She dressed in white wandering the halls
dancing under moonlight
he showed up black as midnight
begging for her to love him again
she vanished at dawn as dewdrops
fell down his cheek
and he waited for
night to come again

I believed in love
I fell in love
But your the one who broke me
Who destroyed my fantasies
I believed in you love
But you destroyed us

Is love much more than a word
Because that's all you ever say
i love you over and over
Like a broken disk on replay
I don't know if you can show me love
Because our romance seems fake
Is i love you more than a word
Is it more than just
Fake

Why do i want to hug you so bad
But your back scares me
Cold and unwelcoming
I'm afraid to touch you
You might get mad or find me annoying
And i know i take things to heart
But everything you say
Effects me in such away
That i wish you'd never speak again
Because i fear everything you say next

Dancer upon piano
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A melody missing one
b
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   She stood t
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Never falling off the tightrope
He came along gave her a smile
Loved her but she never intended
To fall off that wire so he
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                  alone

Roses are a symbol of love
But i prefered lilies
I liked the shape
And how pure they looked
Roses were nice but
For me to red
Too loved
To much like you
Everyone wants you
But your thorns need to be removed first
I like roses the come and they go
you always get another rose
Same with lilies but there not tainted yet
Pure and white
Not stained not colourful
But beautiful nevertheless

Our souls dance in the night
When our heartbeats are dormant
And our eyes only open to dreams
Our souls whisper to each other
And dance atop stars

i start wondering what if
constantly repeating everything i love about you
i wonder what if just hoping you
maybe you can see my worries bubbling up
just out of reach my what if a constant stream of negativity
just wondering if you like me what if you love me
i know id run to you in a heartbeat
even if my feet were in concrete or my heart stopped beating
id still run
but we dont talk ive seen you less and less
so much im forgetting your face
and i know its silly my what if
but
do you know how many times ive cry when youve said i love you just hoping that you do
how my anxiety and fears choke me telling me otherwise
but i wonder what if just what if my dreams come true

i know i shouldn't be as jealous as i am but
seeing the heart on every profile pic hurts
and realising she wasn't just another girl
that you truly loved her
enough to say you'd **** her still
especially to me your current girl
maybe for you losing your virginty
was the same to me were you didn't care
but maybe for you it was a meant to be
so when i realise ill never amount to her
and your feelings could be lingering
it hurts
and i know im just thinking but its the thoughts
the thought that you'd go back to her if she asked that scares me more than anything

I wish life was easy
Simple yet demeaning
I wish i could dream of bigger things
Know where i want to go and who i want to be
Im always just daydreaming
I want to breathe
To see streets packed and kiss strangers
To have a romance with every heart i touch
And love on the deserted streets
I want nothing more than to leave my
Worth to others who praise me like a star
And worship me like the sun
I want someone to say i'm worth it
Because up till now i've been
Nothing more than worthless
So can someone cherish my heart
And kiss every part of me
keep my heart in a trophy case like its a diamond
Can you look into my eyes and tell me everything
Say you love me and let me believe it
I want my soul to stop yearning for a love it'll never reach
I don't need strangers to kiss me on the street
Just a man who can love me
And make me complete

I love the memories of us
The ones that kissed me on highways alone at night
The ones hugging me in bed
The memories in old songs
And at the bottom of my coffee cup
The memories of us that keep me up
That are at 2% battery
That hide in your smile
And the ringtone of us

i forget my hygiene
Like showering and brushing my hair
Sometimes it's not changing my clothes
And i don't mean for two or three days
Sometimes it's two to four weeks
Sometimes my effort leaves me in bed
And when i say sometimes i mean
I'm swallowing glass
That leaves my body though
New fresh cuts
its hanging around friends that feel like complete strangers
but not leaving because your afraid of being asked whats wrong
It's breaking down crying but not shedding a tear
Because your mascara will run
it's turning the hot tap but getting cold water
Staying in the bath until you feel something more than numb
It's getting out but sitting on your bed trying to be cold
It's staying awake till four only to sleep to four the same day
It's forgetting to eat but not wanting to
Craving something you can't have
It's knowing that you need to move
but staying still until you Can manage to drag
yourself away from the only place you feel safe
Sometimes it's forgetting how to breathe
But there's no instructions on how to breathe
Everyone says "your body know how don't think about it"
But now i'm more aware and i'm gasping for air but
It's not that i won't breathe again it's just the
"Everyone can breathe why can't you
It's easy  She can breathe why can't you"
"Nothings wrong you can still breathe
Don't ask for help just breathe"
"Why can't you be more like her she can breathe
Without making a big deal out of it"
"Stop pretending you can't breathe"
SMILE
Why can't you?
why don't they understand
"i just can't"

His sadness was louder than the
Voice that told him to love
His heart was hurting more than hers was
He wasn’t broken just not complete
A story that had no end
With a love that wasn’t finished

Behind a single screen
I continue to write
Bound by the sentences I type
Type type type I breathe life into poems
My chest gets heavy and I swallow
type……
My eyes become blank and I stare and the screen
type…..
It rings in my ears the words I could write
The words I should write
But I can’t think
type……..
It’s become undone the reason I wrote
I sit back
Type

I know what i say
Sometimes my heart just hurts
His got a girl
And i've got a boy
I liked him once
But im in love now
Honestly im happy
But even in a crowd
I see him first i say his name
when i mean someone else
And sometimes
It hurts

What does love feel like?
I feel swallowed in a sea of butterflies
That I drunk from the glass
atop his beating heart that lays in my bed
I see romance in the blank pages he has yet to complete
And I love the smile that makes me feel shattered
But head over heels in love

She fell from above
Gentle like a feather
Effortlessly
She was seen as the definition of beauty
She had wings that held her up
allowing her to breathe
She’s flying
Flying away
From where she sat
Upon heavens staircase.

I loved him once when a kiss on the cheek was happiness
I loved him once when I was six and he told me his feelings
I loved him once when I was twelve and he said it wasn’t working
I loved him when I was fifteen and he came back to me
I love him when I was twenty one and caught him cheating with someone
I loved him when he hit me
Even when he said they never find the body
Yes I loved him once when the world above
Needed me and the police tried finding my body
I love him when happiness was a kiss not a missing person’s poster
I truly loved him once when I had a heartbeat

He never liked you a sentence made laughable by a child’s scream.
She believed it and a tumour grew
He lured her in begging her to stay the thread of fate became tinted
To her he was a leaf twirling and spinning floating, endlessly waiting to fall
She was the wind blowing relentlessly beneath him lifting him up
Hoping he would never fall but he decided to lower himself to the ground
And she waited for another falling leaf.