Crush my heart and pretend you didn't do it.
Pretend you didn't hurt me.
Pretend you didn't lead me on.
Pretend that this was a silly game,
Even though-
Even though you made it seem real
Made it seem like you really fell
That you really felt.
That you could be the one I call my sweet.
My love.
My only.
The one to fill me with joy.
Only to make me cry at the thought of your name.
It was all just a lie, right?
It was a lie.
You manipulated.
You made me feel.
Only to be emotionless.
I want closure.
I want a lot of things that I can't get from you.
I just wanted love.
But I looked in the wrong places.
You.

Broken pieces align my heart,
Waiting to be filled.
Butterflies fly in my stomach
Hands clammy from your touch
Mind crazy from your voice
Its what I call love
Its what I call admiration
The beauty of it all
But you never understand it all
Until you fall
Until its been ripped out of you
And made you believe,
You were nothing after all
Until it made you stop and think,
"Did I really fall in love?"
Until you scream,
"****, I hate you all!"
Until you understand that you are no longer-
No longer who you are
No longer who you are suppose to be.
But only the outcome of a epic fail at love.

Who's to say we're not equal?
What makes you think you're better than me?
We all have a past and nightmares that haunt us
So what makes you better than me?
So what if I don't have the newest Jordan's?
How does that make you better than me?
If I don't understand everything like you do
Does it make you better than me?
No.
I am my own person, I am.
I am a raging fire that is going to succeed.
Not on your terms.
Mine.
I shall not do for you
But for me.
For who I love.
For what I see.
So,
Who's to say you're better than me?

Will my kind ever shine?
Will we get our justice?
We love in a world where it is stated that we are free.
That this is a free country.
It doesn't seem like it.
Trayvon Martin
Mike Brown
Brandon Jones
Does it ever stop?
Will we ever get our rights to freedom?

Touch me.
Make me feel loved.
Make me feel beautiful.
Whispers sweet nothings in my ear.
Kiss away my pain.
Love me unconditionally.
Wipe my tears.
Tell jokes that make me cry in laughter.
Just be there.
Hold me.
Caress me.
Tell me you love me.
Over and over.
Love
Me.

Am I crazy?
Crazy for slicing my wrists?
Crazy for loving the pain you give me?
Crazy because I believe it when you say
"No one will ever love you but me."
Or am I crazy because I let you hurt me?
Crazy because I turned away my friends for you?
My own parents, for you?
everything
Just for you.

Im hurt
Angry
Confused
I just want you-
I need you-
I miss y- everything
So wrapped up in your presence
I forgot what life was like before you
I thought you made **** easier.
Now I always stress
about you
school
money
college
life.