Goodbye.

Lay me six feet under
Don't cover my scars
'I'm sorry' carved into my skin
A bullet wound disgracing my skin
A hole in my heart
Literally
Tell my mistakes
My imperfections
My good memories
The bad ones too
Let everyone know what made me
Publish my book
Set me free.

Crisp dollar bills fill your mind
Since when did greed consume you?
Why is it power is all that matters?
Why is love a non-factor?
When did you lose yourself?
Why did you let go?
Why did you stop believing?
I thought you were so much more.

Just tell yourself okay and things will be better
Sing a song that makes you happy
Read a book that makes you smile
Think of times that were always joyful
Be the person you always wanted to be
Don't let anyone stop you
Don't let them interfere
Dream.

I want to travel to the deepest part of your soul.
I want to know your darkest secrets and nightmares.
I want to inflict pain on you.
But I cant.
It'll just hurt me too.

I just wanted it to be simple.
Why can't life be easy?
Why do we contradict ourselves?
Why is it as teens adults think we don't know what we want in life?
I'm tired.
I dont want to go to college..
I don't want to be scared of being killed by the police.
I don't want to argue.
I don't I don't I don't.
I complain so much when I know I could be sleeping outside on winter nights.
But who can blame me for wanting happiness?
Who can blame me for crying away my pain?
For complaining about my pain.
I just want an answer and no ones giving it.

Okay.
I admit.
I still like you.
I wanted you to be my first kiss.
Love.
Everything.
Wasn't meant to be I'm not gonna trip.
Just know that I felt like I loved you.
Why are you so hard to dismiss?
Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why isn't **** simple?
Loves not hard its the people you try to love.
The people you want to accept.
I know I'm whiny
Irritating
And very insecure
But why don't you love me?
Even if we're a thousand miles away from each other..
I'd wait
I'd wait for you.
Plain and simple.

I'd love to say hi once more.
To see you again
To begin a netter relationship
I didn't know you well
And now that you're gon I regret.
I miss your face now, because I know I won't see it again.
I won't hear your laugh
Or laugh at you sleeping sitting up.
I won't be able to watch you pat my dads back
Or stare off into your own world.
I'll miss you.
Forever and always.
But i know I'll see you again
And I'll smile your way.
Rest in Paradise,
Cause I know
You're finally happy again.

If I said I was a hero,
Would you believe?
Or do you only believe what you see?
Do you not believe in blessings from god?
Or do you only believe in what you see?
We breath oxygen,
But can you see it?
But you believe in it, right?
Exactly.

Crush my heart and pretend you didn't do it.
Pretend you didn't hurt me.
Pretend you didn't lead me on.
Pretend that this was a silly game,
Even though-
Even though you made it seem real
Made it seem like you really fell
That you really felt.
That you could be the one I call my sweet.
My love.
My only.
The one to fill me with joy.
Only to make me cry at the thought of your name.
It was all just a lie, right?
It was a lie.
You manipulated.
You made me feel.
Only to be emotionless.
I want closure.
I want a lot of things that I can't get from you.
I just wanted love.
But I looked in the wrong places.
You.

Broken pieces align my heart,
Waiting to be filled.
Butterflies fly in my stomach
Hands clammy from your touch
Mind crazy from your voice
Its what I call love
Its what I call admiration
The beauty of it all
But you never understand it all
Until you fall
Until its been ripped out of you
And made you believe,
You were nothing after all
Until it made you stop and think,
"Did I really fall in love?"
Until you scream,
"****, I hate you all!"
Until you understand that you are no longer-
No longer who you are
No longer who you are suppose to be.
But only the outcome of a epic fail at love.

Who's to say we're not equal?
What makes you think you're better than me?
We all have a past and nightmares that haunt us
So what makes you better than me?
So what if I don't have the newest Jordan's?
How does that make you better than me?
If I don't understand everything like you do
Does it make you better than me?
No.
I am my own person, I am.
I am a raging fire that is going to succeed.
Not on your terms.
Mine.
I shall not do for you
But for me.
For who I love.
For what I see.
So,
Who's to say you're better than me?

Will my kind ever shine?
Will we get our justice?
We love in a world where it is stated that we are free.
That this is a free country.
It doesn't seem like it.
Trayvon Martin
Mike Brown
Brandon Jones
Does it ever stop?
Will we ever get our rights to freedom?

Touch me.
Make me feel loved.
Make me feel beautiful.
Whispers sweet nothings in my ear.
Kiss away my pain.
Love me unconditionally.
Wipe my tears.
Tell jokes that make me cry in laughter.
Just be there.
Hold me.
Caress me.
Tell me you love me.
Over and over.
Love
Me.

Am I crazy?
Crazy for slicing my wrists?
Crazy for loving the pain you give me?
Crazy because I believe it when you say
"No one will ever love you but me."
Or am I crazy because I let you hurt me?
Crazy because I turned away my friends for you?
My own parents, for you?
everything
Just for you.

Im hurt
Angry
Confused
I just want you-
I need you-
I miss y- everything
So wrapped up in your presence
I forgot what life was like before you
I thought you made **** easier.
Now I always stress
about you
school
money
college
life.

Red lipstick, angel winged eyes,
Falsies, eyebrows on 'fleek',
*******, with an *** to match.
Curvy figure, thin waist.
Pink stiletto nails,
sky high heels,
her black little dress fitting like a second skin,
long, silky, mane, flowing over the curve of her ***

As one would read this they think of a *******, or a stripper,
but do you think of the mother trying to raise her 4 year-old child?
Do you think of the young girl ***** at 16, losing all ambitions
of ever having her dream?

Do not only look at appearance, but look at the story behind it.
Don't judge a book by it's cover, fore you do not know *everything from a picture.

My perception of life,
is to survive.
Live life how you want it,
Love who you want,
and be who you always wanted to be.
Learn that only you can make life easier, harder, or simple.
You control it, you control your life.

The earth stills as he holds in a breath,
only moving as he exhales.
Alcohol, Marijuana, Speed, ****,
it all consumed his life.
it made him, him

But as he stood in the middle of a street in NYC,
he didn't care.
Losing his family to a hit and run,
he wanted to die the same way they did.
Quick, with no pain,
*and the thoughts of getting ice-cream.

Get out of my head
Leave my mind
Stop torturing me with your lies,
Just leave me be.
Let me cry,
Let my soul howl,
Let the pain crush me inside.
I can't say much more,
Because my heart cracks as I do.
Just one last thing,
I hate you.

Dark brown eyes,
bushy eyebrows,
chubby face,
round nose,
fat figure,
crooked-chipped teeth
My worst insecurities.
Plastic surgery crosses my mind and how it would feel to be
perfect
The girl everyone wants.
"Looks aren't everything."
Oh really?
Then who are the ones that are most popular in the music industry,
Movies, modeling?
Answer that if you would like,
but before you tell me, "looks aren't everything."
Let me ask you why tall, dark, and handsome would never go for a girl like me.
Do you still want to answer?

Blinded by love
The thought of him caressing me , holding me, protecting me,
cherishing me
Made life a little easier
Or so I thought.
Slicing my skin with rusty metal was always on my mind.
"I just don't like you like that."
"Why? What is it that doesn't make you 'like' me?"
"It's not you, it's me."
Or is it just the fact that **you're not ready to grow up.