know why the tears flow & why the heart sings
I know why your soul cries in the rain
I know why you look in the mirror to hate what you see
I know how much you wanna break loose & be free
Nobody wants to be depressed but some of us can’t help it
Wanting to be happy yet existing with a spirit that’s restless
Your skin is a beautiful thing but I know why you cut it
just to feel something to get over being depressions puppet
I know why your teary rivers overflow your eyes
wanting to call it quits to live in the sky
You’re different & they judge you but don’t know you
a feeling of happiness, I wish I could be the one to show you
Love not anyone else but thyself
for self is all you’ll ever need more than anyone else
You overlook your strength & I know you’ll deny it
looking for the light knowing you may never find it
I know the pain & I don’t really know why I’m writing this letter
when I’m shattered myself but striving to make you better
Not your guardian angel, just someone who knows your struggle
& until I can’t go any further, I hope to be a guide away from your struggles
- Poetic Venom

I’ve seen you weather many storms without breaking a sweat
& the Devil’s trying to break you but you ain’t gave up yet
I know you must be overwhelmed & tired although you won’t say it
helping those around you more than yourself though you’re not obligated
to put anyone over you but you still do it
just for the same ones to make you feel stupid
Through all the betrayal, not once have you thrown favors in the face
of those who’ve spat it back in your face
to make you feel like loyalty should be your reason
when that word is more of a tattoo & they’re only good for leaving
you in the dirt once they’ve used you for their personal convenience
But please, give yourself some credit for having the heart that you do
& I know ***** to feel unappreciated for the things you do
to be overly loyal to many but most do nothing but mistreat you
take you for granted & completely ungrateful
You’re a rare breed, there will never be another you
Give yourself some credit, you’re entirely too unique & special
- Poetic Venom

Dear my angel to be, I need you to do more than just listen, feel me
as I allow my heart to speak for me & I hope you actually hear me
I often ask myself if she even loves herself the way she loves everyone else
to make others happy but is she even happy herself?
Now I don’t mean to assume things but I hear the melodies your heart sings
you’ve never been loved the right way & the ones you wait for never seem to change
Oh, my Angel, I know it’s been a minute since your love has been replenished
now I watch you waiting for your King but I guess I am the only witness
who sees someone destined for greatness with a heart that’s been forsaken
trying her best not to give up but when it comes to love, you’ve lost motivation
& I get it, I understand, how you really wanna be loved by a faithful man
someone that relates to you on many levels & your intellect that no one seems to understand
There’s 2 minds you need for a man to get but we’re so full of it
that we only sweet talk the mental just to get the one thing we’re dying to hit
then split & I’m sorry if we’ve messed up so many times, all the lies
claiming to be different but we cause too many cries so let’s fly
fly away until it’s the clouds that we rest within & then
we’ll dream into that world where we’ll never be awaken again
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

lately I’ve been feeling SAD!

& i Fall Apart even on good days

sometimes life can be like
the Matrix

deja vu & insomnia, i just wanna
Sleep

cause it feels like I’m Moving Mountains

i save those around me but i can’t
Save Myself

but i guess it’s true what they say
everybody dies in their nightmares   - Pencasso

It hurts me to hurt you
cause a part of me cares for you
but i didn’t deserve the pain from you
& who would’ve ever knew
that it’ll come to me ignoring you
Being around you & completely silent
I don’t speak cause my soul is crying
Sorrow’s raining from the let down
from the one who shouldn’t let me down
I was wrong for putting so much faith in you
feeling like you were rare only to view
the real you, lonely & confused

Karma’s a trip but i still wish you well
the past is the past & i choose not to dwell
Cry your tears but I’m not the blame
for the results of these childish games
coached by your ego & what a shame
how things just aren’t the same
between us, the effects of the rain
falling from the damage before it’s own hurricane
- Poetic Venom

I used to show mad love
Used to put every soul before me
but the same ones showed no love
& the ones I went hard for, ignored me
I cared more for them than I did myself
even loved them 10x harder than I loved myself
Would’ve taken a bullet if fate needed a life as a sacrifice
but doing so only leads to a betraying price
I pulled that knife outta many backs
only to have that same knife thrown in mine, now I see how evil attacks
I never wanted to be this way but what do you expect
when I’ve been through so much pain, disappointments, & neglect
I showed more love than I was supposed to
only because I was chosen to
by the same ones that I walked thru the storm for
pushing me closer to that edge that I was headed to
I pretend not have a heart just to keep from being broken again
& I choose to stay alone just to avoid the realization of knowing you don’t have friends
This world is a game & depending on how you play, you either end up eliminated or hurt
so I’m not heartless but use my heart less being in a world so cursed

Poetic Venom

We often;
hold on to seasonal people
expecting the most
when there’s no planned sequel

We tend to;
fight harder for those trying to leave
than for those
we push away, refusing to leave

We Give;
seasonal people lifetime expectations
closing the door preventing them from walking away
accepting something temporary is a hesitation
because we don’t wanna see that one person flying away

loyalty overlooked
love unappreciated
affection never accepted
locked in for too long

when do you let go?
when is enough enough?
when do you get fed up?
how much pain can you suffer?

you cried one too many tears
too many sleepless nights
you've hated yourself far too long
for a fool that doesn't appreciate greatness

The singing caged bird tells the story of a woman suffering from loss, not a family member or friend but how she lost herself within her own love.
Selfless with a heart of gold built in this structure that's damaged product of a fatherless empire, forced to grow up faster than most Fantasies of the better side of life living thru pics attached to her wall seeking the ability to one day fly but setbacks altered her image above all
Sure, she's a beauty to look at but past abuse won't let her see her true worth
she's capable of love but rejects it cause she's never had love that didn't hurt yet she still fights with the hopes of one day becoming free to fly once & for all
break away from the statistics of her reality to become something more powerful

... that's why this caged bird continues to sing

the sunshine with a hurricane
a sunny day with pouring rain
the happiness with drowning tears
the pursuit of joy with undying fears

the love of dreams with nightmares
the laughter after the thunder
the rage before the rain
& the light after the pain

poetry in motion
beauty within the madness
comfort within the irritation
the vibes of r&b with the effects of heavy metal

For the words I can’t say
to make your day
For the way I feel
the feelings I can’t reveal
To see you smile, to see you laugh
to request your hugs but unable to grasp
The sound of your voice that makes me warm
when I’m on your stage, you make my heart perform
My heart sings & you’re the perfect melody
if loving you is such a crime, I’m your smoothest criminal

- Poetic Venom

without you, life wouldn't be the same

without you, I wouldn't have changed

without you, there wouldn't be a me

without you, I would've gone crazy

the light in dark days, the music in silence

a blessing to most but for me, you're my guidance

I've caused hell & heartache, pain including stress

gave me the best love thru all of my mess

I can't thank you without thanking God he creating you

cause without you, there is no me

Happy Mother's Day

Losing You;
was the best blessing God ever gave me
all you’ve ever done was taught me how to hate me

Losing You;
I never thought the day would come sooner
trying to keep someone temporarily & create a future

Losing You;
destroyed me at first but I didn’t realize
your kind of love was only meant to leave me paralyzed

Losing You;
I thought you took my heart
because I couldn’t love myself, your departure tore me apart

Losing You;
was a blessing unexpected
& I regret trying to fix something that was better off disconnected

How could I be so foolish? Let love make me out to be so stupid?
Trying to save a love that’s already beyond ruined
I saw the actions loud & clear but me being so naive
I refuse to think she was like the rest, that I wouldn’t believe
I didn’t think she would play me especially since I’m “different”
thought she’d do right by someone who loved her dearly but I was tripping
We were supposed to share something magical but the chemistry was missing
Silly me, trying to love someone whose focus was to play games
& break any heart she comes across, she’s of no shame
I had it coming all because I’ve gained such a soft spot for her
trying to bring her into my world but evil has a hold on her
Used to the guys who only intend to use her for pleasure
take advantage of a golden heart, tear it apart, then struggle to place it back together
But I can’t say that I blame her, she’s never had that real love before
never had anyone around her that tried to love her forever
Real love is a scary thing when you don’t know if the one who gives it
is actually in it for the long haul or just using you to pass time
& I was unfortunate enough to pay for the mistakes done from the past crimes
Never been a sucker for love until I met her, I now see how deep love can be
when you’re trying to see a love fly but it won’t bother to be free
She took that trust & made me believe she was for real
only to realize that she was only luring in hearts for the ****

Poetic Venom

It’s been almost 6 years since I’ve went back to my roots
living life on Red Top Road where my mental sustained abuse
I was just a youngin trying to figure this world out
thinking of ways to make this dream come true with all this doubt
of never making it out of this place that slowly became a hell hole
& I was the only one being naive to never know
that the kingdom in my head wasn’t exactly the same show
that kept me tuned in for so many years admiring the lies
of a legacy that died shortly after the King & Queen went home in the sky
The Home of Haunted Memories only makes me remember the kid who never saw the sun
just the trouble of a family tree that would soon be overrun
by the evil within egos that couldn’t patch itself together for the creators
that placed everything into one place that brought us all together
I miss the home I thought I knew when times were worth holding on to forever
but somewhere on this dark road, generations of love & family lost its power of measure
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

living just ain’t what it used
to be

because you’re not
next to me

without the love of a Queen
a house can’t be a home

& if i can’t live life with you
then I’d rather live life alone  - Pencasso

Could we just take a second to just wish me a Happy Birthday, it would be mean a lot

Happy Valentines Day to all

- Dre Venxm

This Heart of Mine;
has been thru the worst
from being shattered to crushed
as if each occurrence were rehearsed
which is why I have no trust
for those who claim to have interest in me
but are usually stragglers with no destination
never surprising how we go from friends to enemies
& I end up moving on with hesitation

But This Heart of Mine;
is made of Gold & twice the size of me
yet suffering from the damages of love
still a trapped object looking to be free
to be healed & unconditionally love
it grew to be stone cold but warm for the deserving
never loving with the attachments of a past love
while healing from it even when it’s still burning

- Poetic Venom

Forgive me for the pain

& any errors I’ve created

for I know you’re pure

& full of love, yet I’ve

underestimated your Greatness

Willing to put others 1st who’ve only used you as a Replacement

You stayed true no matter I put you through

& truthfully, I don’t deserve you

for all the things you do

Loving unconditionally & making many lives beautiful

when you're done blaming me

crying over or hating me

begging or persuading me

stressed over dating me

tried ******* saving me

but the pettiness was killing me

for the moment I was fortunate

but in love, we're total opposites

no hate but vibes are moderate

my departure hurts but you'll get over it

You’ve been dealing with my antics for far too long
& sometimes it’s my ego that won’t allow us to get along
I come to you to confess my feelings only for you to reject me
then I go running off looking for a replacement selfishlessly
You’ve been so great to me only for me to ignore it
but anytime I’m in your presence or making love, I can’t help but enjoy it
It’s the way you hold me when I miss being around you
& the love that comes outta me when my heart surrounds you
I’ve fallen too hard in love with you, I just don’t get why you aren’t too
especially since the love we share is beyond magical
My foolish pride makes you cry & sometimes I
cry at night when I look for that one star that’s missing from the sky
then I picture your face with that tear falling from your eye
that makes me question why I became such an unworthy guy
trying to replace a Queen with the temptation that’s hard to deny
& it breaks my heart to know that I’m reason that inspires you to cry
Why haven’t you left me? I’ve proven that I’m no different than those other guys
who only come to you for comfort & kiss you gently as I stare into your eyes
right before I walk away for who knows how long then I say good night
I’m not the King I thought I was but your love made me realize how foolish I am
to overlook the love from an angel who cares deeply for the man that I am
☆ Poetic Venom ☆

a decision was made
a path was paved
the future delayed
my heart wasn't saved

a chapter ended
a heart befriended
your love's suspended
the reason argumented

I admitted I'm wrong
couldn't string you along
to make you think we strong
together, we don't belong

hurt, you ain't the only one
too petty too long, we're done
forced me out, you won
you'll find another one

I’ll learn how to fly again
when the sunrises upon me & my soul has risen
above all self hatred built from the past
to which I’ve buried myself in since youth
never knowing how to accept thyself
causing me to neglect love for myself
I’ve been deprived from my wings but i continue my journey in search of the one
who i used to know before this thing called life took a turn for the worst
& I’m there staring in the shattered glass mirror but it hurts
when i realized the one thing I’ve been missing has been here all along
reminding me that I’ve been physically weak & forever mentally strong
I was that eagle in the sky held down by depressions cry
as I’ve yearned for help but never got it
got up again but the confidence in my soar was forgotten
so I flew above ground breaking every momentum I’ve had
Now here I am on the edge of it all, ready to take flight once again
but hopefully with this leap of faith, I learn how to fly again

- Poetic Venom

pain is a drug
& most of us can't get enough

falling for errors
while loving those we don't trust

red flags ignored
true intentions come to light

feelings get hurt
hearts are never taken in consideration

pain is a drug
some of us can never get enough

For years you’ve been dancing to the wrong beat

trying to a win something that’s designed for your defeat

& I know you’re fed up but I ask if there’s a chance

for me or the right one to get that last rightful dance

For your heart, for your soul, & for you to say I Do

my promise is a guarantee, that one shot will be magical

- Poetic Venom

I prove my worth

show you my soul

put my flaws on the table

we're both insecure, you & I


But what if I become true

to my every word

& show you dreams come alive

would it be enough to help you fly again

What is Love? Love is Pain
Love is Fear, Love is crying with the Rain
Love is looking in the mirror & accepting what you see before you
Love is loving yourself enough not to settle for less than someone who can't adore you
Love is being in love with the fact that you're simply amazing
Loving is realizing what you bring to the table, never begging for love, & let make you chase it
What is Pain? Pain is Depression, Pain is Hell
Pain is trying to overcome what hurt you but the damage wont let you prevail
Pain is giving your everything every time but getting nothing in return
Pain is having the Heart of Gold but the treatment of hell & it's something you don't deserve
Pain is that devil on your shoulder convincing you to do evil
Making you hate everyone around you even your own people
What is Love? Love is Joy, Love is Happiness, Love is an Emotional Rainbow
What is Pain? Pain loving someone who makes your heart erupt like a volcano

We haven’t spoken for the past few weeks & I’ve lied to keep from telling the truth
saying i’m busy with work but I’m sure you can still see the proof
Somewhere along the road, I started seeing us from a different light
I started seeing a world without you as a lover & i started loving the sight
But then I’d ask myself, how can one get over someone who did so much
can’t just walk from all that happiness & leave a beautiful heart crushed
I know keeping the truth from you isn’t right but telling the truth, I may lose you
& I can’t just sit here to allow my broken heart use you
I still think the world of you, it’s just the feelings that used to be don’t exist anymore
but the heart that I’ve grown with, I’ll love unconditionally forevermore
What I’m trying to say is that I have to move on to keep from drowning in false hope
of keeping faith within something that may never be again
& it’s that drug you gave me that I can no longer allow my system to overdose
I’ve done a thousand laps in my head trying to go about this in the right way
but in order for us to be happy, one of us has to swallow the pride to walk away
So my silence wasn’t because I was busy, it’s because I’m trying to leave
& holding on is only going to prevent me from waking up from this long never ending dream