I don't want this to be another mistake.
Months down the road sitting alone regretting.
I don't want to resent you.
I don't want this to stretch me thin.
I don't want to have to say goodbye.
I'm terrified it's going to break me before it gets better.


I can walk this road alone.
I have done it once before.
I swear though I'll hold on
But you can't fight the indomitable.


We both have a troubled past.
I think that's what made me think I was save.
Turns out you're just as ****** up as I.  
You knew what it's like to feel empty, broken, and defeated.
You're the last person I thought to hurt me.
Look at me now, I'm gasping.


Its not fair that I'm just there.
Its not fair that I feel alone.
I told myself I'd never stay to fight a losing battle.
I feel so defeated.

I thought I could handle your baggage.
Your warned me.
I swore I could handle it.
But turns out I'm not armed for that.

She's dark & mysterious.
She's envious & intimidating.
Hiding behind strong structure.
She's strong even when she's broken.
She's looking for some thing inside herself.
She's never fast to judge, she sees the best in everyone.

Her willpower is powered by drive.
Her motivation is powered by life.
Her composure is powered by the past.

She's given herself the chance to love.
She's loving without doubt.
She's given herself the light again.
She's giving herself what she deserves.

She is independent.
She is secure.
She is stable.
She is compassionate.
She is ambitious.
**These are all the things I love about her

I fear being broken because one more time will be the death of me.
I let you in, I let you see the darkest shades of me.
I don't hold back when it comes to you & me.
But can you say the same?
Can you say you love me without fear?
Can you learn to stay?
******* it don't walk away.
I need you I swear I do.
You're a piece of me.
I fear being broken because no more time will be the last.
When I wake up will you still be here?
Laying in the bed beside me.
When I come home from work will there be a note saying "I'm not worthy."
I stare at you & wonder if I'm really what you want.
I know I'm not what you need.
I stare at you in awe from your beauty.
I get lost in you, I stare.
Please give me a warning, if you need to go.
I fear of being broken because it's a pattern.
Break this pattern, break me free.

I promised you when I said forever.
I promised you when I said I love you.
I broke free of my past to love you

Can you promise me you'll stay?
Can you promise me no pain?

*I'll give you everything I am.
I'll give you everything you need.
I'll give you every ******* part of me.
I'll prove to you it's different.
I'll stand in the pouring rain.
I'll stand on the edge of the world.
I'll give you all my energy.
I'll I want is for you too stay .

I'm no longer clinched in the chaos of my past.
Letting go of demons that trapped my stability.
Facing all the trouble of my yesterdays.
Never to sorrow over prior misconception.
The future holds to many vows.
I am no longer a prison of my destructive past.
Modifying my mindset see the beauty in the universe.
Nothing is more horrific then a troubled mind.
Never to let the darkness control my emotion.
I am the only creature to control the conclusion.
I have come to a greater perspective.

I AM ONLY HUMAN.

My darling, I'm suffering.
My mind is holding me hostage.
My worry is suffocating me.
My darling, I'm trying to hold on.
Patience is running low.
Waiting for redemption.
Rescue me from my past.
I can not do this by myself.
Hold me close when I need you most.
I crave your body & your soul.
My darling, I'm collapsing