Kyndra

Kyndra May 2015

Tell me.

Come on, spill the truth.
Tell me I don't matter.
Tell me you never loved me.
Come on, let's hear your side.
Tell me I'm ugly.
Tell me I'm crazy.
Come on, scream at me.
Tell me I deserve nothing.
Tell me the world will move
on with out me.
Come on, tell me what I already know.
Tell me you're leaving.
You found someone brighter.
Come on, make it easy.
Tell me everything was a lie.
Tell me I'm a disaster.

Kyndra May 2015

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He whispered "Do you love me?"

She screamed "forever & always."

Kyndra May 2015

Everything is about you

I trace the outlines of your skin.
I listen to the beat of your heart.
I run my fingers over your veins.
I grip your hand a little tighter.
I touch your face, as we press our lips together.
I run my hands through your hair.
I grab your arms too pull you closer.
I whisper I love you.
I pray you really hear it.

Kyndra May 2015

You ****** me up.

I am hiding behind the false allegations you keep spitting out.
I am hiding behind this feeling of loneliness.
I know this because when I am alone I'm back at step one.
I never fixed myself, you never helped me get better.
If anything I am worse then I ever was before.
I gave my heart to a man who is already so broken.
I gave my heart to a man who claims he is in love with me.
I gave my heart to a man who isn't sure what love even is.
I was not so empty before you, you are draining me of everything.
You are cancer, you are killing me.
I hear the way you talk about her, I hear the things you would say.
I am not ignorant I see right through you.
If it is not one thing its another.
I swore to you my loyalty.
You swore the ******* same.
But looks who is sitting here in ******* misery.

Its insane the amount of us we put into one person but get destroyed in the end.

#heartbreak #broken #lonely

Kyndra May 2015

Everything is jadded.

This is what happens when you let go.
When you become vulnerable.
I'm just a choice you made.
I was on the list of lovers.
I made the cut I see, because I'm the one standing in front of you.
How could I have been so ******* stupid not to see the ******* truth.
Now I sit here wondering if everything is true or false
I wish you would of picked another.
I can't stand that I was just a ******* number for you to call when you were lonely.
I been faithful this whole ******* time to find out in the beginning you were exploring your options.
Now to wonder what's really true.
I have cried so many nights
& you're fine just living life.

Kyndra Apr 2015

I Promise You.

I can't remember everything I said.
I can't remember all the movements or looks.
I can remember the way you smelled.
The way you smiled.
& the things I saw in you.
Some thing inside me told me everything was exactly where it was supposed to be.
You had this look to you, one I couldn't see through.
But I'd **** to get to know you.
You had the most intense ora.
It was beautiful ; it is beautiful.

Now that I know more then I knew then.
I'd **** to get to know you all over again.
I look at you & I truly see you.
You're not anymore damaged then anyone else.
You're not anymore broken then the next person.

You're my weight.
You keep me grounded.
You're my air.
I have to breathe in.

I can't remember when I knew.
I can't remember when I fell.
I can't remember how I knew.

I can't live my life without you.
Now that I know what it's like to have you
To love you.
To know you.*
To need you.

Kyndra Apr 2015

Nothing specific at all.

It's not easy to recognize the exact moment that everything changed.
It may feel like you woke up one morning
Or
They said the wrong thing at the wrong time.
It's not always as simple and easy as we would like it to be.
I think if it was no one would want to love.

We chase the misery, pain, & unhappiness
But can't figure out why.

The ****** existence of what's left of something that was once beautiful is what we keep looking for.
We reminisce the beauty we once had.
We once held so close.

Maybe I'm the one who changed
Maybe your the one who didn't notice your inability to hold a conversation.

I'm not lost anymore, but I'm not found.
I'm not crying anymore, I can't cry anymore.
I lost hope in so much I once I believed so strongly in.
You want so much out of me & expect that I don't need anything at all.